I have just realised i'm soOo first. Blind without my glasses on. Can't even see properly when I type as i have the lappy on my lap... *sigh* I'm getting old. hahar.. Oh well.. Just came here to leave... My pain here.. Complain here~! Harhar, yeah.. My back's soOo freaking aching and i'm here to complain.. [no one else to complain to rite?] *sigh* I'm reallie getting old.. harhar..

Oh well, dunnoe wad's happening.. Could be due the past previous days bathing late? Oh well, I think I was asking fer it.. If i follow my normal schedule, dat is when there was skool, everything should have been okie I guess.. Argh. Onli comfort I guess is my bed and my pillow.. *relief* it is nice.. And a lil rub off my back.. And pray to God dat he'll probably heal me soOn.. harhar..

Oh well, enough about complaining.. hahar, todae has been one of the most happening days in one of the longest time ar.. harhar, spent my afternoon wif Glenda dearie.. Alrite man, being out wif her is soOo fun.. harhar.. yeap~! Just love those talks, and the eating~! Harhar, we ate soOo much we got glares I think from the waitress.. harhar, i think both of us ate like round 20+ plates of pure sushi.. harhar, sushi buffet.. Well, she oso taught me to eat loads of things i wouldn't dared eat in the past alrite.. now, heading to Sakae Sushi and eatin, should be worth the full price.. harhar, i ate.. one. Red Ginger. I found dat thing reallie gross last time, but seems it tasted nice. two. Octopus sushi. it looked soOo freaking raw, [i hate raw stuff], but harhar.. She went.. "nice nice!!" okie lor, eat oso no harm mar.. Food's edible.. She said.. "put on the ginger and soya sauce" [I'm a dunker. I drink soya sauce when i eat sushi lor] harhar.. And stuff it all into ur mouth.. harhar, it tasted alrite, caused the. erh.. Soya sauce covered the entire taste of the rawness.. harhar, but it was nice lar~! Glennie~! I prefer that cooked octopus sushi, the one u scream and scream, say.. "i'm soOo tempted" after ya soOo full.. =) And I ate wasabe, i used to hate it. but apparently, it adds some kick to the soya sauce lar.. harhar.. =) thanks dearie.. Haven't had soOo much fun in quite some time and made me eat things i thought i never did.. =) SoOo grateful.. harhar..

Oh yeah, and I'm just soOo happie fer her.. Yeah, hope everytime she's happie and I'll be happie alrite.. =) U guys are just soOo sweet lor.. Hee~! Must stay happie always.. *huggiezZz* I'm soOo tired. Giving my "broken" back a rest now.. Doing everything on the bed.. its pure laziness. but wad to do. harhar.. its pure comfort. lalala.. See ya guys tml again ar Glennie. =)

Yo. I'm back.. harhar, after a much hard work of studying.. [harhar, call dat hard work?] yeah. I call dat hard. SoOo hard trying to stay at a spot practicing but harhar.. i guess that is the job of being one student rite.. and wad was said was rite.. being a student, u actualli only nid to put lots of hard work twice a year, fer the examinations and den most of da time, u're having lots of time to urself and oso having fun ar. harhar.. =)

2 papers down and one more to go.. Aiyo. Its alreadi thursdae and I onli studied one topic tonite. and gosh. tml's Good Fridae. how fast. its alreadi coming to the end of March and erh.. April's coming? whoot. Dat was fast.. HmMm.. Dat's reallie fast. harhar.. And i'll be older. harhahar.. Believe it or not. I'm reaching 18.. Harhar, soOo farnie.. harhra, how often I think i'm old but apparently, at times i dun behave as one ar.. harhar-ing whole dae.. harhar.. *shrugs* dats me. Happie go lucky as wad mummy calls me ar.. *laughs loudly*

Well, better get my butt moving and do some reading up.. Just went watching Dong Gun oppa's interviews and all.. PLus one more movie. "gates of destiny".. *sigh* Koreans always seem to have dat sad factor in almost everything they do ar.. Songs, MVs, movies, teevee dramas.. Some kind of trademark and this movie wasn't sparred from dat either.. Thought Min Jong oppa did really well, harhar.. Young and handsome.. Onli weak thing.. Da plot of da story.. Reminds me of watching "2009 Lost Memories".. Difference, the way da screenplay goes.. Both are bout some gateway to the future.. but one's more developed, and Gates of Destiny, was an older version.. not soOo high tech and more "historical".. one thing fer sure i learnt from dat movie.. "guns beat swords in terms of fighting. u'll sure gonna lose, if ur weapon's a.. sword"..

