Hmm.. finally finished updating dat blog. to the way i think i wanted it to be. Harhar. God noes when. I became soOo over the colour combination of. Black + white+ orange + gray. hmMm. Its springing out in me again. hahar.. Just love dat colour combination once again.

Well. Been a long time since i went on a blogging spree. can see all the dates of the last post all way long long time ago lar. and the other blogs all not updated. hmMm. hoping to find time some time and sit down and start doing all these "rubbish". been a long time since i had time and the luxury to sit down in front of da computers in da afternoon and just blog and type and just enjoy da dae.

Life's pretty much no more like year 1. year 2 sooo much into skool now. harhar.. which means less time fer handsomes. haarhar. and just sitting down and play wif photoshop. pictures admired and try to do some stuff to it. but not toOo much now. plus the fact there's him in the picture now.

Well, we just chatted. and great. harhar. i think he's upset again. i guess he's thinking wad have he done. harhar. cause wadever he's doing can't seem to get "closer" to me. actualli he did nothing wrong lar. i'm just drawing a line, not to go anything further to certain extent. harhar. and its "killing" him cause honestly to me. toOo different from da gurls he has. hahar.. soOo different i think its wearing him down i think.

haiz. oh well. i think enough on da part. dun wan to hurt anyone if things ain't gonna be working out. least its sweet memories lar. hahar. some gut feelings tell me this aint gonna be. last time it said so, same thing happened. well, someone just told me. I was someone hu could be easily understood actualli but not a person easy to "live" wif. harhar. yeah. wif my silly nonsense and way awkward thinkin. which i think onli the omma[s] noe me real well.

*sigh* i dun wanna be drawing dat line and treatin him dat way anyway. but harhar. its da best from falling to deep into these soOo called. love. i think it still takes ages to fully grasp wad the entire meaning of it. give me a lifetime and i think i'll still be pondering on wad it is.

There're soOo manie issues involved in this relationship at times. i feel i am betrayin my own values at times. hahar. i think i should still at the end. stick to the end to wad has been said in the book of life. and face the facts or something. harhar. its hard. but yeah. feels good wif da line being drawn. nothing beyond dat extent. but its hurting him :( imao. i dunnoe. can something else be done soOo he ain't dat sad.

I wish i could just follow as wad omma said. "just be friends only lar". how coOL will dat be rite. harhar. i dunnoe. trying to get more of da person more and wad i like to do best, is watch and observe and study the person from afar. but no. this person dun belong dat afar from me. God noes man. its hard to please each other. seems like i can't make myself happie at the same time wif someone happie toOo or wad. god noes. reallie tiring having to think of all these things.