i'm an emo dude this night. today's been a different day than usual choosing to spend it over with Carol at her place. bwhaha. 2 crazy monsters, digging at the new year pineapple tarts that are sooo good and peanut snack we finished the entire first layers to the peanut cookies. apparently my throat is still fine. had lunch, xiao yi cooked one. since i asked the little tiger if she wanted to eat her yuki yaki her much awaited and anticipated lunch but her mom's cooking and i had my share. yum yum =D

so cable watching with 2 persons laying flat on the sofas and couch. flipping through the channels. apart from feeling happy being able to watch Miu Kiu Wai on teevee cause "dicey business" is showing, i watch SHAUN THE SHEEP today. OMG. its so lovable. played bit of phoenix wright, hoping to end the damn game so i can start another part of it and i'm so stucked on zelda. as though i have so much time to play game. i don't ahaha. its seriously only the in betweens. travelling or slack time. that seems to be slipping and getting less and work stress is piling ever since the cny period ended which i wished it never ended but fat hope. all good things come to an end. *plays chris martin + nelly fertados "all good things come to an end".

slept. HAHAHA feeling larthegic at the sight of work ahaha i just end up all lazy but will kick up engine and get some reading done and go figure done. sigh. work work work. ahaha and i see the edits required to the video, pim pom piang all i hear is time time time. ahaha. i wished i never needed to sleep ahaha. solves everything but piang. we're only humans. aiya to whatever, hold on and i'll just say. "God will provide" and period.

been reading up on blogs seeing how people have been. that i kicked up some time to do the things i used to do so regular that i haven't did for at least for the past 4-6 months. soompi and minjong.com forums. korean news i rarely have been updating myself only with loads of tvb. AHAHH. starting up the engine for 2007 have been a quiet year to all my beloveds, not much dramas or movies i'm looking towards 2008. when i watched part of 07's Blue Dragon Awards, i could barely recognise it, cause it was really really not that glam, not much hype and it feels quiet. the eerie dead aura. sigh. i miss janggie, woosung, minjong, raewon, jinhee, seeing their familiar faces man. anyways so much for that.

i've been dreaming today on my way home. that i realised that its already end feb in no time (my god can you believe it?) we'll reach the first quarter of 08 in no time. i'm dreaming of the end to being a full time student. (when you're a student you wanna be a full time worker. when you're a full time worker, you wanna be a full-time student. and as usual, the grass is always greener on the other side). and i had this dream of back packing europe. yes and the desire gets stronger as i get older. get the money, get some pals. and move. as simple as that. i'm hoping and hoping. God will make this a cg thing. somehow, we said this before randomly, but i wonder how many still remember on this pact, some time long long time ago. i'm still holding on. and it came back today.

apparently my mind was working like a camera that seemed to clicked by shots. pictures of what i've seen janggie at rome. seungwoo at some parts of europe, at the train station, on the boat, and all. i had those shots and i felt i wanna be in one of them. and i realised at times, being a guy is so much easier to just want, pack your bags and go. girls people will keep talking bout safety not safe and all. it gets annoying when i just think of that that my train of thoughts just came to an abrupt stop. halt. period. and i'll end it with. "maybe one day". spoiler.

anyways, yes i am a dreamer when i was self reflecting on the train ride home from carol's place. and always have been a dreamer. working towards getting them real. cause they aren't that totally impossible ahhar. its fun. just keep moving baby. cny's been rather normal and for me, i always call it quiet. apart from the noise from little tiger (seeing her so bubbly reminds me of the old me) who somehow seem to be quieter as the years goes by. blah. she's the loudest and she really ain't need a loud hailer to be loud. her voice is loud enough.

hoping to get by, do the things i need to do. to everything the best to what i can do. and do the things that i've been called to do for. go. (sleep's calling me. heh) some work first eh joyce. be good. i suddenly feel older today somehow. i don't know why but as Minjong oppa was singing in my ears, it brought back memories of the jump year from secondary school to poly days that in an instance during that period of time, that poly years has ended ahaha. i looked back at myself and realised i did change some bits too. probably for the better. and i laugh at every stage of my life its been humbling experiences that helped me remain grounded. from the real da jie da (what. what's your problem. shut up. gui lan) till the huh oh so more reserved person ahaha. moving from authoritative to more autocratic style. hopefully to move to charismatic. and i dream of barrack obama. inspired. there's this aura in him. wadever. i could dream all day. glad and thankful i've come so far.

hoping to enjoy this weekend the anxiety is kicking in and all i can do is. prayers for recovery that the opt will be smooth lah, steady doc hands and speedy recovery for the patient. that's all i can do for her. watching from afar at times seems so safe but painful at times but yet many a times, its just to that, to how much people want your help. God get me through. :)