Thankful fer todae wif my dae out wif jojo. agnes and lisa. Hahar. Yeap, fer they gave me a pre-b'dae dinner treat. harhar. Very sweet of them and whoa. I'm thankful fer dat. Reallie touched.

But above all these. tok bout matters of da heart. I've just met him a while ago. Things were going on well but suddenly. I took a step back just as I was taking 2 steps forward. put things on hold. doubting myself once more. harhar.

Its a cycle. everytime things reaches a certain point. i'll start heading back to a starting point. harhar. It happens time and again. not suprising dat it turns out like dat once more. Those. "I dun deserve all these" pops up in my head.

I guess its on my part, my fault fer leading ppl on. not to sae dat i dun like him at all. Harhar. We clicked cause we had soOo manie similarities. harhar. Was like a "woW" thing. days past when suddenly todae. I thought bout things. I wonder whether i'm treating as an "lil boi". A younger brother or something. harhar. *shrugs* da doubts sets in. and made up my mind to put things on a hold.

All in all. I'm reallie sorrie fer making things in such a mess. argh. I ain't got a clue as to why things kind of turn out da way they do. i guess i haven't changed as compared to 2-3 years back. I'm still holding on to some things i can't give it up. arhahar. I realised he stands behind time fer my family and frenz. and time fer myself. dat he isn't in much priority. or should i sae. behind God oso. harhar. I dunnoe. I'm just started to lose faith in myself lar.

Den scenes of da past came into my mind. it was exactly the way it was. doubting bout myself and all. all soOo familiar. har. i still had dat faith of things not working out well somehow. argh. i dunnoe. feeling kind of messy rite now. Just gonna rest and see how things go.

Okie, harhar.. HmMm, just got the results online. And eeEEwW. Its a far cry from my last semester's performance.. whooops. harhar, i can settle fer most of da grades except fer my accounts and erm. Econs. har, i think i am reallie not good wif numbers lar.. Can onli work everything and anything on my memory.. harhar.. anything memorisable, harhar.. Well, just pretty much. disappointed in a way at those 2 grades.. the rest were pretty much expected. *sigh* never mind, just glad i cleared it all.. harhar, kind of confirms the feeling of being reallie not dat good wif numbers~! aiyo. lousy feeling. and the cycle carries on. -____-'

Also dunnoe wassup wif me or is it me? harhar, yeah, could be it.. probably should have put in more effort or something. Well, good lesson learnt harhar, u better work harder lar.. harhar.. yeah.. Just try harder =p nothing else to do, cause yucks. ur scores have been fixed. harhar. *sigh* screw things up somehow i feel lar.

Oh well, get over this lousy feeling. harhar, gonna slp and do somethings i soOo love dat have missed doing. Cause it doesn't feel the same doing it. Which is looking at my 2 favourites, and feel totally happie.. those feelings have kind of subsided after spending my yesterdae purely sleeping after spending my lunch wif 2 lovely ppl.. Jojo and Agnes lor.. Feels pretty okie after having a chat wif them.. den went home to slp.. tired and larthegic.. SoOo todae, hahar.. Feeling down again lar.. bleah..

But after some reflection. I think its a good lesson learnt fer me. Teaches me to be humble. All over again, time and again, this lesson will come and it keeps me reminded. "joyce. stay humble." it'll spring out, once in a while and I guess, I learn and be thankful fer I've been blessed by God, who's on the constant lookout fer me. And to keep track of my attitude. Times I think it is going down the drain. harhar, but fear not. I've got a great Father. Ah Pa to readily discipline when it nids to be. Fer me~! rite time, tells u that there's always room fer improvement. heart of learning. willingness and a good old positive spirit which has been lacking at times. =) God's living alrite. time fer u to realise the wonders he works in my life. greatful of thanks. =) *muacks*

Well, I dunnoe what's up wif me.. Just been sleeping quite alot lately.. Harhar, maybe just wanna slp- and slp-.. Oh well, am on daddie's office comp.. The comp I used last time when it was the long holidays.. harhar, staying late at nite every nite like some freak.. harhar.. not before i got my larling.. harhar, my lappy.. Den different story now.. used to find the comp fast, but now, its reallie like a grandpa.. harhar, wad to do.. Cause dun have Joyce to maintain~!! Harhar, information overload lor.. this comp.. harhar.. oh well.. lalalala.. Just got the desktop worked on wireless.. realised how silly i had been.. i tried fer like 15-20 mins, that wireless thingy didn't worked.. U noe Y? harhar, simple.. Cause it was behind the speakers and the signal couldn't reach it..

PLaced dat lame wireless adapter on the cpu and den the signal worked.. after meddling wif the different combinations.. i thought that scv's router wasn't compatible wif the adapter.. -________-.. lame. bleah. anyways, after much hurrying from mummy to get that wireless thingy done.. harhar..

Anyways, I'm just keeping my prayers real tight.. close. and hard. God bless. *sigh* drives me nuts at the thought of it sometimes.. but if wad's made up, i'll leave it all in God's hands.. Freaking. Makes me feel like some trials once more. its been quite some time since i had some trials. i dunnoe. only He noes and has the answers.. "through tears and joy, I'll trust in you". this is pretty trying.. Well, pray like mad.. harhar.. =)

OH well, soOo much soOo. am trying to get my butt a job and hopefully land myself but apparently, it doesn't seem like there's any opportunites available cause dunnoe arh. like market quite bad or something. no one's recruiting. harhar, poor kid like me gotta go dig some money somewhere. wharhar.. Reminds me of some RPG [role=playing=game] walking around, fighting monsters.. getting some money and den heading to the shops and buy equipment to fight bigger monsters and arm urself wif better defence.. harhar.. soOo cute.. Oh well, i'm mad. i wanna get a new hard disk drive.. My lappy is lagging.. SoOo manie barang.. 40GB more den enough.. harharar, store and store~!!!! Pictures pictures of Dong Gun and Min JOng oppa.. More videos~!!! More music.. wharhar.. I'm mad.

I have just realised i'm soOo first. Blind without my glasses on. Can't even see properly when I type as i have the lappy on my lap... *sigh* I'm getting old. hahar.. Oh well.. Just came here to leave... My pain here.. Complain here~! Harhar, yeah.. My back's soOo freaking aching and i'm here to complain.. [no one else to complain to rite?] *sigh* I'm reallie getting old.. harhar..

Oh well, dunnoe wad's happening.. Could be due the past previous days bathing late? Oh well, I think I was asking fer it.. If i follow my normal schedule, dat is when there was skool, everything should have been okie I guess.. Argh. Onli comfort I guess is my bed and my pillow.. *relief* it is nice.. And a lil rub off my back.. And pray to God dat he'll probably heal me soOn.. harhar..

