i think the people at tvb are geniuses at marketing. and so are the people over at Japan and at Korea. The leading marketers. Like what i heard a colleague at the company i'm working for at temp, he said this line and it goes. "you want to confuse companies, get lawyers." "you want to confuse consumers, get the mar comm people". i totally agree. so funny. :)

anyways, all i can say my eyes is equivalent to 2 single lines drawn across my face. a day of work, and 4 hours back to back of tvb dramas. tvb dramas makes me dream. it dares you really to dream. and takes the limits and questions "what are you dreaming" and why aren't you challenged to dream. its interesting. the way they film their shows, yes predictable you can all say. but what is the thing that keeps drawing me to watch it, its the way they work. the way they unfold and tell the story, the way they film it, the style, the dialogue and the final backend and frontend people to pull the whole show off. from the camera fan to the crew to the acting people.

its only when i got older do i start seeing more things that i haven't seen in my previous days cause i confined my viewing habits to what i wanna see. or think that its good. i never gave chinese shows a run, esp tvb. cause back then, i cannot understand it. now that when i do learn to understand, i'm hooked. the good old heart warming tangling and wrenching shows. keeps me so entertained. it keeps me thinking.

watching //always ready + drive of live// makes me dream. it makes me wonder what do i want to do in the next couple of years. just like yesterday, when i was getting my cervical cancer prevention jab. Dr Cheng was talking all about marketers. like its actually the most lucrative jobs and stuff how some ppl are just made for the job and all. and the boss Mr William Phua ahaha who interviewed me yesterday before giving me the job.

when you've been through the roughest and being tested when you're made to work day and night, i tell you. i appreciate the good people in the office, or at least a lovely people to work under with. i don't mind working or serving people, when people are someone you can approach to ask when you're in doubt, yes do all the work. zero lamentations. its a lovely environment, but i'm only a temp as it is labelled over my forehead. one that comes and go, but i like it at times, like "super-sub" come on bring some energy and leave. *shrugs. help what you can and leave.

that's life. drive of life is goood. omg, MIu Kiu Wai is a hopeless fellow in there. well done, i'm bit bored of his oh-so-abled roles. i think its one of those hopeless to a somebody. and Bowie Lam in Always Ready. awesome awesome. finished always ready, watching Bowie and Jacky, the little boy never fails to tugs the strings of my heart. its sooo loving. papa and son love. see already also can wanna cry. omg.

as i think the shows speaks when you yourself at that very nook and corner has that little desire or need :) its a good time to be alone now, as in real alone. i'm not lamenting but being grateful for this period of time that is given, that i think both of us while he is in the midst of his army, faces whatsoever that lies ahead of him, i myself can give myself a good thought to what i wanna do in time to come. :)

i realise i prolly do miss the boy. cause i would be lying if i claim i don't. (that carol says: "you miss is already an achievement" ahaha. i must be terrible!) but more than that, its the time we indulge in each other just chatting about going-ons hours once at a time face to face weekly, ahaha that'll be very very long. i miss that chats. the company of just sitting sharing. under the stars

hahaha. things doesn't allow much of that now, but i suppose we both take it with a pinch of salt. and the sms exchange and prompt replies we can have, just simple things like that that though we both don't meet up ahaha, it feels nearby that's been taken so easily like a everyday thing. that now, quietness brings a whole new meaning. :)

the irony that both of us tries when we meet to catch up or something or least do something more for each other to make up for the lost time but i suppose, i grapple with the fact that there's only so much i can do for him, and all i can do is either to sit and listen or just really, tuck him to bed. cause rest for him is what i think does best for him. how limited in the things we can do, but none the less, in what we can do, make the most out of it. and that's my love being for now. hahaha. i realise i can be quite a perfectionist too huh. suprise suprise. but i adore the simplicity despite the ironies in the difficulties that seem to blind or grey it, when you do learn to sort the logic behind and understand things, i make do with what i can do! ahahah.

absence makes you see the things you don't see. that when you step back and look at it from a distance, you see a different beauty. and i suppose that's the reason why i love pictures, and photo taking. the stopping, grab your camera, the angle, what catches your eye and how you want to capture it for keepsake's purpose to remind you.

work's a cover, hahhaa. yes, to earn the money, but to kill the time so that my mind is kept busy, on its toes and keep thinking! learn new things, study new things, and OBSERVE PEOPLE. i haven't had the opportunity to sit down and watch the world go by me, but now that i do whenever i can, oh my. its such a damn luxury.

more than that, all i can say, i'm yearning for the chance to feel small all over again. be it just being alone in my own world, laying on a patch of green bugless grass. watch the skies and clouds float me by. rain falling on me. something, i need that touch from above or something to make me feel small. i want to feel small. so i can be reminded of the goodness that do exists in this world that seems so small and self centered or depressing or something. ahhaa, i'm tired of same things, i want to break away from this thing.

now the time i feel small, is whenever i go to sleep, before i sleep to the time i wake up in my bed. i feel small!!! hahah. small to trust in the upcoming things to do ahead of you, before you start up your day. and small when i learn to think of the happenings of the day.

and its time to wash up and change after i hit the "post" button. my eyes are shutting. my thoughts my rambles. oh fly me off somewhere. the backpacking fever is hitting me. and paul baloche is singing to me. "praise adonai". lovely. not to bad first day of work. fly my ass out of this place. oh hk. till then. :)