Freaking long time since I last posted.. been too busy and larthegic and tired to do so anyways.. thanks to all da projects deadlines.. Just had free time to do soOo.. harhar, missed tutorials todae.. I got up soOo late to head fer BA niways.. God bless me.. hahar, I've gotta play catch up den.. As usual, getting things a little slower as compared to da rest.. But well, work fer it and push myself all da way till da semester ends.. My battery is really running low.. Simply working on God's strengths to pull me through.. God noes why I am soOo tired either.. harhar.. Could be da work and da brooding over deadlines I guess.. Its s l o w l y decreasing.. harhar, all dat's left is 2 more projects.. Econs and NMM.. hoo and I'm soOo very done..

Been reallie tiring.. But aiyo.. Terms coming to an end and everything dat u put in will go and well.. Another sem comes on in and the whole entire cycle of routine and expectations all goes replaying again.. Believe it or not, its such a freaking rat race dat everyone is soOo bothered about.. Turn ur head around, in da skool environment alone.. U really see everyone working hard, and da bottomline is dat grades does matter in a skool environment or should i say. It matters in a today's society and in Singapore's context.. It is such a necessity..

At 17, I do very much find life a cycle and a routine.. Not very much from robots I'll say.. We go on doing our similar things or should I say, identical things practically most of da dae.. but the line stnds in whereby robots do not possess feelings and dat's da onli thing dat makes us human if the terrorist ppl out there will realise.. harhar, it still makes me wonder WHAT in da world are they fighting soOo hard fer.. Killing ppl.. Wad? U no different from a robot~! Harhar, I asked dat qn to my mom.. harhar, she goes.. they're crazee.. hahar, still not the answer i wan.. maybe I'll go ask the ppl themselves.. I doubt its got anything to do wif nuclears or something..

But well, dat's one thing I do hope everyone will realise we're living all fer God's purpose.. now dat's one thing dat makes my life different apparently from the rest case on the fact dat he does makes a difference in living my everyday life.. I'll just hope dat everything dat I am doing will be a pleasing offering to him.. Cause I dunno, if God was taken away from moi life.. I'll seriously go suicide.. hahar.. He's everything in moi world and everything the reason dat holds my world upright.. uptight.. making everyday somewhat new and bearable.. Its soOo tiring.. Harhar.. Sleeping, resting.. And in the next couple of hours the entire cycle returns and u get up.. and u do ur routine once more.. Aiyo.. Tiring.. But I guess as a student is da onli time u can have the ability to change the way things go once in a while.. Once every lemme see.. 6 months lar, u get a 2 months break and u can very jolly well enjoy the wonders of working life.. hahar, end of it, u get back to ur skooling ways and do enjoy it on the fact, u remain dat all pure simple lifestyle.. harhar. pure as in u will become naturally less demanding in da ways of these worlds.. harhar, money's evil alrite.. harhar, wif more money, u wan more of this and dat.. harhar.. oh well, i think i'm just kind of tired wif da way the routine is making me.. hahar, i wanna go do something different.. harhar.. wonder wad there is.. besides the guitar playing which takes my mind off in a while.. harahr.. maybe more of God.. wharhar =)

See, this wad happens when i do stop blogging fer a while.. Some long cheong hei messages gets posted.. harhar.. SoOo todae, went out to Sim Lim shopping.. Shopping fer a casing fer moi dear lappy to get it protected whenever I bring it out.. harhar.. Got some rechargebles.. harhar, dat's my life.. harhar, i nid music and it nids batteries if u didn't realise.. harhar, toOo expensive to go get da usual un-rechargebles.. harhar.. and lastly.. got a new digital camera.. not toOo fancy.. enough to meet my nids I guess.. hahar, well.. to pamper myself fer a while and keep moiself amused.. harhar..

Larthegic. tired. restless. Pretty much wad i've been feeling these couple of weeks that I even kind of quit blogging fer awhile.. Attention span fell little short.. harhar, and I'll be taking naps and naps in da nite.. Den working through the entire nite after the CNY.. DA rush also known as the CNY rush, was just merely some of da things done.. last week was kind of hellish..

