I have just realised i'm soOo first. Blind without my glasses on. Can't even see properly when I type as i have the lappy on my lap... *sigh* I'm getting old. hahar.. Oh well.. Just came here to leave... My pain here.. Complain here~! Harhar, yeah.. My back's soOo freaking aching and i'm here to complain.. [no one else to complain to rite?] *sigh* I'm reallie getting old.. harhar..

Oh well, dunnoe wad's happening.. Could be due the past previous days bathing late? Oh well, I think I was asking fer it.. If i follow my normal schedule, dat is when there was skool, everything should have been okie I guess.. Argh. Onli comfort I guess is my bed and my pillow.. *relief* it is nice.. And a lil rub off my back.. And pray to God dat he'll probably heal me soOn.. harhar..

Oh well, enough about complaining.. hahar, todae has been one of the most happening days in one of the longest time ar.. harhar, spent my afternoon wif Glenda dearie.. Alrite man, being out wif her is soOo fun.. harhar.. yeap~! Just love those talks, and the eating~! Harhar, we ate soOo much we got glares I think from the waitress.. harhar, i think both of us ate like round 20+ plates of pure sushi.. harhar, sushi buffet.. Well, she oso taught me to eat loads of things i wouldn't dared eat in the past alrite.. now, heading to Sakae Sushi and eatin, should be worth the full price.. harhar, i ate.. one. Red Ginger. I found dat thing reallie gross last time, but seems it tasted nice. two. Octopus sushi. it looked soOo freaking raw, [i hate raw stuff], but harhar.. She went.. "nice nice!!" okie lor, eat oso no harm mar.. Food's edible.. She said.. "put on the ginger and soya sauce" [I'm a dunker. I drink soya sauce when i eat sushi lor] harhar.. And stuff it all into ur mouth.. harhar, it tasted alrite, caused the. erh.. Soya sauce covered the entire taste of the rawness.. harhar, but it was nice lar~! Glennie~! I prefer that cooked octopus sushi, the one u scream and scream, say.. "i'm soOo tempted" after ya soOo full.. =) And I ate wasabe, i used to hate it. but apparently, it adds some kick to the soya sauce lar.. harhar.. =) thanks dearie.. Haven't had soOo much fun in quite some time and made me eat things i thought i never did.. =) SoOo grateful.. harhar..

Oh yeah, and I'm just soOo happie fer her.. Yeah, hope everytime she's happie and I'll be happie alrite.. =) U guys are just soOo sweet lor.. Hee~! Must stay happie always.. *huggiezZz* I'm soOo tired. Giving my "broken" back a rest now.. Doing everything on the bed.. its pure laziness. but wad to do. harhar.. its pure comfort. lalala.. See ya guys tml again ar Glennie. =)

Yo. I'm back.. harhar, after a much hard work of studying.. [harhar, call dat hard work?] yeah. I call dat hard. SoOo hard trying to stay at a spot practicing but harhar.. i guess that is the job of being one student rite.. and wad was said was rite.. being a student, u actualli only nid to put lots of hard work twice a year, fer the examinations and den most of da time, u're having lots of time to urself and oso having fun ar. harhar.. =)

2 papers down and one more to go.. Aiyo. Its alreadi thursdae and I onli studied one topic tonite. and gosh. tml's Good Fridae. how fast. its alreadi coming to the end of March and erh.. April's coming? whoot. Dat was fast.. HmMm.. Dat's reallie fast. harhar.. And i'll be older. harhahar.. Believe it or not. I'm reaching 18.. Harhar, soOo farnie.. harhra, how often I think i'm old but apparently, at times i dun behave as one ar.. harhar-ing whole dae.. harhar.. *shrugs* dats me. Happie go lucky as wad mummy calls me ar.. *laughs loudly*

Well, better get my butt moving and do some reading up.. Just went watching Dong Gun oppa's interviews and all.. PLus one more movie. "gates of destiny".. *sigh* Koreans always seem to have dat sad factor in almost everything they do ar.. Songs, MVs, movies, teevee dramas.. Some kind of trademark and this movie wasn't sparred from dat either.. Thought Min Jong oppa did really well, harhar.. Young and handsome.. Onli weak thing.. Da plot of da story.. Reminds me of watching "2009 Lost Memories".. Difference, the way da screenplay goes.. Both are bout some gateway to the future.. but one's more developed, and Gates of Destiny, was an older version.. not soOo high tech and more "historical".. one thing fer sure i learnt from dat movie.. "guns beat swords in terms of fighting. u'll sure gonna lose, if ur weapon's a.. sword"..

OoOh well.. And yeah.. Finally got to understand wad "gwen-cheon-do-ae", dat song by Min Jong oppa was.. Harhahr, big time lyrics in english and chinese.. and definitely, chinese lyrics was the better choice in terms of bringing the song out.. I always felt dat way, though I'm more fluent in my english, always felt chinese was a better alternative in relating to matters close to the heart.. Somehow, Chinese's got dat extra punch.. Cause Chinese, can be phrased in a simple manner, but wif a little twist, its gonna get a whole new dimension to the feeling of wad u just said.. English, harhar.. How simple can u get, it takes much more of a twist to bring the feelings out.. harhar.. SoOo loved chinese songs more dat way, more sadness in there.. harhar..

But yeah, did one of the most amazing things.. Buying an english album.. I totalli havent been listening to any of the most recent english songs, but one fine dae.. I just clicked onto one of my brother's playlist, and there was Keane.. harhar, a britain 3-some.. HmmM, I liked one of their songs, which was featured in one of the advertisments of "chase".. Their music sort of remind me of coldplay, but the difference, probably less slur.. Lots of guitar.. harhar, piano and chords.. Love it.. Reallie different music to wad i've been listening to.. on top of the korean pop.. harhar.. And I thought i should be opening up my ears to listen to more english songs ar.. somehow, they've got much interesting chords.. in their songs.. they've got nice tunes.. but i'll go fer the chinese, in terms of feelings and moods, the lyrics reallie roxs in chinese songs.. harhar, soOo mix up the english tunes of their songs and the chinese lyrics.. I think it'll be the greatest combination.. harhra.. =)

I'm freaking out. Reallie. Really dun have much confidence in not being careless. harhar. its scary. Harhar, becomes a phobia wif numbers ar. just wif statistics. harhar.. I dunnoe, I just kind of fumble whenever its numbers. and its the same thing I face every nite before I sit fer the paper..

Harhar, fer the last 10 years, hahar.. Same feeling, butterflies in my stomach. harhar.. Lost faith alreadi.. harhar.. but never mind, try to do whatever i can. harhar, its always dat.. "I hope i've practiced enough".. feeling.. Ar well.. Leave it up to God fer that final part and do wadever I can..

Cup of milo.. warm myself down and get some rest.. harhar, and pray to God he'll bless us.. harhar, my dearie cousin.. harhar, we were working together to crack that hypothesis chapter.. fun.. harhar.. and we somehow got our own theories and kind of got wad it was all about.. harhar.. Just brings back the times we were younger. harhar.. Times when we helped each other in our work.. harhar.. Long time since we did that together.. harhar.. And some heart to heart chat.. =) I just hope she's all well.. Think less and walk on the positive side, and she'll be all looking great and fine.. harhar.. [not dat she isn't looking well, but certainly make her shine once she sees the positive side].. harhar.. Cheer up buddie =) Had tons of fun.. thanks dearie..

Okie okie..*deeps breath* Get rest, and its "war wif the papers" tomolo.. hahar, I thought there was peace fer some time.. harhar, *fighting*.. Will think of wad mummy told me.. "think twice before u write". harhar.. =) wish me luck.. NItey nite..

wharhar.. every nite I wanna blog these couple of nites.. harhar, i feel like slping ar.. wharhar.. soOo well, I guess i haven't been entering some entries ar.. well well, wharhar.. its da study week, and yeah.. thankfully managed to get some work done.. Pure accounts.. harhar.. =) As I went on doing a paper a dae, i can't help but to think of back den.. a year ago.. harhar.. during this same time, probably having accounts tution wif suresh.. hwee boon, ling li, jin hui, janna, and lyn plus me all cuddled in Mr Tan's room.. harhar, dat zen feeling room.. can still remember the layout of da place.. hahar.. =) yeap, doing and doing accounts questions..

hahar.. and rite now, todae.. i'm in my room, sitting in front of 2 handsome.. Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa, workin sums and sums.. harhar, smiled to myself.. those were the days.. i missed those times.

harhar, u do reallie feel much like a skool student back den. den we'll all walk to the bus stop, sit all in a line and they'll company me to wait fer my bus and they'll all walk on to their bus stop and take the bus home.. and when i got home, I remember this~! I had to start studying fer my chinese chapter tests.. harhar, it was always hard fer me, trying to manage those days.. Times i'll do well and there was this period of borderline scores.. I reallie thought of giving up and taking up Syllabus B.. harhar, and was Hwee Boon who coaxed me out of it.. hahar.. She said.. "Joyce ar, u dun study, u probably didn't even pass ar.. dun worrie, just do ur best in ur final o'levels".. and she wrote this letter to me.. harhar.. there was this chinese phrase.. "dun give up easily, or u'll be letting urself down".. har, the english translation by me sounds reallie bad.. but those were the good old daes.. dat's how i learnt my chinese ar.. harhar.. was fun.. i suddenly feel soOo old ar.. hahar.. =) miss her hangouts ar.. during recess time she'll company me do my walk arounds.. harhar, and we'll chat and chat all the way.. harhar, haven't seen her fer a long time.. hahar..

Har, soOo much soOo fer remembering the good old daes.. wharhar.. went to reach out fer God todae.. harhar, and the "40 days of purpose" book, I finished it ar.. todae.. some whole 15 chapters and a real good 15 chapters.. the best part of the book was done purely todae.. talking about servanthood.. "many wants to lead, but how many wants to serve?", whoOoa. It struck me todae. suddenly, feel harhar.. Whar, at peace wif myself.. harhar, these couple of days been like kind of listless and not without much of a purpose.. harhar, no DRIVE.. harhar. dat's da psychological terms ar.. harhar.. drive. but got it back ar.. feels great =) it always feels good when u put God in the centre of ur life lar.. ^^ it is a constant reminder.. to urself.. I'm really nothing without my God and to remind urself, its him who is working tirelessly.. 24-7. giving his ever 110% and i'm always soOo moved by this moving God. He's gotta be in ur centre of ur life man. Dat's one important lesson i've learnt todae. He's becoming soOo coOL to be.. Oh my gosh.. Hee, I thought God was soOo sweet. "He prepared breakfast", I *gasped* yeap, and it puts urself at ease and go forth in a brand new kind of light and mode.. harhar.. to study~!!!! harhar.. yeah.. SoOo much of motivation to start moving.. harhar, its moving but u noe.. its moving in a much smoother way now..

