for a moment i thought what on earth happened to this blogger, creating post, where the fonts function went to. i cannot stand the defaulted font arhahar. i like trebuchet. arhahar. and it as usual, took sometime to load. but its ok. after seeing it load as i type and appears, it brings back a sense of familiarity all over again.

*breathes* talking to 7th Aunt gives me a whole new in depths to the view of things. arhahar. definitely been sometime since i conversed in chinese or something. arharahr. i had alittle bit of difficulty but ok lar. it gets going after some time. but it adds a whole new sense and perspective to what i think, and feel arhahar. i feel old now. eeks. reeks of 20 coming up my way. after 21 its 31! sheesh. time passes by and its creepy. but nevertheless, having heart to heart talks on all issues under the earth is fun. i think i talk to her more than my mom. arhhaar. i talk to everyone else more than i talk to my mom. 7th aunt is wayy cool arhahar. i like chatting like that. never have much of a chance with mummy. maybe its just a little different approaching someone or? *shrugs. arhahar. i don't know lar. i respect moms who just opens up and talks the way they do. they feel understood i understand them. that's how it works and many a times, aharhar, love to spend time with 7th Aunt =) she's a cool aunt and course, i've my cool mom too. makes me blessed to be in the midst of this.

anyway, either i'm thinking alot during these free time [which i very likely feel is the cause] and worrying more these days. arhahar. or maybe just getting too bothered by what's going on. it makes me realise alot more things and more the more fact is that when one person comes the other goes. its ok on a hand but i'm just at times wondering why things are the way it is. am i biased or am i trying to get too bothered. i don't know. maybe its different working styles maybe its just me and her being able to work really well and having that kind of work styles that isn't a one size fits all kind of thing. i don't know but i'm just praying things will work out and see the light at the end of the tunnel. times its a sick feeling, but i just hope to see things coming out well. its a count down and there's only 3 more weeks to go. another 3 months has passed me by. and more or less aharhar. call it a time of rejuvenation. recharge. rearing to go but cautious not to ram into any incoming wall is what i call myself. *shrugs. i wanna get this over and done with. arharhar.

reflecting alot but it spells belief. belief in myself. belief in the things i do. belief in the things i belief in. belief in the things that ppl have. belief in the things that ppl do. its just been going on and on. belief in the things i want to do, hangs at the back of my head. having that belief in doing the things i want to do. i hope i do have it and do it. or maybe i'll keep dreaming arhahar. never mind. maybe uncertainty just teaches you to hang on to the things in which you are certain. and i'm hanging on =)