Its really a lovely day today. its raining cats and dogs. so whilst i was about to head out today to get my lunch. (instead of popping instant noodles, i'm sick of it. its such a daily affair actually, that makes me appreciate real food everytime i see them on the table. and give grace arhhar.) took out my wallet, new player, mobile phone and my brolly out to the back of my place to get some food. roasted pork rice and ru dan. it is therapeutic walking in the rain with nice tunes in your head and enjoying the small dripples that fall on the side of your hand, your legs. then, on my way the neighbour had a grand goodbye for their departed. its the traditional chinese one, and somehow, it doesn't scare me but the fact that one day, we'll all be lying in there, and yes. your loved ones leaving you too. so random thoughts. but in that to come, i was more or less just taking time off to think bout the coming future.

changes be coming my way. i don't know if i can make it. as in i wasn't worrying bout the erm paper tomorrow. but more on saturdays paper. arhahar. not that i'm that confident in the erm paper but maybe because you know it is something familiar. that something unfamiliar pops up. i woke up searching for colour pencils today. *laughs. i'm just praying once again. arhahar. for divine intervention. like sunday's worship and sermon by Michael Ross

- God's not limited by His amounts to give, but your ability to receive.
- God works on what you have and not what you want.

it was more than enough for me to take home. arhahar, i felt rich. LOL, not by the hongbaos. i mean previous years i'll be happy counting on the money and think of the billion things to buy with that money. but no kick anymore. all i wanted to do was somehow to save money. arhahar. save and save. *shrugs. i'm not on spending mode cause arhahar. save it and head it off somewhere for a little holiday or something? *shrugs. but in the end a portion had to be used to recover a little player of entertainment that has to be with me, i need it whilst travelling. har. for mr silly said: "$180 isn't much for someone who loves/enjoys music" whoa seh. ok lor. he wins. arhahar. well said. :)

(i lost the green pod damn! thousand bad luck but as they were saying, xun shi pou zai or something lar. which literally means losing something but in hopes that it'll bring better luck. before the pod was lost, the audio technica earphones gave way, suddenly, the left side just had no sound while i was listening to it while heading to xiao gu's place?? arhahar.) *sigh. i got a microphoto from creative. yes i said thousand million times i'm a creative churner but when you want something cheap there's no other alternative. actually don't look at things in a bad way, that player can actually set a background of your favourite picture. BUT don't hope too much on the display. its only 65K from what jayson says. LOL. and the picture size better be around the 100 x 100 px. arhahar. which on your computer screen looks like your soompi avatars~!! arhahar. thank goodness i had picture of that mini sizes as avatars. and some that looks better then the usual. anyways. francis ng + myolie wu are on the screen.

*sigh. i really love that picture alot. arhaha *shrugs. i'm having francis ng fever lately. =) means i've got 3 movies of his sitting on my desktop waiting to be watched. all jiang hu shows. -_-'' but thats hong kong style isn't it? seriously, i think one last dance perhaps to me is one of his finest performance. i'm pretty certain. arhhar. =) after watching karmic mahjong and yes. i understand his intentions, arhhar. one last dance still =) and yar lar, triumph in the skies. what can beat that? i'm still slowly and i mean really slowly getting the great adventurer patience.

and enjoying my lunch when i got home eating. just savouring good old sappy chinese tunes with my lunch. with the rain out at the window. to just really savour the simple things in life that has so often been forgotten in our ever busy lives we so to claim. it was the best lunch in time to come, not that the food was that awesome, but it was the egg that was in my mouth. to stuff that entire half egg into my mouth. and reminiscing it like in my old primary school days. i still do till today. to feel the mashed up yellow yoke get mixed up with the egg white, as you try to get the yoke off from your teeth, and push them all in your mouth. that mouth of satisfaction. i was laughing arhhar. while i ate it. and at the same time wondering if he was having his lunch. *beeps the phone went. *shrugs. the number of coincidences we have on each other is quite a bit. i get reminded of him everytime i hear an eason song on the radio. harhahar. and his pod has the song i've been trying to find but gave up when i heard it on the radio. 3 Doors Down - Here by Me. It rocks totally cause of the acoustics. *grins. He knows what i did with that song. arhhaar. ask him if my rendition was good arhahar.

Now I think i sort of understand the feeling when God hears His people worshipping songs sang, i wanna sing a love song for Jesus! (and the listening part too) arhahar. that feeling you wanna send it up, that if God hears it? and sing it for Jesus, i think i came to terms when i'm worshipping God on sundays. its a different thing playing for God now =)

i realised not too long ago. somehow with Mr Silly around, that you just wanna play/sing it for Jesus. arhahar. i guess he gave that extra push to be there on this coming saturday morning in time to come.

and i thank the many people who has been encouraging along the way. the ppl on the forum boards esp the people on MJ.net. =) some soompi ppl. to KY + Carol there's PL, Jayson and the list goes on. arhaar. to ppl who squeals when they see pictures. that excitement ahha, and my excitement when i see them on my desktop. LOL. arhahar. i'm full of thanks though its just a stepping stone. *gaps. arhahr. i hope this time it'll really be. meant to be. to do the things of my passion and my desire. i know i wasn't idol chasing for ages, that self debate of "thou shalt not have any other idols" arhhaar. i feel rather stressed back then when i read that line. and i'll tell God, they're really not idols. you know i worship you alone, all along.

ahahar. the korean stars and hk actors have been around for me to grasp at how they go about doing their publicity, their work. the pictures taken, the style. the fonts. the colour composition. arhahar.i've been dreaming of something i daren't dream arhahra years ago. we'll see how this goes.

ok that's the thoughts for today. :) i'll post a picture of myself up. yay to decent pictures taken. arhahar. and rainy day pictures you see when you look out of the window before my camera died without batteries. *fists. i'm gonna head back to mug again. all the best to you out there, for your papers! its the final lap. sprint. run. crawl. whatever! finish this man. May everything go well :)

don't you think this picture looks like a scene of jiang hu. all black cars. lined up. fight fight! where's francis ng? arhahar. man watching too much of movies sia.

yays and thats with my revived canon camera. its taken in front of a mirror. whoo!!! that's JDG behind me actually.