After heading out to study wif Hakim yesterdae. hahar, was reallie funny man.. we chatted fer an hour before hitting our heads into the sums.. wharhar.. Work and press calculator like i was sms-ing.. harhar.. =p managed to "steal" one paper of practice from him.. harhar, he was working hard.. must learn to be like him ar.. He said something.. harhar.. v e r y interesting.. harhar.. "joyce, u've changed.." I looked up at him..

"huh? reallie?" harhar.. i noe i noe.. harhar.. Den i told him all.. "sitting all alone in a secluded corner during lectures. seemingly looks soOo cold to everyone.. plucking earphones on my ears whereever i go".. harhar.. he went, "yar ar", "sudden change, dun dare to tok to u ar".. harhar, i let out a whole bunch of laughters.. yeah, i noe.. i realised it myself.. harhar, den i explained myself.. harhar.. "everyone's in their pairs and couples, u dun expect me to be some extra there ar.. and yeah.. everyone's got clicks.. soOo i sit alone ar.. i learn more toOo.. harhar".. Den he laughed it off.. and he went.. "seems like u haven't changed actualli".. and i went.. "yeah, next time lectures i find u and sit beside ar..".. He went.. "okie lar, sure ar.. " He's soOo farnie ar.. Reallie suits that "kambing" nick we all give him.. harhar.. =) He made me see, u better start working hard.. harhar.. and fer the cute compliments.. harhra.. I reallie laugh them off.. =)

But to say, yes.. i've quieten down myself.. somehow one way or another.. i do realise it myself toOo.. more introverted [tell dat to mummy, she wun believe it, cause my mom feels i'm soOo noisy ar].. More time to myself, behind the doors in moi room.. and most of the time, whereever i'll go.. My company, music.. harhar.. soOo music is one important aspect, of course including God ar.. hmMm. hahar, i dunnoe, but i'm liking it.. harhar.. =)

Hmm.. It sure does feel good now.. harhar, was getting restless and bored actually, these couple of weeks.. Could be due to the overworked week last week.. harhar, now suddenly, everything all seem to have just ended and the study break term has come on by already.. Time passes by soOo fast actually dat I can hardly believe my eyes.. And yes.. Its one year in tp alreadi.. cannot believe it..

Yes, study break now, and its more like i'm feeling of slacking the days away but my conscience wouldn't let me ar.. todae is tuesday alreadi, and I better start getting moi butt moving.. harhar, always nid to feel that sense of urgency before i start pushing my relunctant self into doing things.. harhar, good and not so good in dat sense i suppose..harhar..

well, just packed my room alittle up.. all the stacks of discs all flying all around the places ar.. soOo annoying.. harhar.. and bags all stacked in the cupboard all around requires alittle tidy up.. and more space to study, which always ends up, prowling all over the bed, and working on the bed.. harhar.. which is the ultimate and most comfortable thing to do..

Yeah, been finding some music to run to.. Yes, first was Jacky Cheung.. hoo hoo.. and den i was in search of something else.. harhar.. something a tad sadder tune.. and wif more recollections.. harhra, its the "ghost" ost.. u noe, dat drama which starred Dong Gun oppa and Min Jong oppa.. hoo hoo..listening to it all over once more, gives me some sense of feelings once more.. harhar.. dat's wad my mood is and wad my ears wanted to hear.. something not found in my playlist of mp3s which i've gotten kind of bored alreadi.. but always take time out to reveal all those hidden secrets in those cds which are left untouched in one corner fer a period of time, take them out and listen.. hoo hoo.. its always dat enlightening.. and enoyable as wad i've done soOo far.. Listening to those older k-pop songs.. the songs reallie just seemed like i've known them, but it was like 2 years back alreadi.. see.. time just reallie flies.. harhar..

okie, thinking of revising and cracking my brains fer statistics kind of bores me.. which harhar.. i've come up wif an idea of starting off wif accounting first.. lalala.. kie ar.. den go do my quiet time.. been dozing off these couple of nites alreadi.. cannot cannot~! harhar.. okie.. dat's my plans fer todae.. soOo gonna do them.. wanna find one dae to head out and play bball.. missing the game.. hmm.. brings back memories.. but anyways.. just let them go all on the hoops.. =) everyone's falling sick.. first it was me.. now there's kim yee.. ah hui and internet mommy.. aiyo..get well sooOn ppl.. prayers be wif u all.. *huggiezZz*

*pouts* i wanna go see Dong Gun oppa~! harhar, he's over at malaysia.. soOo coOL eh.. Wished i was older den can fly liao.. harhar, whoops.. Looks like no chance to see him ar.. i'll just... dream a little dream.. wishes it comes true.. soOo coOL to be able to see da 2 oppas one dae.. i'll just.. dream...

Wassup wif this blogger thingy.. They've changed the format of inserting the fonts.. harhar, it was lazee enough to be adjusting the font type.. now the font size.. SoOo ma fan one ar.. harhar.. Oh well, more clicks fer a lazee person like me ar.. harhar.. =)

HmMm.. Haven't been blogging much ar.. Either been seeing handsome handsome and den falling asleep or simply.. just really nothing much fer me to blog.. harhar, maybe doing something overtime over and over again becomes a routine and becomes boring.. harhar.. not much thoughts and thinkings left to be written here..

Oh yes, todae was me reallie bad ar.. Lacking of the usual projectionist duty call from aunty christina, I overslept todae lor.. *sigh* cannot make my mind straight on schedule sia.. But after todae, learnt reallie well dat hey, I actualli should be early fer church lor.. always coming in later.. todae worst, overslept all the way dat i just merely went fer cell group onli.. Aiyo, felt bad not serving God todae cause he has been always giving me his full 100 percent or even blessing me wif soOo much more reallie.. once more, he has blessed me wif an unbelievable score fer my communication skill.. To say I reallie sucked at dat last sem and I think previously, I didn't fared dat well was cause i fell asleep while I was studying ar.. This time had alittle more effort but hitting a 75 was freaking high.. Was shocked ar, when I personally went to see Mdm Aisha personally fer my score cause dat dae i didn't turn up.. Was on MC that thursdae.. And toking bout MC.. i haven't submitted it on fridae lor.. *yikes* And I gotta make dat trip down all the way down to skool to pass it dat up.. My goodness, I just hope its not toOo late.. *sigh* guess just head back to skool and hand it in and make my way home.. Oh my gosh.. Thought dun nid to go skool ar.. at this moment i do wish skool was nearer..

Well, I guess dat's wad blogging is.. harhar, to make u remember bout things u kind of forget.. *sigh* soOo absent minded at times.. Wad me thinking ar.. harhar, always "oh yeah ar".. never mind.. =( hmm.. well, study week's tml.. harhar, more time to myself.. time to study and to sit down and just rest. study. eat. harhra.. Like robot ar.. and most importantly, I guess its time to sit down and to do wad I love most doing.. Enjoying pure music.. Well, least fer now, its something which will lighten up da days.. harhar, somehow, just feel something lacking either in my life or something.. [more of God?] dunnoe, just got the feeling of being cooped up once i enter my room ar.. hahar, but seeing Ernie's face in it, kind of makes me giggle ar.. maybe its the habit of just switching on the comp once i enter my room and doing the same thing or something? harhar, or feeling.. alone?.. harhar.. God noes, just feel something lacking ar.. wonder wad's dat ar.

Yeah.. SoOo freaking happie now.. Harhar.. Relaxing and slacking around fer a dae please.. Its been days ever since I've got the time to reallie enjoy the things that I reallie wanna do.. harhar, doing my favourites.. Lalalaa.. Watching my 2 favourite oppas.. Dong Gun oppa's got a new haircut~! Oh moi gosh, a stunning handsome handsome lar.. harhar.. He looks soOo much better wif this new hair.. Miss his old looks.. Those brighter sunshine boi looks.. SoOo cute lor.. No wonder I like for soOo long liao.. Haharh =)

Heh heh, soOo slacking life is pretty good lar.. SoOo tired liao.. Wanna sleep but still wanna watch teevee.. harhra.. Got no handsome to watch.. Unless I whip up my VCD lor.. But aiyo, buay tahan lar.. GOnna anytime sleep de lor.. SoOo just looking ar handsomes will do..

Wharhar, must leave my record down and see how many hours of sleep i have been clocking fer the past few nites... Todae is wednesdae.. From Sundae nite till last nite.. I think i've just clocked 9 to 10 hourds of sleep.. Its good in a way cause it helps keep u slimmer but definitely not healthy fer ur face and ur health.. Down wif a stupid loss of voice and flu and cough.. hoo hoo.. Roxs..

And thank God I got through todae.. All thanks to God's help ar.. Got through the dae wif psycho test, plus Comm skills role play and lastly, NMM's website.. Finalli its all over and its reallie a load off my chest.. Especially wif the completion of NMM's webbie.. Whoot.. Just hope the stuff is all ther alreadi.. Something in dat proposal.. Somehow feel a little insecure about that matter cause on a fact most of the information was spoon fed and it reallie seems that the proposal is little as compared to the usual..

Things got a little rough in the beginning of the dae as I was rushing to get the NMM proposal out and rushing fer the role play's proposal toOo. harhar.. Thank GOd I managed to finish them both but taking a little 15 mins time off from my psycho test.. Arrived later as I rushed my way down.. and thank God that the role-play went all well the first time round.. Proposal was kind of crappy but harhar.. It went through ar.. and with my "sexy" voice, it went well was okie.. den to wrap up the dae was the NMM small talk about ue website..

Thank God I got through todae lar.. Yeah.. Slack slack slack~!! Harhar.. =p Den surviving 2 hours of econs lecture.. harhar, slept under the nose of the lecturer, cause was realie cannot tahan.. Wake up, little later and listen wif full attention.. not toOo bad ar.. harahr.. Little sleep goes a loOong way.. And once more I overslept while I was on my way home.. hahar, had to take another bus in the opposite direction and walk and walk home.. hahar.. Kind of sums it up that no matter how tired u are, just keep walking, u'll reach home.. harhr..

