its been a long while, keeping to meet datelines, school, people, life. swarmed by hecticness. ahaha the purity of it gets quite maddening. so as i laid in bed today purely resting, (I rarely spend my sundays resting) cause its off to church, but i think i just cannot make it today. since last night as been this entirely annoying and new experience of this nausea feeling. no i'm not pregnant for the living daylights of me ahahah. its so random, it just came on after i left edwin + sharon's place and it just hit me. then met darius the silly boy ahahah and i was just sooo dead. had fun with fifa on the xbox at edwin's place + cutting cute looking clouds, brought some kind of joy and i have no idea what hit me after i left. like some kind of bug or something, i just felt i wanted to puke. but no nothing came out. and its that constant damned feeling.

could be some kind of wind in the tummy but urh i had mummy's pill to treat it, i don't know if its working or anything, feels better with a bit more rest in till this afternoon. trying to figure what in the world is wrong with me ahaha. not eating well, sleeping's fine and i can never get enough of sleeping AHAHAHA. apparently the joy of eating has dissipated into thin air lah. pretty sad, and i think again, after digging for more information on the web over my retarded condition ahaha (yes it feels retarded) could be some stomach flu or buggie, or just the usual case of stress related stuff but oh yes, maybe it is some stomach buggie, since that day. AHAHAH. that day of preparing the barbecued food and tried it, it could still be around, cause it just felt like that other time, just not so acute in comparisons of pain.

oh my oh my. when's me gonna find back the joy of eating ahaha. and apparently eating to me is a happy affair, and i think the best time i ate was last week when i was with the 2 xiao char bohs. carol + jinyi. ahaha maybe they're my best medicine to ki siao and then just eat. ahaha i kept complaining i was hungry (yes you can rarely hear me saying that) and eating. OMG. this week i'm having this strange bug. ggrrr. wassup man. i wanna meet that bug in my tummy and tell him off. "hey, pick on someone your own size you know" - cause you're so unbelievably annoying. this niggling feeling in my tummy, grrr. that i probably have to go around hugging a pillow. feels better no doubt but the stinking feeling still remains, that wanna puke feeling ahaha. not that strong anymore. but still some remnants of it. hello mr? what's happening ah. ahaha.

anyways so much so, i thought of Pei Lian today. on my bed as i was resting thinking. yes when i rest i will have my bunch of random thoughts before i drift off to another round of eyes closed sessions. i thought about what she said and she always tells me this when we met for dinner just on thursday night. this line floats and keeps occuring in my mind. "joyce ah, stop thinking too much and worrying about others" in a sense of the dilemma to the dates of my 21st birthday party. and that pure line again, as i look at my condition of my state HAHAH in some bits of shambles. please please tell me which fella in this world doesn't enjoy eating ahaha. it got misplaced that i need to find mr eating again. (i think its a mister cause technically guys stomachs and appetites are like bottomless pits). maybe i've been running abit hard lately ahaha, its time to relax, roll around and be crazy again. somehow lah huh. *stares at my toys* maybe i haven't been playing with them of late and talking and sherading with them with my crazy antics. maybe i'm sucked up in this whole cycle of life thingy, ahaha that i'm now staring at it. ahaha sitting in a lovely corner just wondering and thinking and watching the world go by. its much funner observing things than being a part of this madness from time to time, but it makes you learn and get sensible ahaha. the irony. oh wells. i hope all of you are doing well =) sending out my loves. on a lazy afternoon and work stares at me and i fall flat at my face thinking about going about doing it. hwaiting. ah joy. =)

and the picture with Pei Lian edits. i just kopped from the girl =) i had fun girl! thanks for the kai tong. ahaha ^^ and the good old days. if i could tug her in my bag and bring her around at school and work together once again. the best team! ahahaa. and my side thoughts to winnie aka pooh bear. whahaha. ajah!