its the coming last paper and i'm itching. arhahar. erh. itching to get it over and done with. not the most motivated paper cause upon seeing my SAND coursegrade. it just puts me off. it is disapponting in a way cause i thought a B would be more justified. simply because I did the reflection but somehow. it ain't in. and well, but i think Grace Yap has got a thousand reasons why i should deserve that grade. maybe i didn't do too well for that after quiz. maybe my individual part wasn't good enough. maybe this maybe that. i just ain't motivated to get a high grade for this subject ever since but nonetheless. put in whatever i can to at least get me through. eEks. just somehow don't feel like performing miracles like i did in EBM. oh well. GOD!! Discipline me will ya.. I was granted rest. but erm. God, can i have concentration and some confidence in this please?. arhahar. i'm soOo cute. He hears me. arharhar. ok *concentration received* just screaming it out. arhahar. makes it all better.

Alrite. GO go jia you. Go for it and just go~~ arhahar. oh i got a nice comment from Jacob that I have interesting songs on my blog. arhahar. Lol. thankie you. interesting is a nice word. i like =) anyways. listening to Glenda bout the "happenings". Wanna say dunch bother bout what's going on and just go for it!! As long as happiness stays and its God will, ain't anyone. should be talking too much around. I find places quite scary at times. eeEeks. freaks me at times thinking bout it. but it'll be good. =) Stay happy wor =)

come on JOYCE. motivate urself. arharhar. I am Powerpuff gurl. as what Ronnie used to call me. Ronnie my first boss. arhahar. yes. Aku si POwerpuff gurl. arhahar. Huff + Puff + Away and its back to my books. Hope all gets seemed in like a tissue on water and squeeze every single drop of da knowledge out tonite. All da bestie!! *fighting* and yes. Da Jang Geum. I'm coming. arhahar. can't wait or stand the thought of being able to be in front of the teevee just googling at it whole day. soOo exciting. arhhar. i got soOo many things i wanna do. go learn more "stuns" on dat guitar + driving. arhahar. wanna sign up and get that license u know why? Cause I can't stand my brother flaunting his car license if he comes back from Australia. Always showing off. *bleah!! arhhaar. Its in preparation before he starts his flaunt show. Get that card and ease my mind. arhahar. even if it is that i do not get to drive that 4 wheel around. Bleah. arhhaar. Jia You u BIT peeps. bunch of clever ppl all around. arharhar. see ya all around then. tataaata. God bless.

Oh and my personality tests. did it in a jiffy whilst taking a break with my dinner at 930pm. nice. and Auntie Lilek said. "joice. kamu suda kurus loh." arhahar. i was laughing it off again at how many says I've put on weight and she says that. I get soOo encouraged. She meant I've slimmed down lar. oh well. i oso dunnoe. all i know was that i think I put on weight during the CNY period. indulging. and after that was all stress and hence. I slimmed down. arhahar. but she's cute. and if u all wanna do that personal test here's da link.

I got it from Cheryl's Tean Blog. that farnie gurl. makes me smile lor she. =)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx"

arhhaar. its pretty true for me. i give an 7.5-8 out of a 10. arhahar. here's my results. (-^^,)V

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

ok. its been a long time since i last blogged but arharhar. i was tired and skool had my hands too tied up and i was tired. [rhymes?] arhahar. yeah. so i'm back to rant a little before i head back to books and head back to start. yes. start my revision for monday's sand paper. which will mean it will be the last of my papers this semester. and yes. little thing to look forward to is to meet Ate Sally!! arhahar. yes. [its ate as in auntie sally in cebuano]. we'll all go out for a meeting soon eh. i think ever since we came back from the trip, its been never ending work and tiedups in school for it was very much a crazy semester. spun so fast i probably didn't had time to look back on the days that have passed me by. But yes. sharing this from my private black book i just wrote.

Know what the big word of Aging means? I think I know how it feels now after having a reality check with Jie Jie. Yes, I just feel that mama+papa are ageing and i'm probably feeling the gap widdening or rather. me feeling older definitely as the years goes by. Thinking that I might start working earlier as much as I expected it. arhahar. it shouldn't be a problem i guess. since both of them has been working for a long ime already.

But I guess the doubt lies in seeing my parents turning grey that as the years goes by, seems like life seems to seem out of you. [could be different maybe.] and arhahar. the crazy thought of losing them one day gets freaky. But I think it all lies on the fact that has been on my mind since young of the insecurity that I have on when God says "You and your household will be saved". i don't mean to doubt God but it comes upon me.

the urgency seems iminent as all I see before me. Are people heading into a state of self-seeking, materialistic gain/wants of this world at such an alarming rate, I see people losing themselves to worshipping some factual things called money. becoming slaves drivers to their work just to have what they really want, that it seems that times people want more of themselves that tehy don't really bother on the fact of establishing/maintaining the current relationships. It draws onto me on the fact that once people have found their other half, the world seemingly seems to revolve around each other? That it seems all the world needs seems like a you + me thingy. But i think that equation seems wrong. arhahar. Find a God + You = much greater things. I am not trying to say tha tone should turn into a God-loving manifesto. But am saying that you should base a relationship with also the people around you and also to the one up there.

It seems that people busy in their midst, lost what it is to be living eh? Poeple feeling out of their minds eh? I don't know. Probably I am confiding with myself, probably it is to make myself better or to make a stronger stand in what I'm believing in. But my gut feeling tells me this world seems to be waking up on the wrong side of their beds that the things around us are moving much faster that you can imagine. You probably got sucked into this incoming "tornado". You lose your footing and you most slightly have a life revolving around to what you see. Thinking that what you see is what you get. But i think seeing is believing. I hope I don't get sucked into this worldly thingy life man. it freaks me. It gets harder to hold on as the years gets by but nonetheless, if it is to fall, it is to rise every single time one fall. I wanna finish walking this path of mine tha thas been set out for me whether its a long one or a short one.

I don't know bout all these but my only hope is to press on and to continue walking no matter how hard it is gonna get by. I'll get along with this physical + spiritual tiredness but I'll hold on. arharhar. Make it a good, fought race as said in Timothy. I can't remember what's that whole verse but you get the gist. Cause it seems at times I get sucked into the wants or demands of this world. But only to be reminded of the blessings that I've been blessed with Cebu constantly remaining in the back of my head. I wanna head back sometime soon and rejuvenate that restless spirit of mine as it sometimes seems that i am the only one among the majority to be sparring alone. God bless and open the eyes of your hearts always. Lurve ya all.