Oh well, enough about complaining.. hahar, todae has been one of the most happening days in one of the longest time ar.. harhar, spent my afternoon wif Glenda dearie.. Alrite man, being out wif her is soOo fun.. harhar.. yeap~! Just love those talks, and the eating~! Harhar, we ate soOo much we got glares I think from the waitress.. harhar, i think both of us ate like round 20+ plates of pure sushi.. harhar, sushi buffet.. Well, she oso taught me to eat loads of things i wouldn't dared eat in the past alrite.. now, heading to Sakae Sushi and eatin, should be worth the full price.. harhar, i ate.. one. Red Ginger. I found dat thing reallie gross last time, but seems it tasted nice. two. Octopus sushi. it looked soOo freaking raw, [i hate raw stuff], but harhar.. She went.. "nice nice!!" okie lor, eat oso no harm mar.. Food's edible.. She said.. "put on the ginger and soya sauce" [I'm a dunker. I drink soya sauce when i eat sushi lor] harhar.. And stuff it all into ur mouth.. harhar, it tasted alrite, caused the. erh.. Soya sauce covered the entire taste of the rawness.. harhar, but it was nice lar~! Glennie~! I prefer that cooked octopus sushi, the one u scream and scream, say.. "i'm soOo tempted" after ya soOo full.. =) And I ate wasabe, i used to hate it. but apparently, it adds some kick to the soya sauce lar.. harhar.. =) thanks dearie.. Haven't had soOo much fun in quite some time and made me eat things i thought i never did.. =) SoOo grateful.. harhar..

Oh yeah, and I'm just soOo happie fer her.. Yeah, hope everytime she's happie and I'll be happie alrite.. =) U guys are just soOo sweet lor.. Hee~! Must stay happie always.. *huggiezZz* I'm soOo tired. Giving my "broken" back a rest now.. Doing everything on the bed.. its pure laziness. but wad to do. harhar.. its pure comfort. lalala.. See ya guys tml again ar Glennie. =)

Yo. I'm back.. harhar, after a much hard work of studying.. [harhar, call dat hard work?] yeah. I call dat hard. SoOo hard trying to stay at a spot practicing but harhar.. i guess that is the job of being one student rite.. and wad was said was rite.. being a student, u actualli only nid to put lots of hard work twice a year, fer the examinations and den most of da time, u're having lots of time to urself and oso having fun ar. harhar.. =)

2 papers down and one more to go.. Aiyo. Its alreadi thursdae and I onli studied one topic tonite. and gosh. tml's Good Fridae. how fast. its alreadi coming to the end of March and erh.. April's coming? whoot. Dat was fast.. HmMm.. Dat's reallie fast. harhar.. And i'll be older. harhahar.. Believe it or not. I'm reaching 18.. Harhar, soOo farnie.. harhra, how often I think i'm old but apparently, at times i dun behave as one ar.. harhar-ing whole dae.. harhar.. *shrugs* dats me. Happie go lucky as wad mummy calls me ar.. *laughs loudly*

Well, better get my butt moving and do some reading up.. Just went watching Dong Gun oppa's interviews and all.. PLus one more movie. "gates of destiny".. *sigh* Koreans always seem to have dat sad factor in almost everything they do ar.. Songs, MVs, movies, teevee dramas.. Some kind of trademark and this movie wasn't sparred from dat either.. Thought Min Jong oppa did really well, harhar.. Young and handsome.. Onli weak thing.. Da plot of da story.. Reminds me of watching "2009 Lost Memories".. Difference, the way da screenplay goes.. Both are bout some gateway to the future.. but one's more developed, and Gates of Destiny, was an older version.. not soOo high tech and more "historical".. one thing fer sure i learnt from dat movie.. "guns beat swords in terms of fighting. u'll sure gonna lose, if ur weapon's a.. sword"..

OoOh well.. And yeah.. Finally got to understand wad "gwen-cheon-do-ae", dat song by Min Jong oppa was.. Harhahr, big time lyrics in english and chinese.. and definitely, chinese lyrics was the better choice in terms of bringing the song out.. I always felt dat way, though I'm more fluent in my english, always felt chinese was a better alternative in relating to matters close to the heart.. Somehow, Chinese's got dat extra punch.. Cause Chinese, can be phrased in a simple manner, but wif a little twist, its gonna get a whole new dimension to the feeling of wad u just said.. English, harhar.. How simple can u get, it takes much more of a twist to bring the feelings out.. harhar.. SoOo loved chinese songs more dat way, more sadness in there.. harhar..

But yeah, did one of the most amazing things.. Buying an english album.. I totalli havent been listening to any of the most recent english songs, but one fine dae.. I just clicked onto one of my brother's playlist, and there was Keane.. harhar, a britain 3-some.. HmmM, I liked one of their songs, which was featured in one of the advertisments of "chase".. Their music sort of remind me of coldplay, but the difference, probably less slur.. Lots of guitar.. harhar, piano and chords.. Love it.. Reallie different music to wad i've been listening to.. on top of the korean pop.. harhar.. And I thought i should be opening up my ears to listen to more english songs ar.. somehow, they've got much interesting chords.. in their songs.. they've got nice tunes.. but i'll go fer the chinese, in terms of feelings and moods, the lyrics reallie roxs in chinese songs.. harhar, soOo mix up the english tunes of their songs and the chinese lyrics.. I think it'll be the greatest combination.. harhra.. =)

I'm freaking out. Reallie. Really dun have much confidence in not being careless. harhar. its scary. Harhar, becomes a phobia wif numbers ar. just wif statistics. harhar.. I dunnoe, I just kind of fumble whenever its numbers. and its the same thing I face every nite before I sit fer the paper..

Harhar, fer the last 10 years, hahar.. Same feeling, butterflies in my stomach. harhar.. Lost faith alreadi.. harhar.. but never mind, try to do whatever i can. harhar, its always dat.. "I hope i've practiced enough".. feeling.. Ar well.. Leave it up to God fer that final part and do wadever I can..

Cup of milo.. warm myself down and get some rest.. harhar, and pray to God he'll bless us.. harhar, my dearie cousin.. harhar, we were working together to crack that hypothesis chapter.. fun.. harhar.. and we somehow got our own theories and kind of got wad it was all about.. harhar.. Just brings back the times we were younger. harhar.. Times when we helped each other in our work.. harhar.. Long time since we did that together.. harhar.. And some heart to heart chat.. =) I just hope she's all well.. Think less and walk on the positive side, and she'll be all looking great and fine.. harhar.. [not dat she isn't looking well, but certainly make her shine once she sees the positive side].. harhar.. Cheer up buddie =) Had tons of fun.. thanks dearie..