There was NMM beta.. Hoo, thank goodness things got done by myself, stucking my ass out to complete da job.. remembered dat I wanna skip Stats tut just to complete it.. But thankfully ash went to told me dat there was gonna be a class test.. Harhar, and thankfully God blessed me enough.. Was pretty ok wif da score.. Harhar, fer something i didn't reallie know why I was doing and writing da things I was writing.. harhar.. Luckily I enquired more on da topic weeks before from Hock Le Ian.. He was da one who taught me how to read dat table thingy.. harhar.. which was da most vital part of da chapter.. oOow.. =) Thank God.. Manie things to thank God fer dat I do hope that every nite before I close my eyes and sleep in recuperation of the next dae.. Dat I'll be not onli be recharged but oso be constantly reminded dat in everything u do, it is him who is wif u almost in every step of da way..

I've simply been shutting down abruptly these couple of daes.. Either I lacked slp fer dat nite or was either.. I was totally knocked out.. Yeap, dat was how last week went.. Glad its lil over now.. some things done and more to come.. Har, having the belief dat all will be done and accomplished in time to come.. Hopefulli wif God's help, its reallie gonna be done.. Seriously kind of feel times, I just think its impossible wif da datelines coming up and all, but somehow, he makes me some "superwoman" fer a dae.. hahar, I go working, and kind of times whereby I dun even have a clue at wad I am doing.. harhar, thinking dat I myself is going around in circles, but God's always there to lead u out of da way.. Pick u up and carrie on walking..

Yesterdae.. another "heong" nite sia.. At auntie Pei Yee's place.. Kim Yee's aunt.. hoo.. BBQ was fine, as usual, it was da both of us cooking and serving.. And den later on, was like drinking time.. harhar, I myself oso shocked ar.. Drank quite abit dat dae.. Playing bluff.. and just enjoying da nite.. But den comes to da next dae, it gets pretty taxing.. Slept at 530am and woke up at 830am.. Went back home to get a shower, I didn't have any spare clothes wif me.. Came home, showered and out i went to church but was late lar.. but somehow, still did learnt things from it.. U just gotta trust and trust at the end of da dae.. and i think i am falling into dat pitt, i've just dug fer myself.. harhar, could be i've been relying tooOo much on my own.. hmMm.. Will try to change it alreadi.. Whooops.. Getting tired again.. Nap first lar, get up again and do some work..

Harhar, dunnoe wassup wif me.. But kind of feeling tons of feelings in my head and trying to let them all out.. harhar.. One, there's work.. Psycho write up to be doing and I've yet done it.. simply been sitting in front of da comp fer 2 hours looking at my favourite 2 oppas face.. Leaving messages on soompi.com.. minjong.net and jangdonggun.pe.kr/eng/board.. Two, could be stress.. harhra.. Three, I'm tired.. harhar, didn't slp well yesterdae.. Rushing NMM project.. leprosy site.. Its up, am relieved.. Its one down and couple more of deadlines going on.. Some war wif datelines coming up.. hahar, Four, da house has become quieter.. Oppa's gone to aussieland to stardie.. Yeah, soOo its quieter.. no one to bicker wif u.. Bother u.. harhar, back to da usual times of time to me, myself. lassie. maid. harhar.. SoOo manie feelings.. harhar, adds up.. Pretty cranked up and finding to release them all out.. Solution: listen to coldplay: clocks and yellow. Clocks certainly do help.. da tune, intro.. harhar.. =)

Okie okie.. Ain't in da best mood to write.. Mind's trying to work its way out.. harhar.. I onli pray fer God to be wif me.. bless me.. harhar.. Gimme a hug~! Hahar, strength. patience. wisdom. I'll probably get by this hectic mess of a week. Datelines ain't da best thing to happen in one's life all at once~! harhar.. Gotta work another one more nite. See ya. Probably am gonna be slp nite da whole entire nite tml. God bless.

Harhar, okie okie.. i was supposed to be blogging like ages ago but u noe.. My butt lazee.. Harhar, and everytime I wanna blog.. I slp liao lor.. Just love my beloved bed.. harhra, it toks to me.. "joyce, come.. Slp lar!" harhar.. Duh.. I'm mad.. Llalalaa..