I wanna scream ar.. Tired.. harhar.. Eyes are closing.. Oh well, thinking of tomorrow kind of freaks ppl alrite.. Okie freaks me.. 2 presentation and a test.. hoo.. God noes how I'm gonna cope.. harhar, kind of tired alreadi.. Niways, am gonna go to lalaland soOn and den wake up hopefully feeling refreshed fer the last round of work.. Its scary.. harhar, never mind.. Having Ernie's continually smiling face kind of cheers me up.. BUt still nevertheless tired.. Harhar.. complaining of tired and tired here ar.. Physically in front here, but mind is elsewhere..

Man, do hope am gonna finish up da work.. Sleeping time.. nitey nite.

Hoo hoo.. Am taking one things at a time.. Before i totally start losing my voice, which i can't and have no choice but to try to make sure i do have some voice before presentation dates on wednesdae.. Harhra, yes, time passes by.. Tick tocks away and the pressure mounts but harhar.. Hold on to my faith.. Harhar.. He's gonna provide lar, and i'm gonna not be superwoman again.. harahr.. The last time was Kris, who called me that.. "joyce~! Dun be superwoman ar.." everytime before all my papers she will remind me dat.. harhar, my grades hit dat well was also thanks to her de.. harhar.. =)

Yeah, feels much better tonite.. harhar, somehow.. Kind of have my mind eased in a way cause I noe God's gonna be there.. harhar, he did.. Amazingly, I did quite alot in da early morning todae wif dat website.. Its reallie eating up time.. trying to get it done as soon as possible lar.. Now am gonna be down wif the pictures..

Nice wind blowing on moi face now.. Harhar, feel like slping sia.. harhar.. See how it goes lar.. =) *fighting*

Arhar.. Yes miss kim yee.. I've haven't been blogging fer these couple of days.. SoOo tired to do most bout entirely everything.. Been days I haven't been seeing the 2 gorgeous.. The 2 handsomes.. Haven't been posting on minjong.net.. jangdonggun.pe.kr/eng/board.. soompi.com.. And its time to realise why u haven't been able to do so.. harhar.. I've been and it all brings me back to one fact.. I haven't been seeking enough of God..

Relying toOo much on myself? Yes, I think I was doing dat.. Fighting with time, trying to prove that I am superwoman.. Trying to say that "hey~! I've got 2 hours of sleep! How manie have u got".. Making the assumption that.. "less hours of sleep = more hours of work" = Yeah~! U've got soOo many things accomplished~! Whoo hoo~! Happie?

Harhar, joyce~! Wake up dude.. Everything all goes back to the fact.. everything in him.. End of the day, ur human self will say, yes joyce, u did an awful lot.. But how much of ur time have u spent wif God.. Its been a couple of months, I must say, since I spent an awful good time wif my dear father.. The times I said spending time wif him was such a touch and go.. I think God didn't even see my face, just seeing me saying "hi God" and turning my back and walking away from his face.. Dat's wad I feel I've been doing.. Every single work u are doing, how many are u doing it for God? Its a constant reminder to do everything in him, cause most of da stuff or everything is thru him.. There's onli soOo much my human self can do.. I've realli been relying on my own self toOo much, I haven't been putting enough faith in him..

It makes me see myself when despite that little I am doing, God is still continually putting his 100% full fer me.. In making my everyday life still falling into nice, comfy pieces.. Nothing toOo difficult to handle fer my "human" self.. I dunnoe why I gotta wait till my entire body, when it breaks down.. tells me I nid rest, and tells me i've been working toOo hard.. It also means, i've not been seeking enough of God.. Will I tell myself to run back into the arms and seek our Father's face..

Listening to Hillsongs, which have been really touching me deep down.. Makes me wanna cry it out.. "i'm sorrie"... "i've strayed".. "i nid u".. Nothing else beats that realisation effect and feeling God's coming in the presence of ur daily life more and more.. I guess, I grew up in a way like dat.. Running alittle far and coming back to his presence again.. A feeling reallie nice, letting the tears flow.. Reaching fer him ever more.. The power of his love.. Yeap..

He kept me well and proper till the dae I am todae.. I ain't nothing if I ain't got him.. Dat's all I can say.. I dunnoe how I might have strayed when I was younger.. Dat bunchful of energy, wanting soOo much to go and "expand my lil playground".. Roaming round the neighbourhood wasn't fun enough.. Let's go somewhere further.. Till I got older, I got tired of roaming.. Harhar.. Yeah, always seaches the soul of myself deep down.. He's been doing an awful lot fer me.. How much have I done fer him? Giving him a full 100% every single dae will be a challenge.. dat hunger. dat life to want to lead.. I soOo wanna go find him now.. and i will.. feel soOo mean fer doing those to him.. dat's how much God loves u.. He'll love u no matter how much less or much u do.. those unconditional love.. Makes me one happie person.. Makes me whole.. Happie to have found u God =)

I am soOo freaking tired from every single deadline.. Of everything that comes and tells u that.. "hey, its got to be done by a date".. IFs Its gonna go fer another week I'm reallie gonna burn myself out.. I'm on the brink but gonna find God.. Fer a all new purpose.. strength.. Charge up.. He's always there.. That's wad i soOo love bout this coOL guy.. *muacks* glad to have found u..

Freaking long time since I last posted.. been too busy and larthegic and tired to do so anyways.. thanks to all da projects deadlines.. Just had free time to do soOo.. harhar, missed tutorials todae.. I got up soOo late to head fer BA niways.. God bless me.. hahar, I've gotta play catch up den.. As usual, getting things a little slower as compared to da rest.. But well, work fer it and push myself all da way till da semester ends.. My battery is really running low.. Simply working on God's strengths to pull me through.. God noes why I am soOo tired either.. harhar.. Could be da work and da brooding over deadlines I guess.. Its s l o w l y decreasing.. harhar, all dat's left is 2 more projects.. Econs and NMM.. hoo and I'm soOo very done..

Been reallie tiring.. But aiyo.. Terms coming to an end and everything dat u put in will go and well.. Another sem comes on in and the whole entire cycle of routine and expectations all goes replaying again.. Believe it or not, its such a freaking rat race dat everyone is soOo bothered about.. Turn ur head around, in da skool environment alone.. U really see everyone working hard, and da bottomline is dat grades does matter in a skool environment or should i say. It matters in a today's society and in Singapore's context.. It is such a necessity..

At 17, I do very much find life a cycle and a routine.. Not very much from robots I'll say.. We go on doing our similar things or should I say, identical things practically most of da dae.. but the line stnds in whereby robots do not possess feelings and dat's da onli thing dat makes us human if the terrorist ppl out there will realise.. harhar, it still makes me wonder WHAT in da world are they fighting soOo hard fer.. Killing ppl.. Wad? U no different from a robot~! Harhar, I asked dat qn to my mom.. harhar, she goes.. they're crazee.. hahar, still not the answer i wan.. maybe I'll go ask the ppl themselves.. I doubt its got anything to do wif nuclears or something..

But well, dat's one thing I do hope everyone will realise we're living all fer God's purpose.. now dat's one thing dat makes my life different apparently from the rest case on the fact dat he does makes a difference in living my everyday life.. I'll just hope dat everything dat I am doing will be a pleasing offering to him.. Cause I dunno, if God was taken away from moi life.. I'll seriously go suicide.. hahar.. He's everything in moi world and everything the reason dat holds my world upright.. uptight.. making everyday somewhat new and bearable.. Its soOo tiring.. Harhar.. Sleeping, resting.. And in the next couple of hours the entire cycle returns and u get up.. and u do ur routine once more.. Aiyo.. Tiring.. But I guess as a student is da onli time u can have the ability to change the way things go once in a while.. Once every lemme see.. 6 months lar, u get a 2 months break and u can very jolly well enjoy the wonders of working life.. hahar, end of it, u get back to ur skooling ways and do enjoy it on the fact, u remain dat all pure simple lifestyle.. harhar. pure as in u will become naturally less demanding in da ways of these worlds.. harhar, money's evil alrite.. harhar, wif more money, u wan more of this and dat.. harhar.. oh well, i think i'm just kind of tired wif da way the routine is making me.. hahar, i wanna go do something different.. harhar.. wonder wad there is.. besides the guitar playing which takes my mind off in a while.. harahr.. maybe more of God.. wharhar =)

See, this wad happens when i do stop blogging fer a while.. Some long cheong hei messages gets posted.. harhar.. SoOo todae, went out to Sim Lim shopping.. Shopping fer a casing fer moi dear lappy to get it protected whenever I bring it out.. harhar.. Got some rechargebles.. harhar, dat's my life.. harhar, i nid music and it nids batteries if u didn't realise.. harhar, toOo expensive to go get da usual un-rechargebles.. harhar.. and lastly.. got a new digital camera.. not toOo fancy.. enough to meet my nids I guess.. hahar, well.. to pamper myself fer a while and keep moiself amused.. harhar..

Larthegic. tired. restless. Pretty much wad i've been feeling these couple of weeks that I even kind of quit blogging fer awhile.. Attention span fell little short.. harhar, and I'll be taking naps and naps in da nite.. Den working through the entire nite after the CNY.. DA rush also known as the CNY rush, was just merely some of da things done.. last week was kind of hellish..

There was NMM beta.. Hoo, thank goodness things got done by myself, stucking my ass out to complete da job.. remembered dat I wanna skip Stats tut just to complete it.. But thankfully ash went to told me dat there was gonna be a class test.. Harhar, and thankfully God blessed me enough.. Was pretty ok wif da score.. Harhar, fer something i didn't reallie know why I was doing and writing da things I was writing.. harhar.. Luckily I enquired more on da topic weeks before from Hock Le Ian.. He was da one who taught me how to read dat table thingy.. harhar.. which was da most vital part of da chapter.. oOow.. =) Thank God.. Manie things to thank God fer dat I do hope that every nite before I close my eyes and sleep in recuperation of the next dae.. Dat I'll be not onli be recharged but oso be constantly reminded dat in everything u do, it is him who is wif u almost in every step of da way..

I've simply been shutting down abruptly these couple of daes.. Either I lacked slp fer dat nite or was either.. I was totally knocked out.. Yeap, dat was how last week went.. Glad its lil over now.. some things done and more to come.. Har, having the belief dat all will be done and accomplished in time to come.. Hopefulli wif God's help, its reallie gonna be done.. Seriously kind of feel times, I just think its impossible wif da datelines coming up and all, but somehow, he makes me some "superwoman" fer a dae.. hahar, I go working, and kind of times whereby I dun even have a clue at wad I am doing.. harhar, thinking dat I myself is going around in circles, but God's always there to lead u out of da way.. Pick u up and carrie on walking..