Okie okie..*deeps breath* Get rest, and its "war wif the papers" tomolo.. hahar, I thought there was peace fer some time.. harhar, *fighting*.. Will think of wad mummy told me.. "think twice before u write". harhar.. =) wish me luck.. NItey nite..

wharhar.. every nite I wanna blog these couple of nites.. harhar, i feel like slping ar.. wharhar.. soOo well, I guess i haven't been entering some entries ar.. well well, wharhar.. its da study week, and yeah.. thankfully managed to get some work done.. Pure accounts.. harhar.. =) As I went on doing a paper a dae, i can't help but to think of back den.. a year ago.. harhar.. during this same time, probably having accounts tution wif suresh.. hwee boon, ling li, jin hui, janna, and lyn plus me all cuddled in Mr Tan's room.. harhar, dat zen feeling room.. can still remember the layout of da place.. hahar.. =) yeap, doing and doing accounts questions..

hahar.. and rite now, todae.. i'm in my room, sitting in front of 2 handsome.. Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa, workin sums and sums.. harhar, smiled to myself.. those were the days.. i missed those times.

harhar, u do reallie feel much like a skool student back den. den we'll all walk to the bus stop, sit all in a line and they'll company me to wait fer my bus and they'll all walk on to their bus stop and take the bus home.. and when i got home, I remember this~! I had to start studying fer my chinese chapter tests.. harhar, it was always hard fer me, trying to manage those days.. Times i'll do well and there was this period of borderline scores.. I reallie thought of giving up and taking up Syllabus B.. harhar, and was Hwee Boon who coaxed me out of it.. hahar.. She said.. "Joyce ar, u dun study, u probably didn't even pass ar.. dun worrie, just do ur best in ur final o'levels".. and she wrote this letter to me.. harhar.. there was this chinese phrase.. "dun give up easily, or u'll be letting urself down".. har, the english translation by me sounds reallie bad.. but those were the good old daes.. dat's how i learnt my chinese ar.. harhar.. was fun.. i suddenly feel soOo old ar.. hahar.. =) miss her hangouts ar.. during recess time she'll company me do my walk arounds.. harhar, and we'll chat and chat all the way.. harhar, haven't seen her fer a long time.. hahar..

Har, soOo much soOo fer remembering the good old daes.. wharhar.. went to reach out fer God todae.. harhar, and the "40 days of purpose" book, I finished it ar.. todae.. some whole 15 chapters and a real good 15 chapters.. the best part of the book was done purely todae.. talking about servanthood.. "many wants to lead, but how many wants to serve?", whoOoa. It struck me todae. suddenly, feel harhar.. Whar, at peace wif myself.. harhar, these couple of days been like kind of listless and not without much of a purpose.. harhar, no DRIVE.. harhar. dat's da psychological terms ar.. harhar.. drive. but got it back ar.. feels great =) it always feels good when u put God in the centre of ur life lar.. ^^ it is a constant reminder.. to urself.. I'm really nothing without my God and to remind urself, its him who is working tirelessly.. 24-7. giving his ever 110% and i'm always soOo moved by this moving God. He's gotta be in ur centre of ur life man. Dat's one important lesson i've learnt todae. He's becoming soOo coOL to be.. Oh my gosh.. Hee, I thought God was soOo sweet. "He prepared breakfast", I *gasped* yeap, and it puts urself at ease and go forth in a brand new kind of light and mode.. harhar.. to study~!!!! harhar.. yeah.. SoOo much of motivation to start moving.. harhar, its moving but u noe.. its moving in a much smoother way now..

After heading out to study wif Hakim yesterdae. hahar, was reallie funny man.. we chatted fer an hour before hitting our heads into the sums.. wharhar.. Work and press calculator like i was sms-ing.. harhar.. =p managed to "steal" one paper of practice from him.. harhar, he was working hard.. must learn to be like him ar.. He said something.. harhar.. v e r y interesting.. harhar.. "joyce, u've changed.." I looked up at him..

"huh? reallie?" harhar.. i noe i noe.. harhar.. Den i told him all.. "sitting all alone in a secluded corner during lectures. seemingly looks soOo cold to everyone.. plucking earphones on my ears whereever i go".. harhar.. he went, "yar ar", "sudden change, dun dare to tok to u ar".. harhar, i let out a whole bunch of laughters.. yeah, i noe.. i realised it myself.. harhar, den i explained myself.. harhar.. "everyone's in their pairs and couples, u dun expect me to be some extra there ar.. and yeah.. everyone's got clicks.. soOo i sit alone ar.. i learn more toOo.. harhar".. Den he laughed it off.. and he went.. "seems like u haven't changed actualli".. and i went.. "yeah, next time lectures i find u and sit beside ar..".. He went.. "okie lar, sure ar.. " He's soOo farnie ar.. Reallie suits that "kambing" nick we all give him.. harhar.. =) He made me see, u better start working hard.. harhar.. and fer the cute compliments.. harhra.. I reallie laugh them off.. =)

But to say, yes.. i've quieten down myself.. somehow one way or another.. i do realise it myself toOo.. more introverted [tell dat to mummy, she wun believe it, cause my mom feels i'm soOo noisy ar].. More time to myself, behind the doors in moi room.. and most of the time, whereever i'll go.. My company, music.. harhar.. soOo music is one important aspect, of course including God ar.. hmMm. hahar, i dunnoe, but i'm liking it.. harhar.. =)

Hmm.. It sure does feel good now.. harhar, was getting restless and bored actually, these couple of weeks.. Could be due to the overworked week last week.. harhar, now suddenly, everything all seem to have just ended and the study break term has come on by already.. Time passes by soOo fast actually dat I can hardly believe my eyes.. And yes.. Its one year in tp alreadi.. cannot believe it..

Yes, study break now, and its more like i'm feeling of slacking the days away but my conscience wouldn't let me ar.. todae is tuesday alreadi, and I better start getting moi butt moving.. harhar, always nid to feel that sense of urgency before i start pushing my relunctant self into doing things.. harhar, good and not so good in dat sense i suppose..harhar..

well, just packed my room alittle up.. all the stacks of discs all flying all around the places ar.. soOo annoying.. harhar.. and bags all stacked in the cupboard all around requires alittle tidy up.. and more space to study, which always ends up, prowling all over the bed, and working on the bed.. harhar.. which is the ultimate and most comfortable thing to do..