Har, pre new year was rather fun as compared to new yr da dae itself.. Pre new year was out wif ah hui, ah li, ah na and ah boon and sidik.. harhar.. Which was reallie fun, think its reallie fun heading out wif all of them.. Cause one thing is that there's a a assurance no one gets left out.. harhar.. Yeap, seperated fer some time but we'll find our way back together among da crowd.. Harhar, in da morning, went back HSS.. Well, not da time it was anymore, cause soOo manie teachers had left.. Manie were like the pillars and i think they were the ones who added life to the skool and made skool real fun.. Esp. da humanities department.. I miss Miss Linda and Mr Chong..* sigh*

Harar, oh well, back to da gang I went out wif.. We went out to watch "I Do I Do" harhar, which was wah piangz.. soOo funny lar.. 5 of us, enough to laugh like siao.. harhar, think the whole entire cinema was like full of our laughters.. harhar.. Day before was watching "Phoenix of the sun", and hoo hoo.. DENNIS QUAID~! *Argh* He's soOo cute course.. handsome lar.. [Die lar.. I like older men lor] But he was soOo man.. harharh.. But u noe.. I still love da 2 oppas much more.. harhar.. Den we had pool together.. Aiyo, ball where I dunnoe shoot where sia.. harharhar.. lost touch.. HmMm.. Den we went home fer our reunion dinner..

TOking bout it makes me soOo blardie.. mad.. Seriously mad.. I can't believe mummy was being soOo freaking superstitious.. Believe or not.. Had a little sms chat wif sister last nite.. And we both cannot believe it.. Noe wad? Sister wasn't around fer reunion dinner.. Cause her hubby.. Which is my jiu jiu.. His granny passed away, and due to popular CHINESE beliefs.. [*argh*] Some ppl said wad ar.. got 6 months of mourning and den cannot enter da house of families otherwise it'll only bring about bad luck.. Oh yeah, if onli u believe totally.. and wholle heartedly to da one God up there.. I'm sure our father wil definitely bless u wif one true good yr.. Just tell me when ever has our Father failed.. Never~! I mean life's ain't one smooth journey, sure there is ups and downs.. But hey, he's there wif u.. *sigh* no one ever remembers him in their daily lives in da family i can honestly sae.. All i do is hope they see da point one day.. Guess I'm not enough of a testiment at home to my mom especially.. And yeap, cause of dat, sister actualli soOo very much wanna join us.. I miss her.. *sobs sobs* And wad's the best part.. we onli eat like a family once a year.. And its during new year and mummy.. thanks to her, we soOo very much ate wif one person out todae.. Oh my gosh.. Both me and sister are on da same boat.. cause mom's reallie.. Correction.. i mean both mom and dad are reallie caught up wif bro's heading away to aussieland.. I can't believe daddie was doing his real job as a dad.. I mean besides being the breadwinner.. he was rarely involved wif matters at home.. Yeap, 2 of them were buying clothes fer bro, and yeah.. Sizes were wrong and both were more than ever willing to head back to the shops to do a swap.. SoOo manie things reallie.. I just dun wanna list them all.. harhar, bro gets da star treatment.. Sis noes toOo bout it all, harhar.. we both tok alot lar.. since growing up.. She's da best~! =) Just makes me feel comforted enough by the fact she didn't find me picking fault on bro fer wad i told her.. "I pity u actualli.. and added on "its sad.. in doing so, mummy has lost da both of us".. Its always been this way.. From young, it was evident.. I closed my eyes from last time on.. I grew up seriously wif one love onli.. Someone who I knew soOo very much loved me much more than anyone.. It was God's love.. *tears* I never let go since I was little. God reallie took care of me.. I can't reallie imagine without him not being in my life.. I thank God he was there.. I grew up not seriously from my parents love.. I mean they do love me lar.. But was all along da maid's.. All who looked after me.. harhar, i run to them since young to their arms fer hugs.. and sayangs.. Everyone, i grew up wif, was all pretty close.. Till now lar, not soOo.. *shrugs* least I used to have sis around to tok wif.. harhar, she's married out now.. SoOo well, God's always good blessing me wif a good bunch of buddiezZz and course.. My internet mummy along.. Just all these ppl makes life sweeter despite the things that goes round.. Directly under the roof.. harhar, i dunnoe.. Just thought i'll reallie let it all out now on this blog.. But dun worrie, i'll be fine.. Heading out wif my dearie later.. eh eh eh.. Dun think toOo much.. my cousin lar.. =) We'll share once more.. Standing by each other.. Seriously, i dun feel we're much different in anyways.. Family wise.. harhar, dat's y we connect like no one's business.. All da way from young till now.. =) and course, janz.. ll.. ah hui and vanessa and all.. Kind of comforts me..

harhar, now internet mummy noes why i always go.. "nothing i'm gonna do is gonna please them".. anyway, thanks alot mummy.. =) Dunnoe why, but always feels great toking to u.. HmMm okie okie.. Dun brood over soOo much.. New year new yr.. Be happie.. harhar, ah joy~! Now i guess i noe y i was named dat.. harhar.. Joyce.. Be happie lar.. =) Just looking forward to heading out later wif my dearie.. It's gonna be fun.. Cause harhar.. She noes me soOo well.. =) God bless everyone..

