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Saturday, May 24
That is what happens and a call I make to myself whenever I feel overwhelmed, by situations, emotions, situations, happenings - get up. Everyone has their moments and in those moments, I do take moments to hide away from the world and indulge in my own little make beliefs world (of drama watching) for they help me to take edge off the mindless doings that has the greatest ability to take away your passions and make you feel like a mere robot of going through the motions and leaves you questioning and doubtful of why you are doing the things that you are doing.
That is the bane and the curse of doing that I hate very much, that leaves people senseless in their doings for they know no better in that state, they don't have anything else better to offer, that is all they have and they just want to make it through another day.
Many go through it without realizing because living passionately and loving intentionally gets tiring and as a matter of fact, anything and in all things, can lose their charm and eventually tire you when you keep getting bummed out.
In these moments of down times, it's a love hate moment but one that one must go through to embrace, for how they posture and make themselves out of this during those time out moments, will change and make the difference in the outcome of what is going to come out from it.
It questions you if you still want to be in that continual pursuit, the fine line of logic and consciousness and practicality all coming into a tangent, that makes you wonder if you are sane or insane. Be a dreamer who continues to drum up positive energies just for the sake of being different or a mere idealistic dreamer and one who only dreams.
Or be that lunatic who is possessed by promises not because of what He has drummed up or to prove to the world a point, but of one whose heart and mind yearns and bleeds to see a living manifestation of the belief and a value of a promise given and told by Him years and years ago, that all through the years, he holds on because he believes entirely in Him that He will do what He has promised and one if which He says that He is unchanging.
The truth is that it is only a work of grace that no man's heart can ever strife to work or drum hope or things in their life because any human effort will only prove to be temporal and futile. No man can ever convince themselves when they are not convinced but it takes a higher order to invade our consciousness for us to stay true and hold onto the end, not because of what we have said, but what He has.
When it gets tiring, I'm glad I can take a step back and go around to Him and let Him manifest who He is and allow myself to just lean on Him and continue to hope, trust and love in His goodness, He will take us through.
Sunday, May 18
When death gets closer to home, it always hits home a recheck button on your checklist to take another look at your life and give it another thought. The most recent departure that left me thinking, was a departure of a friend, not one of a human, but one of a furry, four legged friend, buddy and companion of 14 years.
It made me wonder how many more 14 years do I have left, on account of how old I am now, how Lassie was with me since I was a teenager to where I am right now. You really do feel the passage of time finally.
The 14 years she left behind, was a legacy of the knowledge of how she was one who knew who she was and that she was well loved and in that love, hope and confidence, be that love and joy to all those that were around her. As always, a faithful companion till the end :))
Then I wondered about myself and wondered if she did that in 14 years, I wondered what have I done haha. In all, I'm simply reminded to live life having to love and to be loved. Beyond the accolades, possessions and the added material things that give you that status or fame, what will people truly remember you for, will be the things that you have done, in deed and in actions than mere words for actions certainly speaks louder than words but I believe it remains etched in our hearts and minds for a longer period of time because they are things that have moved your heart.
To you, who have lived life merely as one trying to survive,
There must be something more to just survival.
Some say living beyond survival are for those fortunate and rich few,
But there must be a way where we can live beyond our circumstances.
Circumstances doesn't make us but it will be what we make do in these circumstances that will determine an eventual triumph or a defeat.
Being defeated now doesn't mean forever.
What has happened now or the past will not dictate our future, unless we let it to.
May you never forget your dreams and ideals, they are your guiding lights that will guide you eventually to a home and May circumstances never dictate what, how or what you should be or do.