Yeah, been finding some music to run to.. Yes, first was Jacky Cheung.. hoo hoo.. and den i was in search of something else.. harhar.. something a tad sadder tune.. and wif more recollections.. harhra, its the "ghost" ost.. u noe, dat drama which starred Dong Gun oppa and Min Jong oppa.. hoo hoo..listening to it all over once more, gives me some sense of feelings once more.. harhar.. dat's wad my mood is and wad my ears wanted to hear.. something not found in my playlist of mp3s which i've gotten kind of bored alreadi.. but always take time out to reveal all those hidden secrets in those cds which are left untouched in one corner fer a period of time, take them out and listen.. hoo hoo.. its always dat enlightening.. and enoyable as wad i've done soOo far.. Listening to those older k-pop songs.. the songs reallie just seemed like i've known them, but it was like 2 years back alreadi.. see.. time just reallie flies.. harhar..

okie, thinking of revising and cracking my brains fer statistics kind of bores me.. which harhar.. i've come up wif an idea of starting off wif accounting first.. lalala.. kie ar.. den go do my quiet time.. been dozing off these couple of nites alreadi.. cannot cannot~! harhar.. okie.. dat's my plans fer todae.. soOo gonna do them.. wanna find one dae to head out and play bball.. missing the game.. hmm.. brings back memories.. but anyways.. just let them go all on the hoops.. =) everyone's falling sick.. first it was me.. now there's kim yee.. ah hui and internet mommy.. aiyo..get well sooOn ppl.. prayers be wif u all.. *huggiezZz*

*pouts* i wanna go see Dong Gun oppa~! harhar, he's over at malaysia.. soOo coOL eh.. Wished i was older den can fly liao.. harhar, whoops.. Looks like no chance to see him ar.. i'll just... dream a little dream.. wishes it comes true.. soOo coOL to be able to see da 2 oppas one dae.. i'll just.. dream...

Wassup wif this blogger thingy.. They've changed the format of inserting the fonts.. harhar, it was lazee enough to be adjusting the font type.. now the font size.. SoOo ma fan one ar.. harhar.. Oh well, more clicks fer a lazee person like me ar.. harhar.. =)

HmMm.. Haven't been blogging much ar.. Either been seeing handsome handsome and den falling asleep or simply.. just really nothing much fer me to blog.. harhar, maybe doing something overtime over and over again becomes a routine and becomes boring.. harhar.. not much thoughts and thinkings left to be written here..

Oh yes, todae was me reallie bad ar.. Lacking of the usual projectionist duty call from aunty christina, I overslept todae lor.. *sigh* cannot make my mind straight on schedule sia.. But after todae, learnt reallie well dat hey, I actualli should be early fer church lor.. always coming in later.. todae worst, overslept all the way dat i just merely went fer cell group onli.. Aiyo, felt bad not serving God todae cause he has been always giving me his full 100 percent or even blessing me wif soOo much more reallie.. once more, he has blessed me wif an unbelievable score fer my communication skill.. To say I reallie sucked at dat last sem and I think previously, I didn't fared dat well was cause i fell asleep while I was studying ar.. This time had alittle more effort but hitting a 75 was freaking high.. Was shocked ar, when I personally went to see Mdm Aisha personally fer my score cause dat dae i didn't turn up.. Was on MC that thursdae.. And toking bout MC.. i haven't submitted it on fridae lor.. *yikes* And I gotta make dat trip down all the way down to skool to pass it dat up.. My goodness, I just hope its not toOo late.. *sigh* guess just head back to skool and hand it in and make my way home.. Oh my gosh.. Thought dun nid to go skool ar.. at this moment i do wish skool was nearer..

Well, I guess dat's wad blogging is.. harhar, to make u remember bout things u kind of forget.. *sigh* soOo absent minded at times.. Wad me thinking ar.. harhar, always "oh yeah ar".. never mind.. =( hmm.. well, study week's tml.. harhar, more time to myself.. time to study and to sit down and just rest. study. eat. harhra.. Like robot ar.. and most importantly, I guess its time to sit down and to do wad I love most doing.. Enjoying pure music.. Well, least fer now, its something which will lighten up da days.. harhar, somehow, just feel something lacking either in my life or something.. [more of God?] dunnoe, just got the feeling of being cooped up once i enter my room ar.. hahar, but seeing Ernie's face in it, kind of makes me giggle ar.. maybe its the habit of just switching on the comp once i enter my room and doing the same thing or something? harhar, or feeling.. alone?.. harhar.. God noes, just feel something lacking ar.. wonder wad's dat ar.

Yeah.. SoOo freaking happie now.. Harhar.. Relaxing and slacking around fer a dae please.. Its been days ever since I've got the time to reallie enjoy the things that I reallie wanna do.. harhar, doing my favourites.. Lalalaa.. Watching my 2 favourite oppas.. Dong Gun oppa's got a new haircut~! Oh moi gosh, a stunning handsome handsome lar.. harhar.. He looks soOo much better wif this new hair.. Miss his old looks.. Those brighter sunshine boi looks.. SoOo cute lor.. No wonder I like for soOo long liao.. Haharh =)

Heh heh, soOo slacking life is pretty good lar.. SoOo tired liao.. Wanna sleep but still wanna watch teevee.. harhra.. Got no handsome to watch.. Unless I whip up my VCD lor.. But aiyo, buay tahan lar.. GOnna anytime sleep de lor.. SoOo just looking ar handsomes will do..

Wharhar, must leave my record down and see how many hours of sleep i have been clocking fer the past few nites... Todae is wednesdae.. From Sundae nite till last nite.. I think i've just clocked 9 to 10 hourds of sleep.. Its good in a way cause it helps keep u slimmer but definitely not healthy fer ur face and ur health.. Down wif a stupid loss of voice and flu and cough.. hoo hoo.. Roxs..

And thank God I got through todae.. All thanks to God's help ar.. Got through the dae wif psycho test, plus Comm skills role play and lastly, NMM's website.. Finalli its all over and its reallie a load off my chest.. Especially wif the completion of NMM's webbie.. Whoot.. Just hope the stuff is all ther alreadi.. Something in dat proposal.. Somehow feel a little insecure about that matter cause on a fact most of the information was spoon fed and it reallie seems that the proposal is little as compared to the usual..

Things got a little rough in the beginning of the dae as I was rushing to get the NMM proposal out and rushing fer the role play's proposal toOo. harhar.. Thank GOd I managed to finish them both but taking a little 15 mins time off from my psycho test.. Arrived later as I rushed my way down.. and thank God that the role-play went all well the first time round.. Proposal was kind of crappy but harhar.. It went through ar.. and with my "sexy" voice, it went well was okie.. den to wrap up the dae was the NMM small talk about ue website..

