I have been wanting to write for some time, or rather in weeks, but apparently haven't got down to writing in on journal form and since that is the case, why not do it the keyboard style. Getting down to write often takes quite a lot only because it takes time to gather up your thoughts and for me to take another look at what my thoughts contains.

Perhaps the greatest part of my thoughts often thinks about the feasibility of walking down this path that I have chosen, without much bearings but with one certainty of a promised word and here I am. Processing and journeying again, isn't one easy to do task but I do my best to journey through this. Then again to come to the realization that humans are intriguing creatures only because we tend to always find the grass greener on the other side, regardless of where we are, or if that is a sign of our weak minds that we never seem to be quite contented at where we are huh.

Through the nights of thoughts and emotions that ranges from frustrations to helplessness to an entire sense of despondence that perhaps you should just forget this entire thing and just be another off the mill - where it is easier, get through life the way it should be.

As conflicted as it may sound, however I may feel, I know a part of me refuses to allow my emotions to tell me what to do but I make my stand to persist, and see this through. I do regardless of how I feel, hoping at times the motions will sink in and help you better but I know with assurance that His grace is always sufficient for me daily and I am tiding through and making it through with Him.

I thank God daily for these kids that I meet, to ruffle their hair and to guide them along, hug them whenever they come towards you and whenever they call your name or my favorite part of holding their hands and just walking wherever they feel like, just watching them, reminds me constantly that trust and obedience is honestly all you ever need, as you look into the eyes of a child, who is constantly in awe and in wonder of all things, I know why He takes such an attraction for these little ones, who really are "small but mighty".

Always reminded to stop for the one and many a times, right now at the kindergarten, brings so much memories of the time in Timor, a portion that reminds me to not forget the lessons learnt and taught but yet at the same time, the value of these little ones and how they hold so much in each of them. It is my favorite age where I connect to, these 5 years old that brings me back to a lot of my memories that I can remember so fondly, of myself when I was 5. Kids these days are honestly so brilliant :)