Yesterdae.. another "heong" nite sia.. At auntie Pei Yee's place.. Kim Yee's aunt.. hoo.. BBQ was fine, as usual, it was da both of us cooking and serving.. And den later on, was like drinking time.. harhar, I myself oso shocked ar.. Drank quite abit dat dae.. Playing bluff.. and just enjoying da nite.. But den comes to da next dae, it gets pretty taxing.. Slept at 530am and woke up at 830am.. Went back home to get a shower, I didn't have any spare clothes wif me.. Came home, showered and out i went to church but was late lar.. but somehow, still did learnt things from it.. U just gotta trust and trust at the end of da dae.. and i think i am falling into dat pitt, i've just dug fer myself.. harhar, could be i've been relying tooOo much on my own.. hmMm.. Will try to change it alreadi.. Whooops.. Getting tired again.. Nap first lar, get up again and do some work..

Harhar, dunnoe wassup wif me.. But kind of feeling tons of feelings in my head and trying to let them all out.. harhar.. One, there's work.. Psycho write up to be doing and I've yet done it.. simply been sitting in front of da comp fer 2 hours looking at my favourite 2 oppas face.. Leaving messages on soompi.com.. minjong.net and jangdonggun.pe.kr/eng/board.. Two, could be stress.. harhra.. Three, I'm tired.. harhar, didn't slp well yesterdae.. Rushing NMM project.. leprosy site.. Its up, am relieved.. Its one down and couple more of deadlines going on.. Some war wif datelines coming up.. hahar, Four, da house has become quieter.. Oppa's gone to aussieland to stardie.. Yeah, soOo its quieter.. no one to bicker wif u.. Bother u.. harhar, back to da usual times of time to me, myself. lassie. maid. harhar.. SoOo manie feelings.. harhar, adds up.. Pretty cranked up and finding to release them all out.. Solution: listen to coldplay: clocks and yellow. Clocks certainly do help.. da tune, intro.. harhar.. =)

Okie okie.. Ain't in da best mood to write.. Mind's trying to work its way out.. harhar.. I onli pray fer God to be wif me.. bless me.. harhar.. Gimme a hug~! Hahar, strength. patience. wisdom. I'll probably get by this hectic mess of a week. Datelines ain't da best thing to happen in one's life all at once~! harhar.. Gotta work another one more nite. See ya. Probably am gonna be slp nite da whole entire nite tml. God bless.

Harhar, okie okie.. i was supposed to be blogging like ages ago but u noe.. My butt lazee.. Harhar, and everytime I wanna blog.. I slp liao lor.. Just love my beloved bed.. harhra, it toks to me.. "joyce, come.. Slp lar!" harhar.. Duh.. I'm mad.. Llalalaa..

Har, pre new year was rather fun as compared to new yr da dae itself.. Pre new year was out wif ah hui, ah li, ah na and ah boon and sidik.. harhar.. Which was reallie fun, think its reallie fun heading out wif all of them.. Cause one thing is that there's a a assurance no one gets left out.. harhar.. Yeap, seperated fer some time but we'll find our way back together among da crowd.. Harhar, in da morning, went back HSS.. Well, not da time it was anymore, cause soOo manie teachers had left.. Manie were like the pillars and i think they were the ones who added life to the skool and made skool real fun.. Esp. da humanities department.. I miss Miss Linda and Mr Chong..* sigh*

Harar, oh well, back to da gang I went out wif.. We went out to watch "I Do I Do" harhar, which was wah piangz.. soOo funny lar.. 5 of us, enough to laugh like siao.. harhar, think the whole entire cinema was like full of our laughters.. harhar.. Day before was watching "Phoenix of the sun", and hoo hoo.. DENNIS QUAID~! *Argh* He's soOo cute course.. handsome lar.. [Die lar.. I like older men lor] But he was soOo man.. harharh.. But u noe.. I still love da 2 oppas much more.. harhar.. Den we had pool together.. Aiyo, ball where I dunnoe shoot where sia.. harharhar.. lost touch.. HmMm.. Den we went home fer our reunion dinner..

TOking bout it makes me soOo blardie.. mad.. Seriously mad.. I can't believe mummy was being soOo freaking superstitious.. Believe or not.. Had a little sms chat wif sister last nite.. And we both cannot believe it.. Noe wad? Sister wasn't around fer reunion dinner.. Cause her hubby.. Which is my jiu jiu.. His granny passed away, and due to popular CHINESE beliefs.. [*argh*] Some ppl said wad ar.. got 6 months of mourning and den cannot enter da house of families otherwise it'll only bring about bad luck.. Oh yeah, if onli u believe totally.. and wholle heartedly to da one God up there.. I'm sure our father wil definitely bless u wif one true good yr.. Just tell me when ever has our Father failed.. Never~! I mean life's ain't one smooth journey, sure there is ups and downs.. But hey, he's there wif u.. *sigh* no one ever remembers him in their daily lives in da family i can honestly sae.. All i do is hope they see da point one day.. Guess I'm not enough of a testiment at home to my mom especially.. And yeap, cause of dat, sister actualli soOo very much wanna join us.. I miss her.. *sobs sobs* And wad's the best part.. we onli eat like a family once a year.. And its during new year and mummy.. thanks to her, we soOo very much ate wif one person out todae.. Oh my gosh.. Both me and sister are on da same boat.. cause mom's reallie.. Correction.. i mean both mom and dad are reallie caught up wif bro's heading away to aussieland.. I can't believe daddie was doing his real job as a dad.. I mean besides being the breadwinner.. he was rarely involved wif matters at home.. Yeap, 2 of them were buying clothes fer bro, and yeah.. Sizes were wrong and both were more than ever willing to head back to the shops to do a swap.. SoOo manie things reallie.. I just dun wanna list them all.. harhar, bro gets da star treatment.. Sis noes toOo bout it all, harhar.. we both tok alot lar.. since growing up.. She's da best~! =) Just makes me feel comforted enough by the fact she didn't find me picking fault on bro fer wad i told her.. "I pity u actualli.. and added on "its sad.. in doing so, mummy has lost da both of us".. Its always been this way.. From young, it was evident.. I closed my eyes from last time on.. I grew up seriously wif one love onli.. Someone who I knew soOo very much loved me much more than anyone.. It was God's love.. *tears* I never let go since I was little. God reallie took care of me.. I can't reallie imagine without him not being in my life.. I thank God he was there.. I grew up not seriously from my parents love.. I mean they do love me lar.. But was all along da maid's.. All who looked after me.. harhar, i run to them since young to their arms fer hugs.. and sayangs.. Everyone, i grew up wif, was all pretty close.. Till now lar, not soOo.. *shrugs* least I used to have sis around to tok wif.. harhar, she's married out now.. SoOo well, God's always good blessing me wif a good bunch of buddiezZz and course.. My internet mummy along.. Just all these ppl makes life sweeter despite the things that goes round.. Directly under the roof.. harhar, i dunnoe.. Just thought i'll reallie let it all out now on this blog.. But dun worrie, i'll be fine.. Heading out wif my dearie later.. eh eh eh.. Dun think toOo much.. my cousin lar.. =) We'll share once more.. Standing by each other.. Seriously, i dun feel we're much different in anyways.. Family wise.. harhar, dat's y we connect like no one's business.. All da way from young till now.. =) and course, janz.. ll.. ah hui and vanessa and all.. Kind of comforts me..

harhar, now internet mummy noes why i always go.. "nothing i'm gonna do is gonna please them".. anyway, thanks alot mummy.. =) Dunnoe why, but always feels great toking to u.. HmMm okie okie.. Dun brood over soOo much.. New year new yr.. Be happie.. harhar, ah joy~! Now i guess i noe y i was named dat.. harhar.. Joyce.. Be happie lar.. =) Just looking forward to heading out later wif my dearie.. It's gonna be fun.. Cause harhar.. She noes me soOo well.. =) God bless everyone..

In Him, =)
Ah JoY ^^

This week has been such a quick week.. I can't believe how fast da week has just past me by.. And I've got some things that I really wanna do.. First things first, I'm really gonna find back the style in which I used to write back then.. In some ways, I think my sentences have gotten alot more complex and some teachers are having some difficulties understanding the meaning of my sentences.. I guess, unless you've been regularly reading what I've written, people have found some difficulty in getting what I'm trying to say..

reason behind the more complex sentences could be due to I'm just having a train of thoughts in my head and I don't get them organised systematically before I list them out.. And all my bad habits start coming in.. The long sentences and I tend to grow pretty complex that my meaning becomes incomprehensable.. Its something I'm gonna be working on.. Take a longer time to process the ideas.. Calm down and listen to what's really inside of me that I want to convey and then list them out.. I'm soOo prone to narrative writing that when it comes to a more critical point of writing, I just blab on and on and miss the entire point of being critical.. harhar.. Well, *shrugs* I'll try.. *fighting*

This week's has been also a week of receiving back your results and doing some self reflection on how i've faired.. I think there's really lots of room for improvement and I guess, I've been a little distracted during the time of my mugging in a way.. Well, time to pick up pace and play catch up.. harhar.. yeah, *fighting* Focus is back.. I hope the motivation lasts.. Rite up to the final lap of my first year in TP. I can't believe I've been in dat skool for almost a year already.. Time just flies, it was just months ago whereby I graduated from HSS.. It was 4 years.. And everything just passed me by.. Thinking back on all da times shared, they definitely was fun.. Da bonds and friendships made.. to the big gang of us heading for lunch together.. That was 4 years ago, what's 3 years gonna be like? Another part whereby time is just simply gonna pass me by.. Just like a snap of fingers.. U can't believe it urself.. Seems onli yesterdae, we were dat young.. harhar.. Somehow, u do feel u've grown.. ONe way or the other.. Another road in the journey of life..

And more things up on the growing list of deadlines.. Harhar, I noe I gotta get my NMM project done.. harhar, do hope some ideas has popped up from my head and all I've got to do is to do it out on the comp.. From what u visualise in your head, appearing in front of the screen.. ain't gonna be dat simple but hoo hoo.. I'll learn.. harhar.. Am gonna go wash up.. Listen to the music, enjoy da nite away and start my work.. hoo hoo.. CNY is coming up soOn and my brother is gonna be heading abroad on da 15th to study.. SoOo much happenings, within this period of time.. Mom's definitely gonna be busy.. Busy fretting fer lil boi toOo.. Hoo, I do hope all things are gonna turn out fine man..