Thank God I got through todae lar.. Yeah.. Slack slack slack~!! Harhar.. =p Den surviving 2 hours of econs lecture.. harhar, slept under the nose of the lecturer, cause was realie cannot tahan.. Wake up, little later and listen wif full attention.. not toOo bad ar.. harahr.. Little sleep goes a loOong way.. And once more I overslept while I was on my way home.. hahar, had to take another bus in the opposite direction and walk and walk home.. hahar.. Kind of sums it up that no matter how tired u are, just keep walking, u'll reach home.. harhr..

I wanna scream ar.. Tired.. harhar.. Eyes are closing.. Oh well, thinking of tomorrow kind of freaks ppl alrite.. Okie freaks me.. 2 presentation and a test.. hoo.. God noes how I'm gonna cope.. harhar, kind of tired alreadi.. Niways, am gonna go to lalaland soOn and den wake up hopefully feeling refreshed fer the last round of work.. Its scary.. harhar, never mind.. Having Ernie's continually smiling face kind of cheers me up.. BUt still nevertheless tired.. Harhar.. complaining of tired and tired here ar.. Physically in front here, but mind is elsewhere..

Man, do hope am gonna finish up da work.. Sleeping time.. nitey nite.

Hoo hoo.. Am taking one things at a time.. Before i totally start losing my voice, which i can't and have no choice but to try to make sure i do have some voice before presentation dates on wednesdae.. Harhra, yes, time passes by.. Tick tocks away and the pressure mounts but harhar.. Hold on to my faith.. Harhar.. He's gonna provide lar, and i'm gonna not be superwoman again.. harahr.. The last time was Kris, who called me that.. "joyce~! Dun be superwoman ar.." everytime before all my papers she will remind me dat.. harhar, my grades hit dat well was also thanks to her de.. harhar.. =)

Yeah, feels much better tonite.. harhar, somehow.. Kind of have my mind eased in a way cause I noe God's gonna be there.. harhar, he did.. Amazingly, I did quite alot in da early morning todae wif dat website.. Its reallie eating up time.. trying to get it done as soon as possible lar.. Now am gonna be down wif the pictures..

Nice wind blowing on moi face now.. Harhar, feel like slping sia.. harhar.. See how it goes lar.. =) *fighting*

Arhar.. Yes miss kim yee.. I've haven't been blogging fer these couple of days.. SoOo tired to do most bout entirely everything.. Been days I haven't been seeing the 2 gorgeous.. The 2 handsomes.. Haven't been posting on minjong.net.. jangdonggun.pe.kr/eng/board.. soompi.com.. And its time to realise why u haven't been able to do so.. harhar.. I've been and it all brings me back to one fact.. I haven't been seeking enough of God..

Relying toOo much on myself? Yes, I think I was doing dat.. Fighting with time, trying to prove that I am superwoman.. Trying to say that "hey~! I've got 2 hours of sleep! How manie have u got".. Making the assumption that.. "less hours of sleep = more hours of work" = Yeah~! U've got soOo many things accomplished~! Whoo hoo~! Happie?

Harhar, joyce~! Wake up dude.. Everything all goes back to the fact.. everything in him.. End of the day, ur human self will say, yes joyce, u did an awful lot.. But how much of ur time have u spent wif God.. Its been a couple of months, I must say, since I spent an awful good time wif my dear father.. The times I said spending time wif him was such a touch and go.. I think God didn't even see my face, just seeing me saying "hi God" and turning my back and walking away from his face.. Dat's wad I feel I've been doing.. Every single work u are doing, how many are u doing it for God? Its a constant reminder to do everything in him, cause most of da stuff or everything is thru him.. There's onli soOo much my human self can do.. I've realli been relying on my own self toOo much, I haven't been putting enough faith in him..

It makes me see myself when despite that little I am doing, God is still continually putting his 100% full fer me.. In making my everyday life still falling into nice, comfy pieces.. Nothing toOo difficult to handle fer my "human" self.. I dunnoe why I gotta wait till my entire body, when it breaks down.. tells me I nid rest, and tells me i've been working toOo hard.. It also means, i've not been seeking enough of God.. Will I tell myself to run back into the arms and seek our Father's face..

Listening to Hillsongs, which have been really touching me deep down.. Makes me wanna cry it out.. "i'm sorrie"... "i've strayed".. "i nid u".. Nothing else beats that realisation effect and feeling God's coming in the presence of ur daily life more and more.. I guess, I grew up in a way like dat.. Running alittle far and coming back to his presence again.. A feeling reallie nice, letting the tears flow.. Reaching fer him ever more.. The power of his love.. Yeap..

He kept me well and proper till the dae I am todae.. I ain't nothing if I ain't got him.. Dat's all I can say.. I dunnoe how I might have strayed when I was younger.. Dat bunchful of energy, wanting soOo much to go and "expand my lil playground".. Roaming round the neighbourhood wasn't fun enough.. Let's go somewhere further.. Till I got older, I got tired of roaming.. Harhar.. Yeah, always seaches the soul of myself deep down.. He's been doing an awful lot fer me.. How much have I done fer him? Giving him a full 100% every single dae will be a challenge.. dat hunger. dat life to want to lead.. I soOo wanna go find him now.. and i will.. feel soOo mean fer doing those to him.. dat's how much God loves u.. He'll love u no matter how much less or much u do.. those unconditional love.. Makes me one happie person.. Makes me whole.. Happie to have found u God =)

I am soOo freaking tired from every single deadline.. Of everything that comes and tells u that.. "hey, its got to be done by a date".. IFs Its gonna go fer another week I'm reallie gonna burn myself out.. I'm on the brink but gonna find God.. Fer a all new purpose.. strength.. Charge up.. He's always there.. That's wad i soOo love bout this coOL guy.. *muacks* glad to have found u..

Freaking long time since I last posted.. been too busy and larthegic and tired to do so anyways.. thanks to all da projects deadlines.. Just had free time to do soOo.. harhar, missed tutorials todae.. I got up soOo late to head fer BA niways.. God bless me.. hahar, I've gotta play catch up den.. As usual, getting things a little slower as compared to da rest.. But well, work fer it and push myself all da way till da semester ends.. My battery is really running low.. Simply working on God's strengths to pull me through.. God noes why I am soOo tired either.. harhar.. Could be da work and da brooding over deadlines I guess.. Its s l o w l y decreasing.. harhar, all dat's left is 2 more projects.. Econs and NMM.. hoo and I'm soOo very done..

Been reallie tiring.. But aiyo.. Terms coming to an end and everything dat u put in will go and well.. Another sem comes on in and the whole entire cycle of routine and expectations all goes replaying again.. Believe it or not, its such a freaking rat race dat everyone is soOo bothered about.. Turn ur head around, in da skool environment alone.. U really see everyone working hard, and da bottomline is dat grades does matter in a skool environment or should i say. It matters in a today's society and in Singapore's context.. It is such a necessity..