OoOh well.. And yeah.. Finally got to understand wad "gwen-cheon-do-ae", dat song by Min Jong oppa was.. Harhahr, big time lyrics in english and chinese.. and definitely, chinese lyrics was the better choice in terms of bringing the song out.. I always felt dat way, though I'm more fluent in my english, always felt chinese was a better alternative in relating to matters close to the heart.. Somehow, Chinese's got dat extra punch.. Cause Chinese, can be phrased in a simple manner, but wif a little twist, its gonna get a whole new dimension to the feeling of wad u just said.. English, harhar.. How simple can u get, it takes much more of a twist to bring the feelings out.. harhar.. SoOo loved chinese songs more dat way, more sadness in there.. harhar..

But yeah, did one of the most amazing things.. Buying an english album.. I totalli havent been listening to any of the most recent english songs, but one fine dae.. I just clicked onto one of my brother's playlist, and there was Keane.. harhar, a britain 3-some.. HmmM, I liked one of their songs, which was featured in one of the advertisments of "chase".. Their music sort of remind me of coldplay, but the difference, probably less slur.. Lots of guitar.. harhar, piano and chords.. Love it.. Reallie different music to wad i've been listening to.. on top of the korean pop.. harhar.. And I thought i should be opening up my ears to listen to more english songs ar.. somehow, they've got much interesting chords.. in their songs.. they've got nice tunes.. but i'll go fer the chinese, in terms of feelings and moods, the lyrics reallie roxs in chinese songs.. harhar, soOo mix up the english tunes of their songs and the chinese lyrics.. I think it'll be the greatest combination.. harhra.. =)

I'm freaking out. Reallie. Really dun have much confidence in not being careless. harhar. its scary. Harhar, becomes a phobia wif numbers ar. just wif statistics. harhar.. I dunnoe, I just kind of fumble whenever its numbers. and its the same thing I face every nite before I sit fer the paper..

Harhar, fer the last 10 years, hahar.. Same feeling, butterflies in my stomach. harhar.. Lost faith alreadi.. harhar.. but never mind, try to do whatever i can. harhar, its always dat.. "I hope i've practiced enough".. feeling.. Ar well.. Leave it up to God fer that final part and do wadever I can..

Cup of milo.. warm myself down and get some rest.. harhar, and pray to God he'll bless us.. harhar, my dearie cousin.. harhar, we were working together to crack that hypothesis chapter.. fun.. harhar.. and we somehow got our own theories and kind of got wad it was all about.. harhar.. Just brings back the times we were younger. harhar.. Times when we helped each other in our work.. harhar.. Long time since we did that together.. harhar.. And some heart to heart chat.. =) I just hope she's all well.. Think less and walk on the positive side, and she'll be all looking great and fine.. harhar.. [not dat she isn't looking well, but certainly make her shine once she sees the positive side].. harhar.. Cheer up buddie =) Had tons of fun.. thanks dearie..

Okie okie..*deeps breath* Get rest, and its "war wif the papers" tomolo.. hahar, I thought there was peace fer some time.. harhar, *fighting*.. Will think of wad mummy told me.. "think twice before u write". harhar.. =) wish me luck.. NItey nite..

wharhar.. every nite I wanna blog these couple of nites.. harhar, i feel like slping ar.. wharhar.. soOo well, I guess i haven't been entering some entries ar.. well well, wharhar.. its da study week, and yeah.. thankfully managed to get some work done.. Pure accounts.. harhar.. =) As I went on doing a paper a dae, i can't help but to think of back den.. a year ago.. harhar.. during this same time, probably having accounts tution wif suresh.. hwee boon, ling li, jin hui, janna, and lyn plus me all cuddled in Mr Tan's room.. harhar, dat zen feeling room.. can still remember the layout of da place.. hahar.. =) yeap, doing and doing accounts questions..

hahar.. and rite now, todae.. i'm in my room, sitting in front of 2 handsome.. Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa, workin sums and sums.. harhar, smiled to myself.. those were the days.. i missed those times.