Many things I just wanna shut an eye toOo.. Suddenly quite alot these days.. under the roof.. harhar, around me.. Close to me.. U come to realise some things are worth that shutting dat eye.. In Pychological terms, it is known as the phrase of denial.. harhar.. and some things are simply worth a time to simply open both of ur eyes big.. Well, got back stats paper and well, passing is one thing but seriously room fer lots of improvement.. Time to put in more heaart into my books.. Its been pretty neglected.. =)

Harhar, and the most amazing part that has happening these couple of nites.. I got no idea how come I can just end up sleeping bout the whole nite even not doing much fer the dae.. Its kind of puzzling.. Harhar, i've got dat feeling of simply sleeping like forever.. *shrugs* harhar... Freaky eh.. I dunnoe.. BUt it happened last nite.. Was like "I'll nap" but I ended up sleeping till da morning.. Harhar, after manie alarm rings.. Oh well.. God noes why in the world have I become soOo tired.. After 10 and my eyes starts dropping quite a bit.. DIdn't use to have that habit but now I think I do now.. Harhar, the onli thing dat I noe is keepin me awake is the idea of having to get my group's psychology assignment, my part of the thing done.. harhar.. Gonna go head and do before I face "total shutdown"..

Harhar, I dunnoe wad's gotten into me these days.. Harhar, restless.. Utter fatigueness lar, though I've been doing mostly nothing.. And I noe there's things to do.. Hahar, gonna get my butt working tml alreadi lar.. Just working on dreamweaver and fireworks kind of freaks me.. man, I wish dat NMM thingy can be done wif Photoshop.. Its just soOo much more user frenlier.. EEeeEeeW. Hahar.. Oh well, use more of da brains and hopefully I get something out of it..

Oh well, onli thing I could think of.. *jealousy under one roof* Harhar, u try to close ur eyes as much as u can, but times.. U had it lar.. harhar.. Wadever u do ain't gonna please everybody.. harhar, dat's why as "mummy" told me.. "u woke up on da wrong side of da bed", yeah.. dat could be on top of it.. Its just soOo distinct, aiyo.. U just really try to ignore everything.. I guess I just had it fer da dae this week.. Everything keepin inside and it ends up.. Self infliction.. harhar.. Dat's y God always say.. "no jealousy" kind of thing.. U noe y.. Its unhealthy.. hahar.. Be gone.. hahrar, well, after toking wif my "guardian angel" "mummy".. I'm pretty back to my bubbly self and well, harhar-ing away.. harhar.. I'll just take i'm doing everything fer the sake of myself.. harhar.. Yeah yeah. Fer my dreams.. *fighting* muahahar.. =)

Just soOo glad I had a chat wif moi "mummy" todae.. harhar, we did have a weird topic but well.. Its fine.. I had someone to turn to.. Thankfulli and luckily.. Well, every part of my life.. I'm one blessed lad hu always have someone by my side to give me some more guidance and teachings and support in my journey of life.. I'll never forget every single one of them.. Fer they all played a part in making me da person I am todae.. Makes me soOo very much miss Indri.. My previous "mummy".. harhar, ppl's eyes she's known as a "maid".. She was never one, taught me soOo much of things.. =) She does still calls and catch me up at times.. Harhar, one thing she instilled in me stronger.. my faith wif God.. "Pray everydae ah.. Sembayang samah Tuhan, buat sumah barang okok.. Biah dia jaga kamu.." Can't remember somemore.. harhar, yeah.. Somewhere round there.. harhar, I got no idea bout da spelling but dat's how it reads from my mouth.. She was great.. now I've got one more.. harhra.. Blessed me or wad? Heh.. ^^

Ouh, had a whooping long tok wif Jasmine on da phone over in da morning.. hahar, besides me bragging bout da usual 2 suspects.. Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa.. Toked about some situations we were facing.. I'm done wif mine.. harhar.. Poor her, I dunnoe how similar we can be but we even met the same situation around the same time.. Her's alittle more complicated.. -sigh- Well, I hope she finds her answers.. Har, nar.. I'll just head over and cheer her up over on SUndae.. we'll tok more bout it.. =)

OoOoh yeah.. Went out todae wif Glenda, Morris and Clement out to Orchard Cine to have dunnoe how manie games of pool.. harhar, fun fun.. First time on target fer quite a bit lar.. harhar, its still liil rusty.. OoOoh well, when I do find my "mr jang.kim".. It'll certainly get better.. Harhar, my training buddie.. hahrar.. Kidding kidding.. Den went had dinner and Coffe Bean fer some chat.. Harhar.. Wish dat 2 persons ar.. Happiness =) harhar, they reallie hit it off well~! Yeah, good good.. Happie fer them.. =) All da best.. Gonna sign off here and go indulge in my all time fav songs.. Da nite.. Min Jong oppa's songs.. And me.. Tata.. =) [Victory: I've gotten over my fatigueness~! I couldn't been happier.. i've been in a daze.. Blur.. but I'm backie~! muahrahar... nitey.. =p]

Harhar, everything dat I blogged yesterdae didn't publish.. harhar, maybe it was meant not to be revealed.. harhar, well well.. Currently enjoying myself quite a bit.. harhar.. Watching da show which beka-san gave me.. SoOo freaking farnie.. I laughed reallie till i cried.. harhar, my goodness.. Couldn't breathe most fer dat period of time.. harhar.. Watched Lee Sora's Propose wif Min Jong oppa.. hoo hoo.. SoOo freaking good looking.. Harhar, i'll get attached after these 2 gorgeous oppas get married off? harhar.. Kidding.. 2 of them, such sweet.. Nice guys.. Faster faster marry out lar.. Stay happie.. harhar.. ^^

Oh well, when u're free, let ur mind go.. Start thinking of some memories and stuff.. harhar, times I still do and well, it just some flashbacks.. harhar, yeap.. when it gets a little u're all alone kind of thing.. harhar.. Yeap.. Well, past is past alreadi wor.. But its kind of sweet thinkin back on our younger days.. harhar.. Cute.. =) I'll just move on again once more.. Another year on.. Another chapter on.. I'll just keep da dramas scenes in my heart.. To make me feel least alive.. hahrar.. Yeap, wif da feelings kept wif those dramas.. Take it out and relive those heart wrenching times.. I just did watching "bi mil" again.. Wif Choi Young Min.. Min Jong oppa.. *sigh* He's nice.. hahar, in a way imperfect but yet whole in a way.. Very soon will go find Yin XiangZe along toOo.. harhar.. That one is one perfect one.. harhar.. =) Handsome handsome ^^ I guess dat's y in a way, korean dramas especially this 2 holds such a special place in my heart.. They never kind of fade in any ways.. Just like Min Jong oppa songs.. Holds such special meaning especially for Babocheoreum and U're My Life.. It always holds dat much of significance to me.. It was him who brought me out of da times.. An outlet fer me to just find and seek some comfort and refuge on top of God.. Dat's why in a way, Min Jong oppa holds a significance toOo on top of Dong Gun oppa.. wanna noe why I'm soOo over Dong Gun oppa till todae.. harhar, its his smile.. It perks me up and cheers me up.. Fer dat all *fighting* spirit~! =) dat's why both oppas smiles are all over my room.. reminds me to smile whenever u feel down and stay positive.. muaharhar.. [course there's God who plays dat part]..

Okie okie.. will continue again later if i do have anything to add on.. Gonna go fer a run.. Freaking fat.. harhar.. f a t f a t f a t .. muaharhar.. must be gorging toOo much.. *oOps* Oh heck, there ain't any easy way out to slimming down execept working fer it.. harhar, gonna get my lazee bum out of da chair and head out to blow some wind.. Its a pretty good dae.. I miss ball.. hahar.. dat round bouncy thing.. harhar, pretty hard finding a court which has not manie ppl around.. And its just u and b a l l playing.. harhar.. Plus its pretty far out to look fer one hoop.. I'll just might as well.. r u n.. harhar.. r u n .. lalala.. Annyong.

Hoo hoo.. Yeah.. Just filled my tummy.. My new found "love" of indulging into a cup of hot milo wif corn flakes.. harhar, yum yum~! Harhar, I think milo's got some energy giving factor.. harhar, good.. Den carrie on mugging soOn.. Da "ram" on my memory is running out lar.. harhar.. At the rate I'm going.. harhar.. Oh well.. Enough to hold will be good.. =)

Yeah, finally its da last paper tml.. Aiyo, well, some have alreadi finished their papers and enjoying their weekends away.. harhar, here I am, still mugging.. But oh well, last one.. While some have yet to begin their papers.. harhar.. Oh well.. Gonna be fun.. Wif a week of break coming up to finish up both assignments and oso some things I wanna do.. Watching some shows man.. harhar.. They're all stacked up and I've yet taken a look into the shows.. harhar.. soOo hoo hoo.. Dong Gun oppa and Min Jong oppa.. Coming at ya~! ^^

Okie okie, will come back and blog or if there's anything to else.. Nothing much.. Just enjoying da breeze blowing at my face wif da deep blue skies.. Reallie lovely.. Cloudless. Deep blue. My favourite colour.. Its lovely.. =) I must be pretty bored.. harhar.. Took a pic of it.. =p

*smiles* Harhar, had a great time yesterdae.. Harhar, smiling like no one's business and simply having fun wif my new found love.. Hee.. Well, someone hu's able to make u happie.. Smile, just make u feel da way u are.. Being happie.. Oh yeah, his real pleasng guy and he manages to take all ur thoughts away from ur mind.. fer that entire time u're wif him, u dun kind of think of toOo much things except just enjoying ur time wif him.. Harhar, nah nah nah.. Not hu u think it is.. Dun think toOo much.. He's simply my dear nephew.. Jarrett.. harhar.. He's soOo adorable man.. hahar, had soOo much of fun cuddling him.. Playing wif him.. Cause his parent decided to throw a party fer da lil boy hu's turning 2 in a couple of days.. We simly pre-celebrated his birthdae earlier lar.. =)

Oh well, now I'm back home.. hmMm.. One more last paper to go.. *grits* It'll be over soOn.. harhar, its a lil tourturous in a way this time or wad.. hahar.. Maybe its da time of da year.. harhar, just wanna get on wif da fun dat is installed fer me I guess.. hahar.. BUT before da entire thing, u've gotta mug mug mug.. harhar, fer econs.. Study hard.. SoOo meanwhile, here's da pic of Jarrett and me.. hahar, its small cause its from my phone wor.. =) Take care ya ppl.. I'm like soOo looking forwards to Mondae.. Harhar, least its no more books fer some time.. But in a way this term test is gonna make u read and follow wadever has been happening and open ur big 2 eyes.. harhar..