At 17, I do very much find life a cycle and a routine.. Not very much from robots I'll say.. We go on doing our similar things or should I say, identical things practically most of da dae.. but the line stnds in whereby robots do not possess feelings and dat's da onli thing dat makes us human if the terrorist ppl out there will realise.. harhar, it still makes me wonder WHAT in da world are they fighting soOo hard fer.. Killing ppl.. Wad? U no different from a robot~! Harhar, I asked dat qn to my mom.. harhar, she goes.. they're crazee.. hahar, still not the answer i wan.. maybe I'll go ask the ppl themselves.. I doubt its got anything to do wif nuclears or something..

But well, dat's one thing I do hope everyone will realise we're living all fer God's purpose.. now dat's one thing dat makes my life different apparently from the rest case on the fact dat he does makes a difference in living my everyday life.. I'll just hope dat everything dat I am doing will be a pleasing offering to him.. Cause I dunno, if God was taken away from moi life.. I'll seriously go suicide.. hahar.. He's everything in moi world and everything the reason dat holds my world upright.. uptight.. making everyday somewhat new and bearable.. Its soOo tiring.. Harhar.. Sleeping, resting.. And in the next couple of hours the entire cycle returns and u get up.. and u do ur routine once more.. Aiyo.. Tiring.. But I guess as a student is da onli time u can have the ability to change the way things go once in a while.. Once every lemme see.. 6 months lar, u get a 2 months break and u can very jolly well enjoy the wonders of working life.. hahar, end of it, u get back to ur skooling ways and do enjoy it on the fact, u remain dat all pure simple lifestyle.. harhar. pure as in u will become naturally less demanding in da ways of these worlds.. harhar, money's evil alrite.. harhar, wif more money, u wan more of this and dat.. harhar.. oh well, i think i'm just kind of tired wif da way the routine is making me.. hahar, i wanna go do something different.. harhar.. wonder wad there is.. besides the guitar playing which takes my mind off in a while.. harahr.. maybe more of God.. wharhar =)

See, this wad happens when i do stop blogging fer a while.. Some long cheong hei messages gets posted.. harhar.. SoOo todae, went out to Sim Lim shopping.. Shopping fer a casing fer moi dear lappy to get it protected whenever I bring it out.. harhar.. Got some rechargebles.. harhar, dat's my life.. harhar, i nid music and it nids batteries if u didn't realise.. harhar, toOo expensive to go get da usual un-rechargebles.. harhar.. and lastly.. got a new digital camera.. not toOo fancy.. enough to meet my nids I guess.. hahar, well.. to pamper myself fer a while and keep moiself amused.. harhar..

Larthegic. tired. restless. Pretty much wad i've been feeling these couple of weeks that I even kind of quit blogging fer awhile.. Attention span fell little short.. harhar, and I'll be taking naps and naps in da nite.. Den working through the entire nite after the CNY.. DA rush also known as the CNY rush, was just merely some of da things done.. last week was kind of hellish..

There was NMM beta.. Hoo, thank goodness things got done by myself, stucking my ass out to complete da job.. remembered dat I wanna skip Stats tut just to complete it.. But thankfully ash went to told me dat there was gonna be a class test.. Harhar, and thankfully God blessed me enough.. Was pretty ok wif da score.. Harhar, fer something i didn't reallie know why I was doing and writing da things I was writing.. harhar.. Luckily I enquired more on da topic weeks before from Hock Le Ian.. He was da one who taught me how to read dat table thingy.. harhar.. which was da most vital part of da chapter.. oOow.. =) Thank God.. Manie things to thank God fer dat I do hope that every nite before I close my eyes and sleep in recuperation of the next dae.. Dat I'll be not onli be recharged but oso be constantly reminded dat in everything u do, it is him who is wif u almost in every step of da way..

I've simply been shutting down abruptly these couple of daes.. Either I lacked slp fer dat nite or was either.. I was totally knocked out.. Yeap, dat was how last week went.. Glad its lil over now.. some things done and more to come.. Har, having the belief dat all will be done and accomplished in time to come.. Hopefulli wif God's help, its reallie gonna be done.. Seriously kind of feel times, I just think its impossible wif da datelines coming up and all, but somehow, he makes me some "superwoman" fer a dae.. hahar, I go working, and kind of times whereby I dun even have a clue at wad I am doing.. harhar, thinking dat I myself is going around in circles, but God's always there to lead u out of da way.. Pick u up and carrie on walking..

Yesterdae.. another "heong" nite sia.. At auntie Pei Yee's place.. Kim Yee's aunt.. hoo.. BBQ was fine, as usual, it was da both of us cooking and serving.. And den later on, was like drinking time.. harhar, I myself oso shocked ar.. Drank quite abit dat dae.. Playing bluff.. and just enjoying da nite.. But den comes to da next dae, it gets pretty taxing.. Slept at 530am and woke up at 830am.. Went back home to get a shower, I didn't have any spare clothes wif me.. Came home, showered and out i went to church but was late lar.. but somehow, still did learnt things from it.. U just gotta trust and trust at the end of da dae.. and i think i am falling into dat pitt, i've just dug fer myself.. harhar, could be i've been relying tooOo much on my own.. hmMm.. Will try to change it alreadi.. Whooops.. Getting tired again.. Nap first lar, get up again and do some work..

Harhar, dunnoe wassup wif me.. But kind of feeling tons of feelings in my head and trying to let them all out.. harhar.. One, there's work.. Psycho write up to be doing and I've yet done it.. simply been sitting in front of da comp fer 2 hours looking at my favourite 2 oppas face.. Leaving messages on soompi.com.. minjong.net and jangdonggun.pe.kr/eng/board.. Two, could be stress.. harhra.. Three, I'm tired.. harhar, didn't slp well yesterdae.. Rushing NMM project.. leprosy site.. Its up, am relieved.. Its one down and couple more of deadlines going on.. Some war wif datelines coming up.. hahar, Four, da house has become quieter.. Oppa's gone to aussieland to stardie.. Yeah, soOo its quieter.. no one to bicker wif u.. Bother u.. harhar, back to da usual times of time to me, myself. lassie. maid. harhar.. SoOo manie feelings.. harhar, adds up.. Pretty cranked up and finding to release them all out.. Solution: listen to coldplay: clocks and yellow. Clocks certainly do help.. da tune, intro.. harhar.. =)

Okie okie.. Ain't in da best mood to write.. Mind's trying to work its way out.. harhar.. I onli pray fer God to be wif me.. bless me.. harhar.. Gimme a hug~! Hahar, strength. patience. wisdom. I'll probably get by this hectic mess of a week. Datelines ain't da best thing to happen in one's life all at once~! harhar.. Gotta work another one more nite. See ya. Probably am gonna be slp nite da whole entire nite tml. God bless.