harhar, u do reallie feel much like a skool student back den. den we'll all walk to the bus stop, sit all in a line and they'll company me to wait fer my bus and they'll all walk on to their bus stop and take the bus home.. and when i got home, I remember this~! I had to start studying fer my chinese chapter tests.. harhar, it was always hard fer me, trying to manage those days.. Times i'll do well and there was this period of borderline scores.. I reallie thought of giving up and taking up Syllabus B.. harhar, and was Hwee Boon who coaxed me out of it.. hahar.. She said.. "Joyce ar, u dun study, u probably didn't even pass ar.. dun worrie, just do ur best in ur final o'levels".. and she wrote this letter to me.. harhar.. there was this chinese phrase.. "dun give up easily, or u'll be letting urself down".. har, the english translation by me sounds reallie bad.. but those were the good old daes.. dat's how i learnt my chinese ar.. harhar.. was fun.. i suddenly feel soOo old ar.. hahar.. =) miss her hangouts ar.. during recess time she'll company me do my walk arounds.. harhar, and we'll chat and chat all the way.. harhar, haven't seen her fer a long time.. hahar..

Har, soOo much soOo fer remembering the good old daes.. wharhar.. went to reach out fer God todae.. harhar, and the "40 days of purpose" book, I finished it ar.. todae.. some whole 15 chapters and a real good 15 chapters.. the best part of the book was done purely todae.. talking about servanthood.. "many wants to lead, but how many wants to serve?", whoOoa. It struck me todae. suddenly, feel harhar.. Whar, at peace wif myself.. harhar, these couple of days been like kind of listless and not without much of a purpose.. harhar, no DRIVE.. harhar. dat's da psychological terms ar.. harhar.. drive. but got it back ar.. feels great =) it always feels good when u put God in the centre of ur life lar.. ^^ it is a constant reminder.. to urself.. I'm really nothing without my God and to remind urself, its him who is working tirelessly.. 24-7. giving his ever 110% and i'm always soOo moved by this moving God. He's gotta be in ur centre of ur life man. Dat's one important lesson i've learnt todae. He's becoming soOo coOL to be.. Oh my gosh.. Hee, I thought God was soOo sweet. "He prepared breakfast", I *gasped* yeap, and it puts urself at ease and go forth in a brand new kind of light and mode.. harhar.. to study~!!!! harhar.. yeah.. SoOo much of motivation to start moving.. harhar, its moving but u noe.. its moving in a much smoother way now..

After heading out to study wif Hakim yesterdae. hahar, was reallie funny man.. we chatted fer an hour before hitting our heads into the sums.. wharhar.. Work and press calculator like i was sms-ing.. harhar.. =p managed to "steal" one paper of practice from him.. harhar, he was working hard.. must learn to be like him ar.. He said something.. harhar.. v e r y interesting.. harhar.. "joyce, u've changed.." I looked up at him..

"huh? reallie?" harhar.. i noe i noe.. harhar.. Den i told him all.. "sitting all alone in a secluded corner during lectures. seemingly looks soOo cold to everyone.. plucking earphones on my ears whereever i go".. harhar.. he went, "yar ar", "sudden change, dun dare to tok to u ar".. harhar, i let out a whole bunch of laughters.. yeah, i noe.. i realised it myself.. harhar, den i explained myself.. harhar.. "everyone's in their pairs and couples, u dun expect me to be some extra there ar.. and yeah.. everyone's got clicks.. soOo i sit alone ar.. i learn more toOo.. harhar".. Den he laughed it off.. and he went.. "seems like u haven't changed actualli".. and i went.. "yeah, next time lectures i find u and sit beside ar..".. He went.. "okie lar, sure ar.. " He's soOo farnie ar.. Reallie suits that "kambing" nick we all give him.. harhar.. =) He made me see, u better start working hard.. harhar.. and fer the cute compliments.. harhra.. I reallie laugh them off.. =)

But to say, yes.. i've quieten down myself.. somehow one way or another.. i do realise it myself toOo.. more introverted [tell dat to mummy, she wun believe it, cause my mom feels i'm soOo noisy ar].. More time to myself, behind the doors in moi room.. and most of the time, whereever i'll go.. My company, music.. harhar.. soOo music is one important aspect, of course including God ar.. hmMm. hahar, i dunnoe, but i'm liking it.. harhar.. =)

Hmm.. It sure does feel good now.. harhar, was getting restless and bored actually, these couple of weeks.. Could be due to the overworked week last week.. harhar, now suddenly, everything all seem to have just ended and the study break term has come on by already.. Time passes by soOo fast actually dat I can hardly believe my eyes.. And yes.. Its one year in tp alreadi.. cannot believe it..

