ok. its been a long time since i last blogged but arharhar. i was tired and skool had my hands too tied up and i was tired. [rhymes?] arhahar. yeah. so i'm back to rant a little before i head back to books and head back to start. yes. start my revision for monday's sand paper. which will mean it will be the last of my papers this semester. and yes. little thing to look forward to is to meet Ate Sally!! arhahar. yes. [its ate as in auntie sally in cebuano]. we'll all go out for a meeting soon eh. i think ever since we came back from the trip, its been never ending work and tiedups in school for it was very much a crazy semester. spun so fast i probably didn't had time to look back on the days that have passed me by. But yes. sharing this from my private black book i just wrote.

Know what the big word of Aging means? I think I know how it feels now after having a reality check with Jie Jie. Yes, I just feel that mama+papa are ageing and i'm probably feeling the gap widdening or rather. me feeling older definitely as the years goes by. Thinking that I might start working earlier as much as I expected it. arhahar. it shouldn't be a problem i guess. since both of them has been working for a long ime already.

But I guess the doubt lies in seeing my parents turning grey that as the years goes by, seems like life seems to seem out of you. [could be different maybe.] and arhahar. the crazy thought of losing them one day gets freaky. But I think it all lies on the fact that has been on my mind since young of the insecurity that I have on when God says "You and your household will be saved". i don't mean to doubt God but it comes upon me.

the urgency seems iminent as all I see before me. Are people heading into a state of self-seeking, materialistic gain/wants of this world at such an alarming rate, I see people losing themselves to worshipping some factual things called money. becoming slaves drivers to their work just to have what they really want, that it seems that times people want more of themselves that tehy don't really bother on the fact of establishing/maintaining the current relationships. It draws onto me on the fact that once people have found their other half, the world seemingly seems to revolve around each other? That it seems all the world needs seems like a you + me thingy. But i think that equation seems wrong. arhahar. Find a God + You = much greater things. I am not trying to say tha tone should turn into a God-loving manifesto. But am saying that you should base a relationship with also the people around you and also to the one up there.

It seems that people busy in their midst, lost what it is to be living eh? Poeple feeling out of their minds eh? I don't know. Probably I am confiding with myself, probably it is to make myself better or to make a stronger stand in what I'm believing in. But my gut feeling tells me this world seems to be waking up on the wrong side of their beds that the things around us are moving much faster that you can imagine. You probably got sucked into this incoming "tornado". You lose your footing and you most slightly have a life revolving around to what you see. Thinking that what you see is what you get. But i think seeing is believing. I hope I don't get sucked into this worldly thingy life man. it freaks me. It gets harder to hold on as the years gets by but nonetheless, if it is to fall, it is to rise every single time one fall. I wanna finish walking this path of mine tha thas been set out for me whether its a long one or a short one.

I don't know bout all these but my only hope is to press on and to continue walking no matter how hard it is gonna get by. I'll get along with this physical + spiritual tiredness but I'll hold on. arharhar. Make it a good, fought race as said in Timothy. I can't remember what's that whole verse but you get the gist. Cause it seems at times I get sucked into the wants or demands of this world. But only to be reminded of the blessings that I've been blessed with Cebu constantly remaining in the back of my head. I wanna head back sometime soon and rejuvenate that restless spirit of mine as it sometimes seems that i am the only one among the majority to be sparring alone. God bless and open the eyes of your hearts always. Lurve ya all.