Harhar, okie okie.. i was supposed to be blogging like ages ago but u noe.. My butt lazee.. Harhar, and everytime I wanna blog.. I slp liao lor.. Just love my beloved bed.. harhra, it toks to me.. "joyce, come.. Slp lar!" harhar.. Duh.. I'm mad.. Llalalaa..

Har, pre new year was rather fun as compared to new yr da dae itself.. Pre new year was out wif ah hui, ah li, ah na and ah boon and sidik.. harhar.. Which was reallie fun, think its reallie fun heading out wif all of them.. Cause one thing is that there's a a assurance no one gets left out.. harhar.. Yeap, seperated fer some time but we'll find our way back together among da crowd.. Harhar, in da morning, went back HSS.. Well, not da time it was anymore, cause soOo manie teachers had left.. Manie were like the pillars and i think they were the ones who added life to the skool and made skool real fun.. Esp. da humanities department.. I miss Miss Linda and Mr Chong..* sigh*

Harar, oh well, back to da gang I went out wif.. We went out to watch "I Do I Do" harhar, which was wah piangz.. soOo funny lar.. 5 of us, enough to laugh like siao.. harhar, think the whole entire cinema was like full of our laughters.. harhar.. Day before was watching "Phoenix of the sun", and hoo hoo.. DENNIS QUAID~! *Argh* He's soOo cute course.. handsome lar.. [Die lar.. I like older men lor] But he was soOo man.. harharh.. But u noe.. I still love da 2 oppas much more.. harhar.. Den we had pool together.. Aiyo, ball where I dunnoe shoot where sia.. harharhar.. lost touch.. HmMm.. Den we went home fer our reunion dinner..

TOking bout it makes me soOo blardie.. mad.. Seriously mad.. I can't believe mummy was being soOo freaking superstitious.. Believe or not.. Had a little sms chat wif sister last nite.. And we both cannot believe it.. Noe wad? Sister wasn't around fer reunion dinner.. Cause her hubby.. Which is my jiu jiu.. His granny passed away, and due to popular CHINESE beliefs.. [*argh*] Some ppl said wad ar.. got 6 months of mourning and den cannot enter da house of families otherwise it'll only bring about bad luck.. Oh yeah, if onli u believe totally.. and wholle heartedly to da one God up there.. I'm sure our father wil definitely bless u wif one true good yr.. Just tell me when ever has our Father failed.. Never~! I mean life's ain't one smooth journey, sure there is ups and downs.. But hey, he's there wif u.. *sigh* no one ever remembers him in their daily lives in da family i can honestly sae.. All i do is hope they see da point one day.. Guess I'm not enough of a testiment at home to my mom especially.. And yeap, cause of dat, sister actualli soOo very much wanna join us.. I miss her.. *sobs sobs* And wad's the best part.. we onli eat like a family once a year.. And its during new year and mummy.. thanks to her, we soOo very much ate wif one person out todae.. Oh my gosh.. Both me and sister are on da same boat.. cause mom's reallie.. Correction.. i mean both mom and dad are reallie caught up wif bro's heading away to aussieland.. I can't believe daddie was doing his real job as a dad.. I mean besides being the breadwinner.. he was rarely involved wif matters at home.. Yeap, 2 of them were buying clothes fer bro, and yeah.. Sizes were wrong and both were more than ever willing to head back to the shops to do a swap.. SoOo manie things reallie.. I just dun wanna list them all.. harhar, bro gets da star treatment.. Sis noes toOo bout it all, harhar.. we both tok alot lar.. since growing up.. She's da best~! =) Just makes me feel comforted enough by the fact she didn't find me picking fault on bro fer wad i told her.. "I pity u actualli.. and added on "its sad.. in doing so, mummy has lost da both of us".. Its always been this way.. From young, it was evident.. I closed my eyes from last time on.. I grew up seriously wif one love onli.. Someone who I knew soOo very much loved me much more than anyone.. It was God's love.. *tears* I never let go since I was little. God reallie took care of me.. I can't reallie imagine without him not being in my life.. I thank God he was there.. I grew up not seriously from my parents love.. I mean they do love me lar.. But was all along da maid's.. All who looked after me.. harhar, i run to them since young to their arms fer hugs.. and sayangs.. Everyone, i grew up wif, was all pretty close.. Till now lar, not soOo.. *shrugs* least I used to have sis around to tok wif.. harhar, she's married out now.. SoOo well, God's always good blessing me wif a good bunch of buddiezZz and course.. My internet mummy along.. Just all these ppl makes life sweeter despite the things that goes round.. Directly under the roof.. harhar, i dunnoe.. Just thought i'll reallie let it all out now on this blog.. But dun worrie, i'll be fine.. Heading out wif my dearie later.. eh eh eh.. Dun think toOo much.. my cousin lar.. =) We'll share once more.. Standing by each other.. Seriously, i dun feel we're much different in anyways.. Family wise.. harhar, dat's y we connect like no one's business.. All da way from young till now.. =) and course, janz.. ll.. ah hui and vanessa and all.. Kind of comforts me..

harhar, now internet mummy noes why i always go.. "nothing i'm gonna do is gonna please them".. anyway, thanks alot mummy.. =) Dunnoe why, but always feels great toking to u.. HmMm okie okie.. Dun brood over soOo much.. New year new yr.. Be happie.. harhar, ah joy~! Now i guess i noe y i was named dat.. harhar.. Joyce.. Be happie lar.. =) Just looking forward to heading out later wif my dearie.. It's gonna be fun.. Cause harhar.. She noes me soOo well.. =) God bless everyone..