Yes, study break now, and its more like i'm feeling of slacking the days away but my conscience wouldn't let me ar.. todae is tuesday alreadi, and I better start getting moi butt moving.. harhar, always nid to feel that sense of urgency before i start pushing my relunctant self into doing things.. harhar, good and not so good in dat sense i suppose..harhar..

well, just packed my room alittle up.. all the stacks of discs all flying all around the places ar.. soOo annoying.. harhar.. and bags all stacked in the cupboard all around requires alittle tidy up.. and more space to study, which always ends up, prowling all over the bed, and working on the bed.. harhar.. which is the ultimate and most comfortable thing to do..

Yeah, been finding some music to run to.. Yes, first was Jacky Cheung.. hoo hoo.. and den i was in search of something else.. harhar.. something a tad sadder tune.. and wif more recollections.. harhra, its the "ghost" ost.. u noe, dat drama which starred Dong Gun oppa and Min Jong oppa.. hoo hoo..listening to it all over once more, gives me some sense of feelings once more.. harhar.. dat's wad my mood is and wad my ears wanted to hear.. something not found in my playlist of mp3s which i've gotten kind of bored alreadi.. but always take time out to reveal all those hidden secrets in those cds which are left untouched in one corner fer a period of time, take them out and listen.. hoo hoo.. its always dat enlightening.. and enoyable as wad i've done soOo far.. Listening to those older k-pop songs.. the songs reallie just seemed like i've known them, but it was like 2 years back alreadi.. see.. time just reallie flies.. harhar..

okie, thinking of revising and cracking my brains fer statistics kind of bores me.. which harhar.. i've come up wif an idea of starting off wif accounting first.. lalala.. kie ar.. den go do my quiet time.. been dozing off these couple of nites alreadi.. cannot cannot~! harhar.. okie.. dat's my plans fer todae.. soOo gonna do them.. wanna find one dae to head out and play bball.. missing the game.. hmm.. brings back memories.. but anyways.. just let them go all on the hoops.. =) everyone's falling sick.. first it was me.. now there's kim yee.. ah hui and internet mommy.. aiyo..get well sooOn ppl.. prayers be wif u all.. *huggiezZz*

*pouts* i wanna go see Dong Gun oppa~! harhar, he's over at malaysia.. soOo coOL eh.. Wished i was older den can fly liao.. harhar, whoops.. Looks like no chance to see him ar.. i'll just... dream a little dream.. wishes it comes true.. soOo coOL to be able to see da 2 oppas one dae.. i'll just.. dream...

Wassup wif this blogger thingy.. They've changed the format of inserting the fonts.. harhar, it was lazee enough to be adjusting the font type.. now the font size.. SoOo ma fan one ar.. harhar.. Oh well, more clicks fer a lazee person like me ar.. harhar.. =)

HmMm.. Haven't been blogging much ar.. Either been seeing handsome handsome and den falling asleep or simply.. just really nothing much fer me to blog.. harhar, maybe doing something overtime over and over again becomes a routine and becomes boring.. harhar.. not much thoughts and thinkings left to be written here..

Oh yes, todae was me reallie bad ar.. Lacking of the usual projectionist duty call from aunty christina, I overslept todae lor.. *sigh* cannot make my mind straight on schedule sia.. But after todae, learnt reallie well dat hey, I actualli should be early fer church lor.. always coming in later.. todae worst, overslept all the way dat i just merely went fer cell group onli.. Aiyo, felt bad not serving God todae cause he has been always giving me his full 100 percent or even blessing me wif soOo much more reallie.. once more, he has blessed me wif an unbelievable score fer my communication skill.. To say I reallie sucked at dat last sem and I think previously, I didn't fared dat well was cause i fell asleep while I was studying ar.. This time had alittle more effort but hitting a 75 was freaking high.. Was shocked ar, when I personally went to see Mdm Aisha personally fer my score cause dat dae i didn't turn up.. Was on MC that thursdae.. And toking bout MC.. i haven't submitted it on fridae lor.. *yikes* And I gotta make dat trip down all the way down to skool to pass it dat up.. My goodness, I just hope its not toOo late.. *sigh* guess just head back to skool and hand it in and make my way home.. Oh my gosh.. Thought dun nid to go skool ar.. at this moment i do wish skool was nearer..

