Man-man guys turn on!

days been ups and downs lately, more on the upper side i suppose. arhahar, where too much of uncertainties at times can be really doubting, i think there're some things out there that shouldn't be doubted (in the coming days ahead) arhahar. no matter what's been said, for many a times people do say things out in a spite of anger or out of play probably gone out of hand. yes the mouth is the root of all evil lying just behind on no.2 spot behind money. but all for's good sake, for play but ok. i'll note and keep those words that can seem jokingly painful aside. i hope you feel better =)

but apart from that, mummy's returned again to talk about something i've been waiting for like "so how no results from the uni ar?" "don't wanna apply overseas ar? wait too late how?" while my reply hinged on "aiyah wait lor, cannot go in work lor, wait another year or something?" like yes i know what you're hinting at, make some reserve back up plan. its funny how i was just saying just now, that whilst many would be dying for a chance to head overseas to study, i just wouldn't want unless its the last resort to.

think about the people around, the family, the friends, the groupies you've been hanging out with, the food, the place. like the best part of life's coming right up, and you just don't wanna miss anything out kind of thing. we'll see. leaving will take quite a bit from me. arhahar. this old lady sitting and who enjoys reminiscing. the idea of living alone just yes sounds good in a way while you have all the time to reflect and your own private space, but at the same time, it reminds you of how lonely days can be. ew. to start from the beginning gets alittle overwhelming at times, finding that circle, finding that certain kind of fixed ritual activity that you'll be doing. is overwhelming.

so i've finally plucked up the courage to hey hey. go get a job, go fish! arharhar, rather than sitting down and just waiting aimlessly. i mustered enough courage to get down to another walpaper done on Janggie. *winks. i couldn't resist the great pictures taken that visualising them all merged onto one picture sitting at my wallpaper brings a kind of joy and satisfaction of looking and criticising your own work looking at others, how you can improve kind of thing. trying new things time and time little different style, trying to be messy! arhahar grunge kind of but i still can't do it. argh. so it was a step from me i suppose, to stop running away, that its ok and what it meant when you said "yar i trust in you, believe you'll show the way". saying is always one thing whilst doing it always seems so different.

good for a step. then my compact kyocera camera is back and running into action. its been out of action for a very long time all thanks to the dead battery. both bars all dead to a point whereby you couldn't even charged them, it was really bad, when i was asking myself, was it due to the camera literally being dead or the battery. but a brainwave (rather known as common sense) was to just plug the camera to the ac adaptor and see if the thingy worked. walla! it did. was happy in a way, but couldn't bear to splurge on $28 bucks i think on a new battery. but afterall, i thought about all the nice and awesome pictures it used to have taken for me, and it being in cebu taking those really lovely shots. i couldn't bear to chuck it in a corner and just get tempted and get a second hand compact camera of lets say now at least 4 meg, 3x optical zoom. thought that wasn't a need afterall my camera's compact arhaar. and hey hey, its good for taking self protraits. well, also known as zhi lian whoo hoo.

took a couple of shots. one looks really like the garden of eden and on tuesday i think, the skies looked really blue. humm and the bukit merah interchange whereby HSS students arhahar, used to sit on whist they waited for their bus to school or to home to come. it was a flashback for me seeing all those students in their school uniforms. as i headed down to tiong for an interview at video ezy.

struck me that i needed a job quick. grow that money in the bank arhahar. so today, i sat down formatting my previous resume done at school, really look so templated i couldn't stand it myself. came out with a modified version. sent it out to like 5-6 companies all in hopes one would get me back muarharhar. *shrugs see what the morning brings. its all admin/clerical jobs sounds good 5 day week. come on, just one! and after that whole day of gun bounding arhhaar. i found a new mobile i like. that grum that yellow looking lavae thingy. i used to hate it cause it looks like a bug, but i ended up liking it after realising i can't do much damage using that boomer thingy. my hits went up 222+ ok. improvement from 111+ lol. i guess its all about finding a mobile that suits you. i'm still wondering how ppl achieve hits of over 1000+ damage. dang. i feel noobish. but its all for the fun. feeling random.

then teevee. my favourite myolie on teevee with Sammul Chen on zhi fa tai yan ren or known as when rules turn lose. i kind of regret i started watching tvb series later. i mean if i really did put in the effort to watch it, my chinese might have been of a better standard that it is today, and if it was possible pick cantonese up. its still one of my little regrets i have, like i'm chinese and i can't speak a decent dialect and all i speak of is bahasa indon. its rather embarrassing. trying to pick up canton isn't easy dude. bahasa indon's so much simpler. cause of the ying diao. you gotta be careful and once again, ying diao needs more time and effort. *sigh. fighting ah joy! lol

but in all i was searching up in if you all watched The Academy with Ron Ng (Wu Zuo Xi) and Sammul Chen (Chen Jian Feng) i think. there's this Li-Sir in the show muarhahar. he's the reason on top of the other 2 i keep watching it. He's called Michael Miu Kiu Wai (Miao Jiao Wei) nearing the age of 50. but hey hey, what rocks about that dude is that he's looking great and acts rather good too. maybe mommy knows him, must go ask muarhahar. but i think he's cute. posing for those pictures. i think he looks even better than when he was younger. gives me hope that i'll hopefully look better as i get older but chances are. quit dreaming, it only happens to guys. well maybe Carina Lau can be on the different few. lol. dang, i'm smiling and feeling happy and excited over someone old enough to be my dad ok. so i was saying my future husband prolly ends up a real old one. =X who cares. good looking can liao. arhahar. man-man. i post up the pictures taken prolly tomorrow or sometime soon man. and get more wallies done soon man. jonathan jonathan calls. sorry agnes. ahrhaar. =)

that's Michael Miu. fine looking gentleman. not bothered bout the numbers. just bout his craft. he's a prodigy ok. returning to the entertainment scene as he said its where he belongs i guess. dang. i wanna go to the tvb rental place and borrow that drama Dicey Business or (du3 chang3 feng1 yun3) whoo. think its shown on cable already, prolly missed it as usual. the teevee junkie me is popping right up. new interest. tvb dramas. korean dramas mediocre now hicks =X kudos and respect to the fella! somehow he reminds me of the hong kee version of Ji Jin Hee arhahar. family man. square faced. excels in their craft. well i need to see more of his work. arhhar before i say good actor. but liao jiang, confirm good! [i wonder if i'm the youngest fan. sssh]


before i forget. meet my new cartoon obssession. not too much of it now but i still find him cute. i've been trying to find his name, till a kind soul told me who that it =) Domo-kun saw it on soompi on someone's avatar always wondered who was that. yay. gggrrr. hee hee. a dreamy ah joy loving the things she just does at 3.20am in the middle of the wee hours of the morning. still wide awake. oh call me call me tomorrow!! arhhaar.