In Him, =)
Ah JoY ^^

This week has been such a quick week.. I can't believe how fast da week has just past me by.. And I've got some things that I really wanna do.. First things first, I'm really gonna find back the style in which I used to write back then.. In some ways, I think my sentences have gotten alot more complex and some teachers are having some difficulties understanding the meaning of my sentences.. I guess, unless you've been regularly reading what I've written, people have found some difficulty in getting what I'm trying to say..

reason behind the more complex sentences could be due to I'm just having a train of thoughts in my head and I don't get them organised systematically before I list them out.. And all my bad habits start coming in.. The long sentences and I tend to grow pretty complex that my meaning becomes incomprehensable.. Its something I'm gonna be working on.. Take a longer time to process the ideas.. Calm down and listen to what's really inside of me that I want to convey and then list them out.. I'm soOo prone to narrative writing that when it comes to a more critical point of writing, I just blab on and on and miss the entire point of being critical.. harhar.. Well, *shrugs* I'll try.. *fighting*

This week's has been also a week of receiving back your results and doing some self reflection on how i've faired.. I think there's really lots of room for improvement and I guess, I've been a little distracted during the time of my mugging in a way.. Well, time to pick up pace and play catch up.. harhar.. yeah, *fighting* Focus is back.. I hope the motivation lasts.. Rite up to the final lap of my first year in TP. I can't believe I've been in dat skool for almost a year already.. Time just flies, it was just months ago whereby I graduated from HSS.. It was 4 years.. And everything just passed me by.. Thinking back on all da times shared, they definitely was fun.. Da bonds and friendships made.. to the big gang of us heading for lunch together.. That was 4 years ago, what's 3 years gonna be like? Another part whereby time is just simply gonna pass me by.. Just like a snap of fingers.. U can't believe it urself.. Seems onli yesterdae, we were dat young.. harhar.. Somehow, u do feel u've grown.. ONe way or the other.. Another road in the journey of life..

And more things up on the growing list of deadlines.. Harhar, I noe I gotta get my NMM project done.. harhar, do hope some ideas has popped up from my head and all I've got to do is to do it out on the comp.. From what u visualise in your head, appearing in front of the screen.. ain't gonna be dat simple but hoo hoo.. I'll learn.. harhar.. Am gonna go wash up.. Listen to the music, enjoy da nite away and start my work.. hoo hoo.. CNY is coming up soOn and my brother is gonna be heading abroad on da 15th to study.. SoOo much happenings, within this period of time.. Mom's definitely gonna be busy.. Busy fretting fer lil boi toOo.. Hoo, I do hope all things are gonna turn out fine man..

Many things I just wanna shut an eye toOo.. Suddenly quite alot these days.. under the roof.. harhar, around me.. Close to me.. U come to realise some things are worth that shutting dat eye.. In Pychological terms, it is known as the phrase of denial.. harhar.. and some things are simply worth a time to simply open both of ur eyes big.. Well, got back stats paper and well, passing is one thing but seriously room fer lots of improvement.. Time to put in more heaart into my books.. Its been pretty neglected.. =)

Harhar, and the most amazing part that has happening these couple of nites.. I got no idea how come I can just end up sleeping bout the whole nite even not doing much fer the dae.. Its kind of puzzling.. Harhar, i've got dat feeling of simply sleeping like forever.. *shrugs* harhar... Freaky eh.. I dunnoe.. BUt it happened last nite.. Was like "I'll nap" but I ended up sleeping till da morning.. Harhar, after manie alarm rings.. Oh well.. God noes why in the world have I become soOo tired.. After 10 and my eyes starts dropping quite a bit.. DIdn't use to have that habit but now I think I do now.. Harhar, the onli thing dat I noe is keepin me awake is the idea of having to get my group's psychology assignment, my part of the thing done.. harhar.. Gonna go head and do before I face "total shutdown"..