Well, I guess dat's wad blogging is.. harhar, to make u remember bout things u kind of forget.. *sigh* soOo absent minded at times.. Wad me thinking ar.. harhar, always "oh yeah ar".. never mind.. =( hmm.. well, study week's tml.. harhar, more time to myself.. time to study and to sit down and just rest. study. eat. harhra.. Like robot ar.. and most importantly, I guess its time to sit down and to do wad I love most doing.. Enjoying pure music.. Well, least fer now, its something which will lighten up da days.. harhar, somehow, just feel something lacking either in my life or something.. [more of God?] dunnoe, just got the feeling of being cooped up once i enter my room ar.. hahar, but seeing Ernie's face in it, kind of makes me giggle ar.. maybe its the habit of just switching on the comp once i enter my room and doing the same thing or something? harhar, or feeling.. alone?.. harhar.. God noes, just feel something lacking ar.. wonder wad's dat ar.

Yeah.. SoOo freaking happie now.. Harhar.. Relaxing and slacking around fer a dae please.. Its been days ever since I've got the time to reallie enjoy the things that I reallie wanna do.. harhar, doing my favourites.. Lalalaa.. Watching my 2 favourite oppas.. Dong Gun oppa's got a new haircut~! Oh moi gosh, a stunning handsome handsome lar.. harhar.. He looks soOo much better wif this new hair.. Miss his old looks.. Those brighter sunshine boi looks.. SoOo cute lor.. No wonder I like for soOo long liao.. Haharh =)

Heh heh, soOo slacking life is pretty good lar.. SoOo tired liao.. Wanna sleep but still wanna watch teevee.. harhra.. Got no handsome to watch.. Unless I whip up my VCD lor.. But aiyo, buay tahan lar.. GOnna anytime sleep de lor.. SoOo just looking ar handsomes will do..

Wharhar, must leave my record down and see how many hours of sleep i have been clocking fer the past few nites... Todae is wednesdae.. From Sundae nite till last nite.. I think i've just clocked 9 to 10 hourds of sleep.. Its good in a way cause it helps keep u slimmer but definitely not healthy fer ur face and ur health.. Down wif a stupid loss of voice and flu and cough.. hoo hoo.. Roxs..

And thank God I got through todae.. All thanks to God's help ar.. Got through the dae wif psycho test, plus Comm skills role play and lastly, NMM's website.. Finalli its all over and its reallie a load off my chest.. Especially wif the completion of NMM's webbie.. Whoot.. Just hope the stuff is all ther alreadi.. Something in dat proposal.. Somehow feel a little insecure about that matter cause on a fact most of the information was spoon fed and it reallie seems that the proposal is little as compared to the usual..

Things got a little rough in the beginning of the dae as I was rushing to get the NMM proposal out and rushing fer the role play's proposal toOo. harhar.. Thank GOd I managed to finish them both but taking a little 15 mins time off from my psycho test.. Arrived later as I rushed my way down.. and thank God that the role-play went all well the first time round.. Proposal was kind of crappy but harhar.. It went through ar.. and with my "sexy" voice, it went well was okie.. den to wrap up the dae was the NMM small talk about ue website..

Thank God I got through todae lar.. Yeah.. Slack slack slack~!! Harhar.. =p Den surviving 2 hours of econs lecture.. harhar, slept under the nose of the lecturer, cause was realie cannot tahan.. Wake up, little later and listen wif full attention.. not toOo bad ar.. harahr.. Little sleep goes a loOong way.. And once more I overslept while I was on my way home.. hahar, had to take another bus in the opposite direction and walk and walk home.. hahar.. Kind of sums it up that no matter how tired u are, just keep walking, u'll reach home.. harhr..

I wanna scream ar.. Tired.. harhar.. Eyes are closing.. Oh well, thinking of tomorrow kind of freaks ppl alrite.. Okie freaks me.. 2 presentation and a test.. hoo.. God noes how I'm gonna cope.. harhar, kind of tired alreadi.. Niways, am gonna go to lalaland soOn and den wake up hopefully feeling refreshed fer the last round of work.. Its scary.. harhar, never mind.. Having Ernie's continually smiling face kind of cheers me up.. BUt still nevertheless tired.. Harhar.. complaining of tired and tired here ar.. Physically in front here, but mind is elsewhere..

Man, do hope am gonna finish up da work.. Sleeping time.. nitey nite.

