Its funny how i can still remember the things that i remember watching the details when i was younger, like I was 5-6 up till today. I love watching old dramas especially local ones, and guessing the era in which they were probably made. Cause the clothes, fashion, bags, cars and mobile phones gives it all away! AHAHHAA.

But its amusing to watch how many local stars, the then-in ones are still currently with Mediacorp or wondering, if they're not anymore, where are they now! I'm just so curious as to matters like this, especially when there's the concern of the passage of time, where are you now, what are you doing, how have you been, what has been going on? You know the developments and stories that has built them up to where they are now, I love that stuff.

But in any cases, today has been a start of with pain. I can't imagine when was the last time I had pain like this, and the source comes from just a finger from my right hand. Its amazing how that tiny thing can cause such pain that can wake me up from my sleep, that I had to grab an ice to provide some comfort. I actually thought about putting pressure on it with tapes, wrapped round the swell but it just got worse. Maybe I did it wrongly, but hoo, pain does make you feel high. I just thank God I managed to head back to sleep after applying ice and calling upon His name, like "Oh gooodddd".

I thought it was really minor, ahaha! NOT anymore, now that its achieved its rights of paying a visit to HAIDEE NHU who works at the polyclinic at Bukit Merah. She's the one who I saw for my bad ankle sprain, and ahaha! She just saw the thing, and just dismissed me by saying "oh its just an infection, just take some antibiotics and you'll be fine. Don't worry, it won't burst" ahaha. So I sat there and got me thinking, imagine.. What if the patient is one heck of a worry ward, and THAT'S ALL she's ever gonna do. She's soo chill that it seems she really doesn't care. ahaha! My consultation is 2 minutes in the room, I wait nearly an hour to get a spot in there. But its been a good wait, on the book Gan-paps graded as "good book". I've finished half of it with all the time I've spent waiting and just filled with emotions that stirs in my heart, I nearly ended up crying whilst waiting that I had to reason with my brain to stop, lest I wanna allow people to misunderstand me, that my pain has caused me to cry. ITS SUCH A DARN GOOD BOOK.

Well I've heard all everything you've known or heard bout prayers, but I think nothing beats experiencing it in your own life. Which I must say, its something I just got serious just a couple of months back. :) It really encourages me! :D

Ohh, and been visiting the clinic quite often this 2 months, I've been thinking and reminiscing alot of my secondary school days. As I was trying to get to the nearest MRT station, which was Redhill, I couldn't remember how to walk it at all! But ahaha by faith as you trust, its been good. And it made me remember what Redhill-Henderson is well known for. Old folks, there's alot of aging people around. Often a times, I feel they're lonely, needing company/loving someone to just listen to them talk. Its quite a sad place I remembered I hated going to school cause there was just something about the place that does seem abit depressing.

But I saw something today, and got reminded, though no matter where they are, how they are (an amputee, hopping around on clutches though one leg less, doesn't stop them from going about their daily activities). I remember about the human spirit that it is capable of. The capability to love, to care, to show compassion to one another, to encourage one another on. Their reselience, perseverance and determination really teaches me alot.

When you're of that white grey old age, where you see each of your friends leaving you one by one, what encourages you to another new day? What keeps you smiling, what keeps you doing what you do everyday? I've probably just realised, why old people around, smile lesser as they age more. There are reasons why they behave the way they do, if we bother enough.

Sadly, all these revelations comes more and more, and I understand more when my ah-mas are both no longer around. Its a tinge of regret I never spent enough time with them that enabled me to pick up their mode of communication, in dialects. But I hope I'll be able to spread some joy to the old peeps that I meet along the way now. As and whenever, I've a soft spot for them :)

Uncle Heng passed away last night. Another one gone, hope God receives him. He died in his sleep, which is good. And am just glad mom went over in Dec to KL to visit them. I don't remember alot of him, but all i do is remember his smiles and his loud happy, hearty voice. God bless him :) Mom's over at KL now, pity I didn't go up again in Dec to say bye. sigh. What timings but I'll apologise when I do see him. Really!

^ That's from the song "Gravity - Coldplay" ahaha. It just popped into my head. Thought I'll just leave some thoughts here as I take a breather, zoning out to my favourite song, gravity :) I love Chris's voice against the hitting of the keys. In any cases, music always brings me joy, depending on the mood. Like now, I'm on Class 95 old school mode. ahaha! Foreigner - I wanna Know What Love Is.

Whoot. I think I'll head home today and do more search. Update my playlist. Its been a busy busy day, entertaining calls, finishing up the posters, and now collating a list. ahhaah, the busiest day so far, but its good. But my body wants to nua. Tee Hee :) Anyway back to work. See if I do get home and continue :)