*bangs wall*.. I nid another pair of glasses dude.. Aiyo.. Careless.. Kills.. hahar, never mind.. Its over but thinking about it seriously makes me wanna kill myself though over dat accounting paper.. harhar, dat's y went to vent da mistakes over da basketball rim.. harhar, shoot some hoops.. And wad happened when I was vending it all on da hoop.. Every shot went in.. harhar.. Dat doesn't happen very often i realise.. But it was from my favourite spot.. Some where round the free throw line, by the side.. Further out but inside of da three point line.. Hoo hoo.. After the vending was done.. less shots went in.. harhar..

Da dates are gonna kill me.. I better pray and hope I did see da dates rightly but I doubt it.. Aiyo.. Just wait fer the papers to come back and see which dates was rite.. Super duper careless.. Oh well, I always was.. Never mind, wad's done is done, cannot be undone..

Todae.. HmMm.. Is Jarrett's birthdae celebrations over at Pasir Ris chalet.. Just seeing him somehow just makes u feel better in a way and it is nice and lovely always looking at my lil nephew [i almost said neice once more] Harhar.. Yeah.. Just makes u not brood over things and all.. Kids are kids.. Lovely.. Love his smile.. His soOo huggable.. love carying him around.. hahar.. Though he's a little heavy.. harhar.. Gonna be playing wif him todae and I guess head home and mug fer my final paper.. Man oh man.. Follow Xiaobin.. "nah nah nah.. dun wanna think about it liao".. harhar.. Cute.. Dun brood over it~! harhar.. Hope things turn better.. Or I pray and hope.. harhra, when its over.. harhar.. =)

I think I just realised something.. harhar, anything to do wif formulas [except fer physics, which somehow I tend to do pretty well back den..] I dun normally do it well.. harhar, maths was one.. It always appear apparently u can do when u take ur time.. Given test dae.. u fail ur job.. hahr.. I wonder wad in da world did I practice fer when a "c" gets stucked on da paper da rest of my life.. harhar.. *shrugs* somehow, it kind of happens and it gives me dat amaths feeling all over again.. maths feeling. = dat uncertain feeling [U feel u might fail and on the other hand.. Some hope of passing]or dat failing feeling wor.. I dunnoe, no confidence in this paper.. rite before da paper I had dat feeling already while I was mugging.. Its open book and well, yeah.. Read, study still.. Nope, doesn't work like some fixed topics like NMM.. hahar, I think I tend to do well in definitions subjects.. Just memorise away, I tend to do well there.. harhar.. Definitions, yeah.. Somehow, it all gets into my head.. harhar.. Vent my uncertainties on this blog.. harhar.. lousy feeling..

And tomolo's accounting paper.. Kind of a yeah in a way.. Its pretty fun but no yeah yet till da entire thing is over.. Da ordeal.. Hahar, like it or not, u still gotta get over every single papers.. Waiting fer dat dae.. harhar, dat's why I think its always good to look back every time u graduate and get promoted one level up.. harhar.. as in after ur sec 4.. u graduate and think.. "yeah, I'm done wif skool, uniform and stuff..] den u noe.. poly, another lump of "stuffs" come coming in ur way.. harhar.. There'll always be "stuff" coming ur way i guess whether u like it or not.. harhar.. U'll get by it.. Hahar.. Man, stats.. hoo hoo.. Better be studying real hard fer my dear econs man.. 3 days gracce.. *keeps fingers crossed*

Came back and went nuts.. harhar, went to the supermarket to buy some groceries fer my omelette.. Was craving fer dat.. harhra, cooked and reaslied portion was a wee bit toOo much.. Da bin ate it up.. harhar.. Onli mommy and me.. harhar, she ate dat bit.. harhar, rest was mine.. hoo hoo.. Pig pig.. Den sit down and watched "charm".. Suprisingly, kind of follow up wif dat show.. i didn't use to like it a wee bit back den when I was younger.. I used to label dat show.. "demonic".. hahrar, well, fer now, I kind of like it.. Less "demonic" nowadays.. And da story always revolve roound Whyeth.. I think dat's how u spell his name.. and the 2 handsome guardian angels.. One's called, yeah.. Whyeth [drew fuller] and the other one I like.. His chubbier now.. can't remember his name.. oh yeah.. Leo [brian klause] something like that his name.. Botak and cute~! Harhar.. oh well, actualli the whyeth portion kind of interests me.. gonna be following CSI soon.. harhar, everytime see da advert.. But never kind of follow.. At 10pm.. i'll be in my room online usualli.. charm's 8.30pm.. Good timing after dinner wait around and show starts.. harhar.. =)

Okie okie, soOo much fun fer a dae.. Gonna go chop chop and read up definitions and stardie.. mug mug mug.. fer accounting.. =)

Gee, suddenly thought of him all of a sudden.. harhar, as I took out da "westlife's greatest hits".. He got that fer me.. harhar.. Listened to da older songs.. Kind of bored wif da current music.. reminescence.. my mind thought of him fer that moment of time.. hahar, the exhanges of gifts.. Da times together.. hahar, all da memories.. harhar, thinking toOo much ar.. harhar.. Just times u'll start thinking of da sweet memories.. harhar.. But to say, I'm over him alreadi, pretty much all gone.. but just dat bit still lingers around somewhere.. To say dat I've forgotten totally, will make me a complete liar.. harhar, cause there's still some bits here and there.. Saw him around skool yesterdae.. harhar, pleasant suprise.. was around his skool fer da NMM paper.. harhar.. he gave his signature wave of "hi" hahar.. In his best colour, red.. harhr, cute.. Smiled back and waved at him.. harhar.. =) Oh well, times of da past already..

Had a pretty good chat wif Jin Hui last nite.. Whoa, seems like everyone's going thru a little rough patch at da moment.. Hope Vanessa and Ling Li and ah Boon are all doing fine.. one good thing in which I think which helps us to keep in contact with each other though not chatting dat much.. is simply the blog.. Da 3 of us which has got one simply can just head down and just read up on wad is happening.. always feels writing adds a different feeling and more personal thoughts in a kind of way to get to noe a person better.. Its where ur thoughts are placed.. U dun go telling someone ur rough thoughts or wad goes thru ur head in just opening a conversation.. Hence, always feel that blogging does help in helping urself straighten thoughts and feelings out.. Oso good thing to use to keep each other updated wif one another's doings in life lar.. Starts da whole thing going I guess of wad the entire blog is.. harhar..

Will blog again fer the later part of da dae.. Or not.. harhar.. not toOo sure lar.. Got da whole dae to myself.. Left to study fer tomolo's stat's paper.. Thanks mummy fer that encouraging note.. read ur message on YM just now.. harhar, my regular follower of da blog.. =) Thanks.. Dun worrie, harhar.. will get my eyes off the comp whenever is nided.. harhar.. Gotta take it off after goggling at Dong Gun oppa and Min Jong oppa.. harhar.. Time to mug.. =)

Yeah.. Pretty had a good time off from some papers.. Went out todae wif YiLing and Stephie.. harhar, actualli was moi first time out wif da two of them.. not fer Yiling.. harhar, was my second time wif her.. just basically went out, did lil accounting wif Yiling and den chill out at Starbucks just basicalli chatting.. enjoy doing dat especially when its toking wif ur favourite drink.. harhar, hot chocolate.. hahar, wif whipped cream and all.. Fun.. Had some good time walking walking around.. probably gonna slack somemore hours off from todae and start some work in da morning.. =)

Pretty glad about da NMM paper.. Thank God fer blessing da dae.. I was early.. *yeah* harhar, waking me up early.. Giving me da memory.. Oh well, fer everything he has helped me wif.. Couldn't have reallie done dat much without him.. He's coOL.. And u do see him working.. Finally, fer one of da longest time I didn't do quiet time.. Fer like some weeks.. I finalli got my butt down and disciplined myself.. always telling myself.. "hey, Joyce, u spend everyday.. hours in front of da comp wif Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa.. Wad more hours should u be spending wif God.." I always feel guility whenever I dun do my quiet time and read more bout his word.. in which helps enriches me.. Learn da ropes of being a better person.. or at least lead a life which is fit enough fer a name "christian".. hopefulli to shine God's glory around.. yeap.. soOo it remains one of da vital part in moi life.. SoOo glad went back to his side once more.. Makes everything just fall into place fer one thing I noe.. U noe u've left everything and committed everything to a pair of hands.. Blessed as u are.. He's there fer me.. =)

SoOo now enjoying da nite away.. Taking a lil break.. in front of da comp.. Wif an eyeful of Min Jong oppa and Dong Gun oppa.. My goodness, soOo handsome handsome man da 2 oppas.. Min Jong oppa was singing "wae" [why] and wad was the other one I watched.. HmMm.. "Bi Won" [sad wish].. Hoo hoo, Min Jong oppa was handsome handsome.. love da energy.. Da voice he has whenever he sings.. [well, its been companying me most every single dae.. On da bus.. heh heh..] And da special loook he has from 99.. Hoo hoo, da big white collar shirt and da black jacket wif da white sleeve collar popping out.. Man, coOL.. plus on, wif Dong Gun oppa.. Lookin at pics from AAE, birngs back loads of memories fer me.. Da super nice guy.. Yin Xiangze.. hoo hoo.. plus da recent pics from Japan, in black.. Argh.. man, these 2 are beauty man.. =)

Currently enjoying my dinner which mommy bought fer me.. harhar, at 1020pm.. Harhar, yummy.. always noes my favourite dishes.. She'll get some veg and beancurd fer me.. harhar, one more dish will be something of random but those 2 are fixed.. harhar, just like da way I call it.. Hee hee, no wonder she's my mummy.. =) *smiles* Oh yeah, no fair.. harhar, daddie packs food fer bro, but not fer me.. harhar.. I've got mummy.. harhar.. I "complain" to mummy.. and told her da back part.. "But dun nid scared.. Cause i got mummy to dote on me.." Harhar, and she went.. "course lar, u're da youngest mar.." Hahrar, playful playful.. =) Received a phone call from Su Hui toOo.. hahar, been a super loOoong time since I last saw her.. soOo sweet of her to still remember me.. Like 2 years alreadi I think.. Had fun times together, basketball together.. She was da sharp shooter.. den study and do project together over at my place.. She was a good listener.. =) Can chat like no one's business.. Miss her, and whoa.. Still suprised she stilll could remember me.. =)

Heh heh.. well, I posted an entry again and the best part came when the entire psage refreshed and I clicked "publish" da blog went.. "please sign in" and so, at da end of da dae.. nothing got posted and well.. I probably am gonna do this a second time round..