Hoo hoo.. Am taking one things at a time.. Before i totally start losing my voice, which i can't and have no choice but to try to make sure i do have some voice before presentation dates on wednesdae.. Harhra, yes, time passes by.. Tick tocks away and the pressure mounts but harhar.. Hold on to my faith.. Harhar.. He's gonna provide lar, and i'm gonna not be superwoman again.. harahr.. The last time was Kris, who called me that.. "joyce~! Dun be superwoman ar.." everytime before all my papers she will remind me dat.. harhar, my grades hit dat well was also thanks to her de.. harhar.. =)

Yeah, feels much better tonite.. harhar, somehow.. Kind of have my mind eased in a way cause I noe God's gonna be there.. harhar, he did.. Amazingly, I did quite alot in da early morning todae wif dat website.. Its reallie eating up time.. trying to get it done as soon as possible lar.. Now am gonna be down wif the pictures..

Nice wind blowing on moi face now.. Harhar, feel like slping sia.. harhar.. See how it goes lar.. =) *fighting*

Arhar.. Yes miss kim yee.. I've haven't been blogging fer these couple of days.. SoOo tired to do most bout entirely everything.. Been days I haven't been seeing the 2 gorgeous.. The 2 handsomes.. Haven't been posting on minjong.net.. jangdonggun.pe.kr/eng/board.. soompi.com.. And its time to realise why u haven't been able to do so.. harhar.. I've been and it all brings me back to one fact.. I haven't been seeking enough of God..

Relying toOo much on myself? Yes, I think I was doing dat.. Fighting with time, trying to prove that I am superwoman.. Trying to say that "hey~! I've got 2 hours of sleep! How manie have u got".. Making the assumption that.. "less hours of sleep = more hours of work" = Yeah~! U've got soOo many things accomplished~! Whoo hoo~! Happie?

Harhar, joyce~! Wake up dude.. Everything all goes back to the fact.. everything in him.. End of the day, ur human self will say, yes joyce, u did an awful lot.. But how much of ur time have u spent wif God.. Its been a couple of months, I must say, since I spent an awful good time wif my dear father.. The times I said spending time wif him was such a touch and go.. I think God didn't even see my face, just seeing me saying "hi God" and turning my back and walking away from his face.. Dat's wad I feel I've been doing.. Every single work u are doing, how many are u doing it for God? Its a constant reminder to do everything in him, cause most of da stuff or everything is thru him.. There's onli soOo much my human self can do.. I've realli been relying on my own self toOo much, I haven't been putting enough faith in him..

It makes me see myself when despite that little I am doing, God is still continually putting his 100% full fer me.. In making my everyday life still falling into nice, comfy pieces.. Nothing toOo difficult to handle fer my "human" self.. I dunnoe why I gotta wait till my entire body, when it breaks down.. tells me I nid rest, and tells me i've been working toOo hard.. It also means, i've not been seeking enough of God.. Will I tell myself to run back into the arms and seek our Father's face..

Listening to Hillsongs, which have been really touching me deep down.. Makes me wanna cry it out.. "i'm sorrie"... "i've strayed".. "i nid u".. Nothing else beats that realisation effect and feeling God's coming in the presence of ur daily life more and more.. I guess, I grew up in a way like dat.. Running alittle far and coming back to his presence again.. A feeling reallie nice, letting the tears flow.. Reaching fer him ever more.. The power of his love.. Yeap..

He kept me well and proper till the dae I am todae.. I ain't nothing if I ain't got him.. Dat's all I can say.. I dunnoe how I might have strayed when I was younger.. Dat bunchful of energy, wanting soOo much to go and "expand my lil playground".. Roaming round the neighbourhood wasn't fun enough.. Let's go somewhere further.. Till I got older, I got tired of roaming.. Harhar.. Yeah, always seaches the soul of myself deep down.. He's been doing an awful lot fer me.. How much have I done fer him? Giving him a full 100% every single dae will be a challenge.. dat hunger. dat life to want to lead.. I soOo wanna go find him now.. and i will.. feel soOo mean fer doing those to him.. dat's how much God loves u.. He'll love u no matter how much less or much u do.. those unconditional love.. Makes me one happie person.. Makes me whole.. Happie to have found u God =)

I am soOo freaking tired from every single deadline.. Of everything that comes and tells u that.. "hey, its got to be done by a date".. IFs Its gonna go fer another week I'm reallie gonna burn myself out.. I'm on the brink but gonna find God.. Fer a all new purpose.. strength.. Charge up.. He's always there.. That's wad i soOo love bout this coOL guy.. *muacks* glad to have found u..