In Him, =)
Ah JoY ^^

This week has been such a quick week.. I can't believe how fast da week has just past me by.. And I've got some things that I really wanna do.. First things first, I'm really gonna find back the style in which I used to write back then.. In some ways, I think my sentences have gotten alot more complex and some teachers are having some difficulties understanding the meaning of my sentences.. I guess, unless you've been regularly reading what I've written, people have found some difficulty in getting what I'm trying to say..

reason behind the more complex sentences could be due to I'm just having a train of thoughts in my head and I don't get them organised systematically before I list them out.. And all my bad habits start coming in.. The long sentences and I tend to grow pretty complex that my meaning becomes incomprehensable.. Its something I'm gonna be working on.. Take a longer time to process the ideas.. Calm down and listen to what's really inside of me that I want to convey and then list them out.. I'm soOo prone to narrative writing that when it comes to a more critical point of writing, I just blab on and on and miss the entire point of being critical.. harhar.. Well, *shrugs* I'll try.. *fighting*

This week's has been also a week of receiving back your results and doing some self reflection on how i've faired.. I think there's really lots of room for improvement and I guess, I've been a little distracted during the time of my mugging in a way.. Well, time to pick up pace and play catch up.. harhar.. yeah, *fighting* Focus is back.. I hope the motivation lasts.. Rite up to the final lap of my first year in TP. I can't believe I've been in dat skool for almost a year already.. Time just flies, it was just months ago whereby I graduated from HSS.. It was 4 years.. And everything just passed me by.. Thinking back on all da times shared, they definitely was fun.. Da bonds and friendships made.. to the big gang of us heading for lunch together.. That was 4 years ago, what's 3 years gonna be like? Another part whereby time is just simply gonna pass me by.. Just like a snap of fingers.. U can't believe it urself.. Seems onli yesterdae, we were dat young.. harhar.. Somehow, u do feel u've grown.. ONe way or the other.. Another road in the journey of life..

And more things up on the growing list of deadlines.. Harhar, I noe I gotta get my NMM project done.. harhar, do hope some ideas has popped up from my head and all I've got to do is to do it out on the comp.. From what u visualise in your head, appearing in front of the screen.. ain't gonna be dat simple but hoo hoo.. I'll learn.. harhar.. Am gonna go wash up.. Listen to the music, enjoy da nite away and start my work.. hoo hoo.. CNY is coming up soOn and my brother is gonna be heading abroad on da 15th to study.. SoOo much happenings, within this period of time.. Mom's definitely gonna be busy.. Busy fretting fer lil boi toOo.. Hoo, I do hope all things are gonna turn out fine man..

Many things I just wanna shut an eye toOo.. Suddenly quite alot these days.. under the roof.. harhar, around me.. Close to me.. U come to realise some things are worth that shutting dat eye.. In Pychological terms, it is known as the phrase of denial.. harhar.. and some things are simply worth a time to simply open both of ur eyes big.. Well, got back stats paper and well, passing is one thing but seriously room fer lots of improvement.. Time to put in more heaart into my books.. Its been pretty neglected.. =)

Harhar, and the most amazing part that has happening these couple of nites.. I got no idea how come I can just end up sleeping bout the whole nite even not doing much fer the dae.. Its kind of puzzling.. Harhar, i've got dat feeling of simply sleeping like forever.. *shrugs* harhar... Freaky eh.. I dunnoe.. BUt it happened last nite.. Was like "I'll nap" but I ended up sleeping till da morning.. Harhar, after manie alarm rings.. Oh well.. God noes why in the world have I become soOo tired.. After 10 and my eyes starts dropping quite a bit.. DIdn't use to have that habit but now I think I do now.. Harhar, the onli thing dat I noe is keepin me awake is the idea of having to get my group's psychology assignment, my part of the thing done.. harhar.. Gonna go head and do before I face "total shutdown"..

Harhar, I dunnoe wad's gotten into me these days.. Harhar, restless.. Utter fatigueness lar, though I've been doing mostly nothing.. And I noe there's things to do.. Hahar, gonna get my butt working tml alreadi lar.. Just working on dreamweaver and fireworks kind of freaks me.. man, I wish dat NMM thingy can be done wif Photoshop.. Its just soOo much more user frenlier.. EEeeEeeW. Hahar.. Oh well, use more of da brains and hopefully I get something out of it..

Oh well, onli thing I could think of.. *jealousy under one roof* Harhar, u try to close ur eyes as much as u can, but times.. U had it lar.. harhar.. Wadever u do ain't gonna please everybody.. harhar, dat's why as "mummy" told me.. "u woke up on da wrong side of da bed", yeah.. dat could be on top of it.. Its just soOo distinct, aiyo.. U just really try to ignore everything.. I guess I just had it fer da dae this week.. Everything keepin inside and it ends up.. Self infliction.. harhar.. Dat's y God always say.. "no jealousy" kind of thing.. U noe y.. Its unhealthy.. hahar.. Be gone.. hahrar, well, after toking wif my "guardian angel" "mummy".. I'm pretty back to my bubbly self and well, harhar-ing away.. harhar.. I'll just take i'm doing everything fer the sake of myself.. harhar.. Yeah yeah. Fer my dreams.. *fighting* muahahar.. =)

Just soOo glad I had a chat wif moi "mummy" todae.. harhar, we did have a weird topic but well.. Its fine.. I had someone to turn to.. Thankfulli and luckily.. Well, every part of my life.. I'm one blessed lad hu always have someone by my side to give me some more guidance and teachings and support in my journey of life.. I'll never forget every single one of them.. Fer they all played a part in making me da person I am todae.. Makes me soOo very much miss Indri.. My previous "mummy".. harhar, ppl's eyes she's known as a "maid".. She was never one, taught me soOo much of things.. =) She does still calls and catch me up at times.. Harhar, one thing she instilled in me stronger.. my faith wif God.. "Pray everydae ah.. Sembayang samah Tuhan, buat sumah barang okok.. Biah dia jaga kamu.." Can't remember somemore.. harhar, yeah.. Somewhere round there.. harhar, I got no idea bout da spelling but dat's how it reads from my mouth.. She was great.. now I've got one more.. harhra.. Blessed me or wad? Heh.. ^^

Ouh, had a whooping long tok wif Jasmine on da phone over in da morning.. hahar, besides me bragging bout da usual 2 suspects.. Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa.. Toked about some situations we were facing.. I'm done wif mine.. harhar.. Poor her, I dunnoe how similar we can be but we even met the same situation around the same time.. Her's alittle more complicated.. -sigh- Well, I hope she finds her answers.. Har, nar.. I'll just head over and cheer her up over on SUndae.. we'll tok more bout it.. =)

OoOoh yeah.. Went out todae wif Glenda, Morris and Clement out to Orchard Cine to have dunnoe how manie games of pool.. harhar, fun fun.. First time on target fer quite a bit lar.. harhar, its still liil rusty.. OoOoh well, when I do find my "mr jang.kim".. It'll certainly get better.. Harhar, my training buddie.. hahrar.. Kidding kidding.. Den went had dinner and Coffe Bean fer some chat.. Harhar.. Wish dat 2 persons ar.. Happiness =) harhar, they reallie hit it off well~! Yeah, good good.. Happie fer them.. =) All da best.. Gonna sign off here and go indulge in my all time fav songs.. Da nite.. Min Jong oppa's songs.. And me.. Tata.. =) [Victory: I've gotten over my fatigueness~! I couldn't been happier.. i've been in a daze.. Blur.. but I'm backie~! muahrahar... nitey.. =p]