2 sites are down at da moment I think.. Soompi's forum is down and oso Jangdonggun.pe.kr's english board is oso down.. Da hyperlink of dat site to da forums board apparently just disappeared.. wondered wad happened.. Soompi I can probably understand why.. but jang's site.. nope.. Dun think it ever happened.. it was down since last nite 12 when I came home ba.. NoOo... I dun wanna think of dat.. Site's forum got deleted.. not too sure.. hope its not it..

Well, was saying dat I had a great day yesterdae.. =) Was over at Rachel's place to celebrate her 18th birthdae and it was reallie fun wif our CG and our newly added member.. morris.. harhar.. Well, think everyone did have a great time and I had to.. wif games played Murderer and lots of chat chat wif Joyce and oso Glenda.. It was nice.. PUt ur mind of some stuff and just let it go.. harhar, da dae has come and has asked me to better go hit da books.. harhar.. It kind of puts me off.. hahar.. after getting comm skills's stuff of dat journal and all done.. Pretty much left to just stardie.. harhar.. Mug mug mug.. "war" wif da books.. harhar.. =) Lts of music to appreciate and listen to over the radio to keep me company fer the hours. harhar.. =) Dat's da time when i get real close to the songs over da radio.. harhar, actualli not reallie.. been leaving my comp on every nite simply fer a reason fer the radio.. harhar, their songs to keep me company.. hee hee.. =) Kie kie.. Gonna go mug and be a mugger fer now.. be back wif da later part of da dae den..

Nice dae todae.. Clear blue lovely skies as I tied da curtains to da grills of da window and look out of them.. its reallie nice.. not toOo warm and da ocassional breeze makes me feel all alive once more.. fresh air.. =) To enjoy another dae of life.. harhar, yeap.. after recent happenings.. da fragility of life.. it is a blessing to feel alive and with clear fresh air to breathe.. thankful fer dat..

Just spent time todae reading up on microecons.. hoo hoo.. Take effort to read and thankfulli.. Blessed enough to understand it finally.. Was like sprouting question marks all over da place till todae.. Think my grasp of things takes reallie a long time or is either I require actualli to put in more time and effort in getting things understood into my head lar.. =) But well.. wadever it is, just gonna try and try.. Gonna read up on nmm now.. After a charge up dinner.. Mummy da bao foodie fer me todae =) harhar.. And eat and eat.. And back on nmm.. it's something more understoodable and straight forward i crack less of da brains.. hoo hoo.. Another dae tml and week of war wif da books.. harhar.. Gonna mug.. tata..

Haiyo.. Hahar, had a pretty good dae to myself todae.. Yeah, spent time doing the things i enjoy doing.. which is simply getting home early.. Spending time wif Lassie.. Practising more on the guitar.. Getting to change the chords is always challenging.. hahar, but real solid learning time fer me.. Always feel enlightened once I do it.. Harhar, good stuff.. Puts other things on hold.. harhar.. Though there's work.. Of dat journal to do.. And econs tutorial fer tml.. And I've yet to done it.. Just sat in front of the chair after dinner and watching that "I witness" about the tsunami.. my how many nth of watching that from weeks since that wave struck.. always very disheartening.. Used to be quite bothered about it.. but now, less.. All can do is wad I guess keep everyone in ur prayers..

SoOo well, been a good time fer me todae doing the things dat I enjoy.. hahar, part of the time now goes fer getting work done now I guess.. hopefully my eyes holds.. harhar.. God bless me~! Harhar.. And yeah.. Get work started and start my "war" wif da books.. hahar.. Mugging time.. EeEeewW.. hahar.. =)

Blogger's getting a little slow.. Harhar.. Oh well.. As long as u have some avenue to place ur thoughts to, I guess slow oso u'll just live thru it.. Oh well, todae hasn't certainly be the best of days.. but as jojo went.. LIke wad Xiao Xiao would say in "Guardian AngeL", she'll like to have an ordinary day.. Wad does she mean by an ordinary dae.. Well, basically just a day whereby all family members arrive safely home at the end of a dae, have challenges and problems which are all manageble in a way.. Just an orinary dae.. Todae wasn't any ordinary dae ba..

Oh well, nothing much just dat I'm nursing a bout of flu.. It always seems to be occuring rite head on before any papers that I have.. harhar.. Which is reallie kind of weird and u do wonder y.. Thought about it, could be due to the rain and the getting on and off from some air conditioned environment lar, which got me pretty sick todae.. Skipped NMM and Stats lecture.. harhar.. Something I shouldn't have done but oh well.. Fer some reasons I missed it.. Shall have to play catch up soon.. Sit down and just "vegitate".. Absorb and think and think.. harhar.. =)

Thankfully I managed to get my observation done before lessons.. After waking up todae in the morning, went on to work on the comp fer the report.. Managed to complete it.. and just den.. Went down to complete the printing process in da office.. But guess wad.. Ink cartridge went out.. Mean dat was real unlucky.. Den asked omma if she bought spares.. harhar, probably she felt I didn't asked in a correct manner and she went.. "how am i supposed to noe when the printer ink runs out?" ya da ya da.. Saying I was pulling a glum face and all.. Harhar.. Told her dat on a fact I was sick.. harhar, she kept quiet.. Think she forgot bout dat.. And it certainly doesn't help on a fact I was sick.. Rushing fer da print and all.. She added on.. Kind of hurting and I was kind of fuming in a way.. Den the bus, harhar.. I missed it just cause i went back to get the player which had the printing doc in it.. Kind of frustarting to start the dae off.. but oh well, coOL down and it was okie.. The dae went pretty fine but well.. Tiring.. harhar.. Think I shall go to lalaland sooon man.. zZzzZz.. Slpy.. Tata..

Oh yeah..New layout and new thingy.. Still am workin on it but not toOo much of emphasis.. harhar, gotta start focusing on hitting da books once more.. harhar, jobbie of a student is to hit da books more or less.. Puts me off in a way.. *sigh* hahar, but u still gotta do it..

Alrite, well, basically <-- I tend to say dat word reallo alot of times whenever I get nervous during sharings and presentation as wad happened to me on Friday's commnuication skills presentation.. It was a mere 4 ppl, the person of my group and I did used it loads of time.. My cher even bothered to go and count the number of times I said it.. Together wif my fellow group member.. Which is how nice of alvin to have done dat.. And next Kim Khoon went on to use da word in most of his sentence and went.. "oh, its kind of addicting".. harhar.. Oh yeah.. Had loads of giggles and laughters wif dat "bsaicalli"..

SoOo well, todae didn't reallie do much except heading don to Sim Lim Square to get some rechargebles fer the player.. And black dvds.. harhar.. And a new pair of headphones.. harhar.. Oh well, it was alrite. harhar, except I just realised I've been spending a heck lot of marnie these couple of weeks and it is time to quieten down dat money spending habits.. harhar.. and hmMm.. Wad else.. Went home and realise I had just suffered from a bout of flu.. EeEee.. Which has got me all armed wif a jacket round me as I sit down and blog.. hahar, not in a mind to do anything else.. Though there's tutorials fer me to start sitting down and doing it.. hahar, I've been giving and pushing everything wif an excuse of tired.. hahar, gotta break dat.. tiredness thingy.. harhar.. Could be laziness.. Or more likely.. hahar.. Okie okie.. Gonna chop chop work on da links of this bloggie and off to work again.. =( Wanna slp fast.. harhar..

Hoo hoo.. Yeap.. Finally got into blogger from skool.. Lug dat piggy lappy to skool todae which I doubt will be of any use todae lar.. Wasted effort.. Well, knew it was gonna end up this way but *sigh* Since alvin asked.. And asked wif a please... Just brought dat whole thing.. Pretty fun doing ur favourite stuff online.. On ur own comp lar.. harhar.. Well, make this a snappy one cause gonna run fer lessons soOon..

Just had lunch wif Emily and all.. Harhar, emily complained of it being overloaded.. Dunnoe, times I think my time in skool, dun reallie seem to be building much solid frenships as compared to back den where we see each other practically fer most of the time.. Hwee Boon lar, Ling Li, Jin Hui, Vanessa and Janna.. I think those were the best times on top of the church mates and cell.. Harhar, skool seems lil different.. Like a place fer u to go and get work done and tata.. Harhar, some touch and go thingy.. Harhar.. =) Think I think toOo much.. Harhar..

Oh well, oh yeah.. wanna blog in da morning.. harhar, to place it down to sae how blessed I am actaulli.. Harhar, wif God lookin after me these past few weeks.. Harhar.. Yeap yeap... In a way whereby I'll be pretty lazee and tired and doze off midway while being online and the next thing u noe.. I'm in lalaland.. Wif work and all undone, God wakes me up early in the morning feeling all freshed and charged up rather then the nites whereby I'll be awake or half awake doing my work.. harhar, God solved my half awake.. harhar, been having this new habit of waking early in the morning and doing all my work before heading off to skool.. Which is pretty cool in a way.. Instead of waking up late.. harhar, not dat now I still reach skool on time but its a more optimised wayof using time lar.. harhar.. Yeap yeap.. Every morning, at a certain time, I'll just open my eyes and wake up as if there's someone calling me lar.. SoOO yeah.. It is cool to see how God has been working in my life in all the little things dat he's been doing does makes me see dat he's rite beside me.. =) The strength to pass thru the most tiring daes.. Harhar, bottomline.. He'll be there when u nid him most.. Just do keep holding faith in him and he wun let u go.. AwWw.. Ain't GOd cooOl..

Harhar, kie kie.. Better be running now.. Oh man, I'll miss Corrinne May's Fly Away the moment i shut this comp off.. The tune is in my head the entire dae.. harhar.. Corrinne May's website Can listen to the song there.. Its real good.. I love it.. harhar.. See ya den.. Tata..

Tiring dae its fine.. U can live through it.. Sadly, got to add on.. hurt-ed.. Whoo hoo, yeah.. almost gonna head to bed kind of mode and there goes a call from mummy.. "joyce~!!!! dadd'ie comp.." Every single time something ends up wrong wif the comp, its me.. The blame gets shifted to me.. Mean okay.. Wanna blame den, okie.. Pretty used to dat.. It was always me anyways.. get it fixed fer u toOo.. Whar.. Times u wonder knowing toOo much stuff could be good.. Offering solution but times, no one listens.. Aiyo.. Shows how significant u are at times.. When everyone's moods turn not toOo good and u become the best person to rant it on.. Thankfulli, I've always someone called God to bunk on.. Whine and whine to him or turn to internet mummy.. =) U'll feel blessed alreadi and it makes everything.. Just one of those days..

I just wished she didn't use that 2 words on me.. Dat look and words, hoo.. pretty a blow.. Oh well, forget it.. remembering wad jojo told me when I asked her after waiting fer someone fer almost like 3 hours I think.. "Dun u ever get angry?".. The best answer one could get.. "Why bother to get angry, mean the time is alreadi wasted, sOoO Why get angry" Whoa, I was real impressed by that answer.. Guess the same thing could be applied here.. Wad's done been done, cannot be undone.. SoOo well, just try to get over it and rant it over on the blog fer myself instead of anione cause wun be fair to dat person mar.. SoOo yeah.. Throw it over my head.. I'll put it down here lar.. =) Some way or another, it makes u smile more at the end of the dae.. Feeling happier in a way.. U probably made someone feel better or maybe either helped them reflect on wad they did before they slp.. *sigh* Having not much "battery" life alreadi, times things dun reallie go in ur way eh?.. Oh well, onli can say and pray that they'll be God and thankful that he is around to make sure u'll get over these things.. =)

Been on slacking mode these couple of days ever since the Christmas mood.. harhar.. Till yesterdae whereby I started doing my tutorials u noe u've been rather lazee.. harhar.. SoOo glad u slowly picked the pattern up of doing work once more cause it gets rather tempting not doing anything and living ur days like dat.. Harhar..

Apparently, there was loads on my mind to blog actualli.. Rite from last weekend, had loads of stuff to write.. But it always ended up these past few nites, harhar.. Doing some stuff either doing it half way and I fall off to lalaland.. harhar, times wif the stuff all over the bed, and I'll just probably head to bed the same position I went to lalaland, rite till daybreak breaks and I'm most likely in da same position lar.. harhar..

Well, wad I've been keepin myself busy is making suprises fer the ppl dearest to me lar.. harhar.. *grins*.. yeap, creating suprises and trying to work on the stuff i've promised.. But have yet gotten it up.. Shopping fer gifts fer my dearie cousins, Jasmine and Caroline.. Mummy and onne.. Oppa's got his alreadi.. hahar.. Just recalled where I went last thursdae nite out wif Cheryl, had a good sharing session.. Chit CHattin getting to noe and get to understand each other much better.. Was pretty suprised how I could open up to her.. hahar.. Well, God definitelly has his touch to everything.. He has always been.. Harhar.. Thru every small things he does fer u everydae, simply makes his presense felt.. Harhar.. *rings a bell*.. He's always there.. Yeap.. Yeap.. And as fer last Fridae, moi went to IKEA.. How on earth can I ever forget.. harhar.. Getting gifts fer da fans I've gotten to noe over the net.. On both boards, I wish I could get my gift over to those overseas one.. But aiyo.. postage is probably gonna pull me off.. And hence, i'll just think of something.. harhar, its gonna be a busy nite on the eve of christmas.. harhar.. Wish there wasn't skool.. harhar, soOo now u gotta manage heading to skool, back.. Tutorials and doing all the things you love to do most all da the same time.. harhar.. Sounds like I'm fully utilising my full 24 hrs that God has soOo blessed me wif.. harhar, well, this week, I went back to God's house toOo after being away fer like 2 weeks.. harhar, last week was due to some lame flu.. And being back to his place, he has once again blessed the church wif a group from Downtown, Aussieland if I'm not wrong, and had a great time of worship.. Though I onli attended like the handful of songs, i felt God's touch dat dae.. harhar.. It was great.. =)

SoOo well, time flies and as fer todae.. it was pretty cool toOo.. harhar, well, its alreadi the 3rd week of skool wor.. harha, getting to noe the new mates better.. harhar.. The group of us, Shili, Alvin and Zhimin hitched a ride from Kim Khoon's car.. harhar, cool.. Makes me all hyped up to get my own transport.. harhar.. 2 wheeler first I guess.. Something reachable.. harhar.. WEll, its gonna be one of the resolutions fer next yr.. harhar.. BOut the parents part, I guess I'll just leave it all up to the one up there lar.. harhar.. It was pretty fun, time doing and sharing our project.. my first project seriously, where I had a group meeting which had like more den 2 ppl.. It was always me and Emily back den.. Well, she was actualli all dat one nided in a grp toOo.. =) Wad else happened.. harhar, oh yeah.. Internet mummy called~! Harhar, cannot believe it and it took me quite a while to register in my head hu "lili" was.. Cause my mom at home was called one, but the hightlight of the part came when i realised.. "why on earth will mom call my mobile cause she's at home~!".. harhar, yeah.. Dat was how blur I got.. Thank God I heard my phone.. harhar, cause the ringer on my phone is pretty redundant.. Harhar, got it changed to something real loud.. harhar.. I was in front of the desktop where I got her call.. harhar.. SoOo sweet and of course a pleasant suprise.. She's got a cute voice~! Hahrar.. ^^

Okie, and had a pretty late chat wif her before she went off to laland.. harhar, my turn soOn after completing the tutorial fer tml's dae.. hoo hoo.. Long dae tml.. Better go catch some more slp as I can.. harhar.. Otherwise reallie gonna become some kind of panda bear.. harhar.. And this typing off the lappy keyboard is rather addicting.. harhar.. Cause kind of used to it le.. hahar.. Typing speed has increased significantly wor.. harhar.. Cool~! Lappy roxs fer now.. Learnt how to appreciate it much more as previously ever since "wireless" came in and the whole comp went internet enable.. and U learn how to appreciate real faster processing in the starting up time and try to maintain the comp in dat condition.. harhar.. It just keeps getting better fer me.. ahrhar, can't do without it nowadays.. my life.. Which is music, its all in there.. =) Listening to Wheesung.. Fly To The Sky.. And more.. Once in a while, play the old discs of Min Jong oppa and all.. My room has indeed become the place to be.. harhar.. more reasons to stay at home~! Hahrar..

Wharhar.. Time kind of flies.. oOoPs.. Correction.. It actualli flies alreadi.. Things at skool are picking up.. And I do better hope my accounting rings a bell, and starts recollecting dat back recon stuff.. harhar, i'm slow in dat.. harhar.. Otherwise, beter start learning how to "float" around wif the current new stuff of work.. Harhar... Prob after christmas and all?.. harhar..

Okie okie.. Enough bout skool.. harhar, well, been heading out pretty often this entire week.. harhar, luxury eh.. harhar.. Yeah, when skool's yet to be at "full-blown", u probably still feel dat life's a luxury.. hahar, well, todae went out to have dinner wif moi cell grp leader, Miss Cheyrl Tean.. hahar.. Boy was it real fun wif her.. Went holland village, walk walk.. First was dat cute Ladeebird slippers she bought.. which was reallie cute lar.. =) Den went looking fer the pet shop which we stayed quite a while in there.. Staring at the doggies.. Seriously fell in love wif the retriver pup and the chihuahua was cute.. hahar.. 2 of us toking to each other and to the dogs.. I think someone saw me seriously thought I was mad man.. Toking.. Staring.. PLaying.. Fidgeting.. harhar.. U noe wad?.. the best part was that the dogs were kept in dat "cubicle", wif a glass pane in front of me.. I was just merely, playing wif the glass pane.. harhar..

SoOo we ate at that good old nice shop which served nice nice chicken.. wadever.. Be it porridge.. Noodles and stuff.. had a plate of Ipoh Hor Fun, and it's been ages since I last ate that lor.. But it was still pretty good.. But a little like drop in standard as to compared to the time I ate it way back den.. Which was like.. Hmm.. Let's say 3-4 yrs back.. harhar, no kidding.. From that same stall lar, I mean.. Den we just simply sat there at the same place and tok and tok and tok.. topic ranges.. harhar, from pretty inside of me, to the things around me and her.. hahar.. Fun fun, reallie had lots of fun toking and laughing sia.. Been quite a while, and Pretty amazed I opened up pretty well toOo.. Probably cause i feel shou3 le lar.. =) chat until I think we lost track of time till omma called me up.. We realised it was 10 pm le.. haha.. I'm scary.. harhar... But well, I think I've let go quite abit, within this week on my mind and toking to her gives the confirmation to the stuff in which i managed.. =)

Okie lar, eyes closing soOon.. Hahrar.. Ntey..

Da dumb dumb computer.. harhar.. Just cleaned da keyboard wif a piece of tissue and it cranked up.. SoOo I had to restart the comp again.. Just moved the comp to my fav place in da whole entire house.. Which is my bed in moi bedroom.. Wif my fav pillow to hug.. Lean on.. Best part.. Looking at my 2 favs.. Dong Gun and Min Jong oppa.. Was simply goggling at Min Jong oppa in da charity show.. Whoa, I think I'm loving guys in long sleeved.. Button up, stripes shirt or not.. I'm in love wif the, now.. Especially Min Jong oppa in it, in WHITE.. Roxs.. Dong Gun oppa, in white is not bad, but he looks way good in BLACK.. See, my "yin and yang".. harhar..

Okie okie, enough bout da 2 guys.. reaching 1am soOon and blogging in a kind of tired mood.. But fret not.. Min Jong oppa's voice just simply roxs me, whenever I feel soOo darn tired of anything.. Larthegic.. He's the answer man.. Think he shall company me tonite.. Just had dinner out wif my cg.. ppl of tp.. hahrar.. yeap.. SoOo bloated.. And I do regret eatin dat Tom Yam seafood soup wif rice.. its soOo yucky.. Made me bloated till now.. harhar.. And made my trip back home.. SoOo kind of tired now.. harhar..

Been a pretty long dae.. And there's one more.. Tml.. But tml will be more slack cause its one lec.. one lab and one tut.. SoOo pretty fair.. Todae was hectic.. harhar.. Thankfulli God pulled me thru the dae.. hoo hoo.. 2-7 pm.. Non stop of lecture.. tutorial and lecture.. hahar.. beat that.. well, GOd's been always true and good fer me.. Blessing me.. Still went pretty alrite.. But its kind of draining at the end of the dae lar.. SoOo gonna go recharge myself soOon..

Kind of happie alreadi.. Cause I think I can finally let it all out and say.. "I'm done wif him alreadi".. harhar, no more pinning hopes.. no more thinkin bout him dat much.. =) SoOo can say.. I'm finally "over" him alreadi.. After a loOong time.. harhar.. Finally stood up.. harhar.. After spending sometime "recovering".. I've recovered.. harhar.. =) Pretty sure cause I felt it todae.. Suddenly not dat feeling anymore.. No more of hopes.. Given up and all.. SoOo yeah.. Its been a long while.. heh heh.. SoOo all in all, its been a tiring dae.. Wanna listen to Min Jong oppa's voice as i head to lalaland and say my prayers.. Nitey.. Its another dae tml.. harhar.. =)